My Hot Alpha

"Hey where are you?".

Okay so that's not what I expected her to start with.

"Having coffee with Lana. Is everything okay?". I asked.

"Just peachy". I could hear the sarcasm in her voice. "You want to tell me what's going on?". She asked.

"Not really". Not everyone needed to know our business. "How bad is it?".

"He's shifted three times already. I'm scared he's going to lose control to his wolf".

"Surely he has more self control. I mean how did he manage before I got here?".

"Do you know what Leah forget it but if he does lose control to his wolf it's on you".

"She hung up". I looked at Lana. "And she wasn't very nice".

"Do you think maybe you should go down there?".

I wasn't doing that. Jake could handle and control his wolf just like everyone else. They couldn't always expect me to fix it.

"No". I took a sip of my coffee. "They can't just expect me to fix things every time we have an argument or a disagreement. If Jake can't control himself or his wolf without me then that's on him". "Fair enough".

"And if he can't see how much I love him then that's on him as well. He's acting out because I didn't say it back and I get it. He's hurt but taking it out on everyone else isn't the answer". "I hear you". She smiled.

"I'm doing the right thing aren't I?".

"I can't answer that for you. Look Jake will come around, he'll understand. You weren't ready to say it and that's okay. It doesn't mean you don't feel the same".

"Why can't men be as understanding as woman?". I sighed.

"Because they're men". She made a face causing me to laugh. "You ready to go?".

"Yeah but could you drop me off at my grans instead of Jake's. I want to pack up the rest of my stuff".

"Sure thing".

...

I stood staring at my empty room. This was it, this was really happening. Chewing the inside of my cheek I turned off the light closing the door behind me. None of this felt real.

I had all these questions and no one to ask. It was like an itch I couldn't scratch. Heading downstairs I entered the living room taking a seat on the couch. It felt weird being here and yet oddly comforting. The million dollar question will always be why she left. Leaving everything but the clothes on her back and her car.

Odd behaviour and not like my gran at all. Groaning I grabbed the cushion next to me and screamed into it. I was frustrated because I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Did it have anything to do with my dad? Is he the reason she left?

"Bear?".

"What?". I didn't bother removing the cushion from my face.

"What you doing here?".

"I could ask you the same thing". I removed the cushion so I could look at him.

"Kinda need to talk to you about that". He scratched the back of his head. "Was hoping you'd let me stay here for a while".

"It's not my house". I shrugged.

"Well it kinda is seeing as gran isn't here". He took a seat on the chair by the window.

"Stay if you want. Is Alanna staying with you?". I asked.

"That's the plan but only if you're okay with it".

"It's not as if I live here anymore Carter. Gran made sure of that one as well".

"Bear".

"What I'm allowed to be annoyed". I huffed.

"How you holding up?".

"Better than ever". I grinned.

"Leah". He sighed.

"What do you want me to say Carter?".

"I know you're going through a rough patch just now but it will get better".

"Yeah so I keep hearing".

"You and Jake alright?".

"Why wouldn't we be?".

"He seems a little-....

"Acting like an a*****e?". I asked.

"Well yeah. He's barking his orders today that's for sure. What's going on?".

"He told me he loved me and I didn't say it back". There was no point in trying to pretend everything was okay. Carter could see right through me. "Not ready to say it back?". He asked.

"It's like I couldn't get the words out. I love him Carter I really do and now he probably thinks I don't".

"You want to get out of here for a few hours?".

"Yes". I didn't need to think twice about it.

..

I should have thought twice about it when he pulled up outside the bar Alanna took me to.

"Day drinking?". He grinned.

"Here, really?".

"Haven't really had the chance to scope out many bars so it's this or back to the house".

"They all know I'm underage in there".

"Pull rank". He shrugged. "You are their Luna".

"I'm not doing that".

"Knew you wouldn't". He smirked. "Come on we'll have a few drinks and then leave. I'll have you back before Jake starts to worry".

"Doubt he'll be worried. I'm probably the last person he wants to see".

"Have you spoke to him at all today?".

"No and I haven't heard from him either. Have you seen him?". I asked as we headed inside.

It wasn't busy.

"I'm on night patrol so I don't get the pleasure of seeing him until it's dark. Grab a seat I'll get us a beer".

It was 5 o'clock somewhere right?

I liked the atmosphere in here. No one bothered you and everyone minded their own business. Well most of the time.

I picked a table in the corner. Out of sight out of mind is what I was going for. Taking my phone from my jacket pocket I lay it on the table and unlocked the screen.

No messages, no missed calls, no nothing.

He really was pissed this time and I had no idea how long it was going to last.

"You want a game of pool?". Carter asked placing my beer in front of me.

"Maybe in a bit". I smiled.

"Look Jake will come around. You need to stop worrying so much". He sat in the chair opposite me.

"My life is shit Carter. I literally have no plans for after graduation. I have no job which means I have no money. Gran up and left, my dads floating around here somewhere and-... I cut myself off. My head felt like it was going to explode thinking about it all.

"Hey".

"It's true". I shrugged. "I have nothing".

"That's not true bear". He reached over placing his hand on top of mine. "Everything will work out you'll see".

"So when are you planning on moving in?". I was sick of talking about me and my problems. I gave myself a sore head everyday thinking about it.

"As soon as I can. Alanna's parents are nice but it's weird living under the same roof as my Alpha".

"I can imagine". I grinned.

"You're really okay with it?". He asked.

"Carter". I sighed.

"Okay, okay. I won't ask again. You want another beer, maybe something stronger?".

"A shot?". I smirked.

"A whiskey chaser?". He grinned.

"Go for it". I couldn't handle whiskey but I wasn't about to turn him down.

My mood was shifting and for the first time today my mind felt at easy. I felt as though everything was going to be okay.