Chapter Chapter153 confession
The silence was broken by a gentle closing of the door.
Vivian sighed slowly and said, "John, when did you know it?"
She concealed very hard. She felt tired physically and mentally, and she felt guilty to him, she deceived him.
She's mean.
"From the last time we ate together, I felt it. William knows you better than me, doesn't he?" John smiled a little bitterly. At that time, he didn't think of anything. He recalled it carefully now.
He left out something. Vivian did not move her chopsticks when eating.
"I'm sorry, I lied to you. You can scold me or hate me, I won't say anything."
Vivian lowered her head a little.
The burden on her was so heavy that she could hardly breathe. She didn't want to continue to cheat someone who cares about her.
All of a sudden, she felt that the place around her was sinking. A clear and pleasant smell of peppermint came from her side. The man said with helplessness and felt bad for her.
"I'm not angry at all. If you want to say it, I'll be very happy. If you don't want to say it, I won't force you. Anyway, don't doubt that I like you, OK?"
Vivian's back suddenly froze, and her eyes were misty because of John's gentle words. Her hard voice seemed to come from the deepest part of her heart.
"If I said that I have been with William for four years, do you think I am hypocritical?"
Yes, she needed to talk, she needed to unbosom herself, and she needed someone to know her pain, her tears, her repressed soul clamoring for relief.
If John didn't ask, she might be able to bear it. Maybe people are like that. In a moment, someone's words and deeds can easily break the hard wall built up by one's heart for many years.
Although John had been prepared for this, hearing Vivian's affirmative answer, he felt a sudden pain at the tip of his heart, more of it was for her.
"If you think you are hypocritical, then I am taking advantage of the danger of others. I know you can't let him go and still want to stay with you."
Vivian didn't expect that John would answer like this. She was stunned for a few seconds, pretending not to understand, and continued.
"Later, Angie came back. She told me how much she liked William. I was scared. I was afraid that Angie knew that I had been with William, so I broke off with him."
John did not interrupt, but waited for Vivian to say it.
He knew that she needed to tell the secrets of her heart.
Vivian was silent for a while. After calming down the uncontrollable mood again, she said quietly.
"Every escape result is like an old-fashioned plot. Angie is angry when she finds out that I've been with William. Maybe it's the result of my greedy for happiness for a short time."
When John heard the word "happiness" used by Vivian, he understood the importance of William in her heart. No wonder he would feel that she had been refusing him all the time. No matter how hard he tried, he could not enter her heart. Just because the person had already lived in her heart, there was no place for him.
"Were your wounds all caused by Angie?"
Vivian didn't deny or admit it. She felt much better when she said it. Even if he left angrily, she would be able to face up to the truth in the future.
Vivian didn't deny, which was the best answer. John, who was always gentle, said angrily, "How can she do that? It's not your fault, it is just because of her jealousy."
"John, why don't you blame me? Don't you think I'm shameful? I fall in love my friend's boyfriend." She was ready to be loathed.
John gently shook his head, he looked at her with a pair of clean and gentle eyes.
He said very seriously, "Don't be so hard on yourself. When you were with William, Angie had broken up with him long ago. Now that you are separated from William, she has no right to accuse you."
"John..." Vivian looked at the emotion that John didn't hide in his eyes and there was a little panic in her heart, which was not the result she expected.
She thought that John would leave angrily after knowing all this.
"Vivi, you know my heart to you, and I know you will not let William go for a while."
John laughed at himself, but soon he felt relieved. "Although I feel hurt, it makes me understand what I mean to you. Even if you like William, I still like you."
After saying this, the sulk that had been on his chest disappeared, and he also relaxed a lot.
John breathed and said happily, "Vivi, as long as everything is clear, it's not a big deal, right? Unless you still want to be with him now."
"I didn't think so. He never liked me." When Vivian uttered this sentence, she felt that his heart was scratched with a sharp dagger, and his heart was bleeding with pain. More torture.
Hearing Vivian's reply, John found that his palms had already become wet. As long as she had nothing to do with William, he would still have a chance.
"Vivi, let me take care of you."
Vivian's heart was touched, but it was only for a moment, and she soon calmed down. She was able to distinguish what was 'touched' and what she liked, and she also had Roe.
She shook her head and said, "Thank you, John. I can take care of myself."
Vivian's simple refusal was not hard to understand. He was inevitably disappointed, but he didn't intend to give up. "You don't have to refuse me in such a hurry. You can think about it for a long time, and let me be your escort." Vivian understood what John said. She began to hesitate. Now she urgently needed a boyfriend in disguise, John was undoubtedly suitable.
In this way, she could not only eliminate people's doubts, but also let Angie not force her.
If John didn't know about the things between her and William, she could accept him, but now, she really couldn't.
John seemed to see through her mind and said, "Don't feel burdened in your heart. I just hope you can give us a chance to each other, in case you find that I'm more suitable for you than William."
Hearing John's witty words, Vivian couldn't help smiling, but she didn't nod.