SWNOVELS Chapter 211
Avery’s pov
His command was sharp and firm making everyone do as he said. Even the doctor left the room and shut the door behind him. “I need to change you into something…..clean,” he eyed the blood-soaked clothes I had on worriedly and I nod.
He begins to move around the room, bringing back one of his huge shirts and boxers. “Let’s move you out of these,” he nudge his chin to the stained clothes I had on clinging to me, his touch gentle as he began to remove every layer of clothes off me.
I let him, soaking in the warmth of his touch and the comfort it brought to me when I really needed him the most. I needed him.
I felt it. My now long nails that were like claws scrapping his skin as he helps me pull the shirt off. Tears blurred my vision when I saw the sleek of red running down his arm. I’m so sorry,” I cried, my lower lip trembling.
I hurt him. I hurt him.
What else will I do?
Who else will I hurt?
“I didn’t mean to-
“Shh baby,” Xade’s eyes soften as he leaned low to plant a kiss on my forehead. “It’s just a scratch, look it’s healing,” he shows me where I had scraped and sure enough the skin indeed knitting itself back together.
I stared at the scratch, it was small but it was there. I had hurt him. The person I love the most in the world, I had hurt him. If I could hurt him, someone I cared about so deeply, what else am I capable of in this state?
Tears blurred the edges of my vision and he cupped my face in his hand tenderly. “Baby,” he whispered with kind reassurance. “It does not hurt, not even sting. I am okay. It was an incident.”
His thumb brush over the tears that spilled from my eyes, removing them away as though he wanted to remove the sadness I felt inside me.
“If I can h-urt yo-u,” my words come out a stumbling mess, my heart feeling like it was bleeding. “I can h-urt ou-r ba-by,” I stammer, my voice cracking with every syllable.
He cupped my face firmer, the look in his eyes soothing me down with warmth and love. “Listen to me Avery,” he said, tone unwavering yet loving.
“You’re not going to hurt anyone, not me, not our baby and not yourself. I won’t let it happen baby. Now calm down.”
His words had once been a lifeline, one I could cling on to and trust. But how can I do it now when I can no longer trust myself? Far less he who this was also new for too?
We were fools to think things would have gotten easier here but it seems our fates were doomed to begin with.
I really did want to believe him, I really did. But the fear that crawled inside me shut him out entirely. “Xade,” I whisper shakily. “I’m scared,” I admitted, my voice barely loud enough for him to hear but he did.
I know baby,” he whispered, leaning low so our eyes were leveled.
“But if there is one thing I know is that you my Avery are a powerful fighter and you don’t go down easily. We will get through this, like every other obstacle that came our way. Together baby. Together always,” he promised and this one, I did believe.