SWNOVELS Chapter 44
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It was reaching that point in my life where I realised that I may be the cause to my own suffering in some way. Though it may not be entirely direct but it was evident that I had placed myself in situated and settings in which would lead to my suffering when it could have all been easily avoidable.
This evening was a prime example of it. Why on earth I was here, looking like a complete and utter mess when I could have been at home nestled up with my daughter on the couch watching some Disney movie. Instead, here I was crying in the bathroom of the house that was not mine for a long time now and confronted by the man I wished the least to see yet I willingly came to his house.
Was I the idiot?
Perhaps I was. Maybe it was my inability to leave Dante in the past for good and move on truly and whole fully but the more I thought about it, I came to the conclusion that I was not the one at fault here. I was perfectly fine being away from Dante but it was he who chased after me, who refused to leave me alone. He had meddled in my life more than he should and until he had gotten beneath my skin just to get me beneath his b*dy again.
Even now as he stood on front of me in the secluded, constrained space of the bathroom, I couldn’t read his expression at all. What ever little expression his face contorted in when he first stepped in here was now completely gone. His eyes were a glazed mask as was his face.
“You shouldn’t be here.” I croaked then cringed at the sound at my own voice.
“I thought you wouldn’t show up tonight.” He said as he took a step forward. Subsequently, I had taken 2 steps back and away from him.
I sniffed. “Why would I not have attended?” I asked but it was so stupid of me since the answer to that question was literally right in front of both of us.
“Because I know all of this is hard for you, Sophia.” He said in such a calm, gentle… almost pained
tone.
“Hard for me?” I tried to laugh but it caught in my throat when he closed the distance between us in one swift step.
I tried to take create distance between us but my back soon hit the cold tiled wall leaving me trapped between the hard contours of Dante’s chest and the unwavering wall behind me.
“Sophia, I want to tell you that- I held my hand up to silence him but it had only brushed against the front of his crisp white dress shirt.
I felt his muscles tense beneath the thin material and caught his jaw flex. An amber sparked in his orbs igniting a look that I knew all too well yet did not want to see right now.
“There is nothing that you can say to me that would make any difference in any way.” My voice was barely audible because I was suddenly too aware of his presence.
His scent lingered in my nostrils, the heat of him radiated of his b*dy and through my clothes. hearing up my own skin. His eyes dropped from my eyes to my parted l*ps and I could read his
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mind easily.
“Perhaps you’re right but-” His face moved a fraction of an inch closer and my breath caught at the back of my throat.
“But?” I pushed, my orbs looked at him through my lashes.
“But I at least have to try. His champagne scented breath fanned against my l*ps causing the skin there to tingle slightly.
“What is left to say? You are half way to the alter and I was just some one that you used.” I whispered in a pained voice and saw some thing in him crack.
“You were never ever some one that I used, Sophia. His words were firm and he looked at me seriously. “I had a different route for us in mind.” He said sincerely nearly begging me to believe him.
“You may
y have but it didn’t come across that way to me.” I countered with a scoff but look from him.
Way
Dante’s index finger curved beneath my chin bringing my eyes back to look at him. I noticed the that his face was much closer than it had been before. I swallowed audibly and it was my eyes that now dropped to his l*ps.
“I am obligated by far more than I can explain to you.” He grunted with a sigh.
“And yet you are here standing too close to me instead of seeing to your duty as a fiance.” I retorted but my eyes were still settled on his l*ps.
Dante’s face moved closer to mine until his l*ps brushed against my ready and awaiting ones. I inhaled deeply and his arms sn*ked around me like a vine.
“We shouldn’t. This cannot-” I began to protest but when I looked into his eyes again and saw the burning neediness in them my words fell away.
It was I who then pressed my l*ps against his and k*ssed him with a ferocious aching need that I did not even know that I possessed all evening. All logic and reason had left my mind the second Dante began k*ssing me back with wild greed that left me breathless yet aching for more.
I pulled away to get some air but Dante’s hands were already pushing my dress up until it bunch. over my ass. His hand found my cheeks and cuooed each one pressing me against his crotch to feel his hardness.
His nose nuzzled the side of my temple. “Why the fuck do I want you so bad? You’re like a drug that I can’t get enough of no
wanted me. Wanted how hard I try to get you out of my system. All I heard was how he
wanted me. Wanted me enough to be here with me risking so much. His reputation, his
engagement.
“Dante,” I said partly breathless. “We can’t… This can not happen again.” I said more to myself than I did to him as he grinded against my already lubricated core.
“Why not?” He whispered just below my ear.
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At that moment, with his l*ps against the sensitive skin behind my n*eck, I couldn’t think of a single reasonable reason as to why I should end this.
Not the fact that he was literally engaged neither the fact that I knew how this was going to end. All I seemed to care about, all my b*dy seemed to care about, was how much it needed him right now.
“B- Because you are engaged.” The words blurted out of my mouth like word vomit. “Because you have a while fiance. My voice rose a octave and it seemed like the louder I said it the more real it had gotten.
And just like that I was back to my senses. Hearing myself say it made me realise just how wrong this was and the level to which Dante had been using me as his some thing on the side and the pathetic part of it was that I was allowing him to.
“Yet here we are in this compromising situation that neither of us should be a part of” My hands found his rippling chest that vibrated beneath my touch but I pushed him away.
Of course, given his sheer size, he did not budge. Instead Dante looked down at me with a critical look before he removed his hands from my ass and took a step away from me but it was still not hlas far as away from me that I needed him to be.
“You are engaged. Dante, and soon enough you will be married. I will not allow myself to become a side piece even though you are quite content with that fact. If you are going to cheat on Pheobe, don’t think that you can do it with me. It’s a shame it already happened once but that was due to my own ignorance but now I know better. Gone were any remnants of desire that I had felt and all that remained was the anger that always seemed to be simmering just beneath the surface when I was in his presence.
His brows pulled together and I could see that he was holding back his own anger but I did not care. Caring for him was the reason I had gotten myself in to this position to begin with.
I crossed my arms over my chest and shot a scathing look at him. “Why do you do this? Propose to her when you’re here with me on the night of your engagement. How can you commit to her yet be so careless that you’re willing to fuck me in this bathroom like it’s nothing?” I was genuinely curious about this because I simply could not understand the nerve of it
Dante’s eyes had grown furious causing his face to tense up and tighten. His jaw clenched until it
ticked but he ran a hand over his face in frustration. For a second he turned away from me but then returned right back to his prior position.
“Because I love you, damn it!” His voice boomed and echoed, bouncing against the walls and slamming in to my ears loud and clear until his words rung in my head.
“What?!” The single word flew out if my mouth.
“It is my fault that I had realised it way too damn late and now I’m paying for my mistake!” His pain caused his voice to turn rough.
His admission had done nothing to soften me up. I heard it, acknowledged what he was saying, yet it didn’t do anything to soften me up in any way. I looked at him and all I saw was another woman’s
fiance.
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“You are right. This is your mistake. One that I will not allow myself to be burdened to bear.” I muttered swallowing the lump that had painfully lodged itself in the back of my throat.
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Dante was not expecting that response from me. I scoffed as I looked at him. Did he think that I was going to rush in to his arms and ease his mind from the bed he had made and now had to lie in it for the rest of his life?
But then a thought popped in to my head and i brought myself to look at him.
“Why are you marrying Phoebe then? If your affections lay with me, why are you going ahead and marrying her?” I raised a witty brow at him waiting for his response.
He groaned, running his hand roughly through his hair.
“Because I have no choice!” He snapped but he was not angry with me.
“Every one has a choice, Dante.” I said in sharp tone but he shook his head.
“But I do not.” He reiterated and just as he was about to say some thing further, a knock sounded on the door.
“Dante? Are you in there?” My eyes widened the size of saucers and Dante swore beneath his breath.
“Dante, answer me if you’re in there. I’ve been looking all over for you.” Pheobe whined with a hint of irritation but boy was she about to be mad when that door opened.
“Hide behind the door so when I open it she does not see you.” He ordered and, not wanting any more drama this evening. I obliged.
With me behind the door, Dante unlocked it and as the door opened it concealed me behind it.
“I am here. I think I’ve eaten something that made me sick but I’m all good. He lied like pro- managing to make his voice rough like he was actually unwell.
“Oh, goodness. I hope it’s food poisoning and nothing contagious. The last thing I’d want right now is to get sick with you.” Phoebe continued her painful whining and even I winced at how annoying her voice could be.
I bit back a bitter scoff. So much for ‘in sickness and in health, I thought wryly, but Dante was a fool of he thought Phoebe was going to be the wife of his dreams. However, my the look of it, he was already aware of the fact but what the hell could she have over him that would force him to marry her?
That was a question that I could not think of a suitable answer for. Dante was an unfathomably wealthy man. If anything, he would be the one to threaten and not be threatened. Nothing made
sense!
I moved to the mirror and nearly gasped at how horrible I looked but I quickly cleaned my face. and made myself look presentable enough to make my back to the party without so much as raising a suspicious eye.
It wasn’t hard to locate Adam especially since he was in the corner of the garden keeping an eye in
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the direction of the entrance I had disappeared in to several minutes ago. So, when I appeared in his view he crossed the garden with out any hesitation.
“Are you alright? You look a little different. His eyes scanned my face but I smiled at him but it didn’t reach my eyes..
“I’m fine but I am ready to go home now, if you do not mind.” He nodded immediately and offeded me his arm which I took.
As Adam lead me out of the garden and back down the path that we once made our way from. I couldn’t help but try and get one last look of Dante before I left. I saw him beside Pheobe as they spoke to a man and the woman on his arm smiling as if nothing had been amiss, like he hadn’t just said that he loved me minutes ago and that he didn’t want to marry the woman beside him yet looked the part.
I looked ahead as I stepped down the paved steps and I knew what I needed to do and I was hell bent on seeing it through.
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