SWNOVELS Chapter 53: 53
I rush towards the hospital bed "Ellie wake up, Ellie wake up please I need you. E-Ellie don't do this to me. Please c-come back."
I start sobbing, my tears wetting Ellie's hospital gown.
"Ellie, please. Please, please please please, come back Ellie. Come back. Don't leave me" I beg, the tears never stopping.
Maddox pulls me away from Ellie. "Jayda calm down" he says but I don't listen I keep repeating "Don't leave me, come back" over and over again. Before I now it Maddox lays me down on a hospital bed and ties me down to it with some elastic the nurse handed him.
"Let me go, now. Let me fucking go" I yell.
Maddox leaves the room to talk to Dr. Jenny.
"What's wrong with her? She has this crazed look in her eye. She keeps saying someone is following her. Is she going to be alright?" I hear Maddox ask.
"She must he in shock, she's been through a lot in these past few hours. She just needs to rest. I will give her a tranquilizer. She will be out for a few hours. You better just go find the killer" Dr. Jenny says. "I can hear you talking about me! Let me go! Now!" I yell.
Dr. Jenny appears out of nowhere, Maddox behind her "By the time you wake up your shoulder will be all better" and will that she takes a syringe and sticks it on my arm.
Almost immediately I feel my muscles relaxing and I fall asleep.
I feel myself being roughly shaken awake. When my eyes open I see Marco standing there with a smile on his face.
I hear voices in my head, I can't make out what they are saying. They are all speaking at the same time. They aren't loud but they are still annoying.
"Marco? What are you doing here?" I ask.
He grins at me "They let me go, they figured out I wasn't the bad guy"
The voices start getting louder "Oh, okay, what time is it?"
"Eh, about 4 in the morning. How about we go for a walk?" He suggest.
My eyes widen "I can't get out, i'm not allowed to. Plus I am strapped to the hospital bed" I say.
He shrugs "Its just for a little while and I can help you out" And then he unclips the two clips that were making me stay in the bed.
He holds his hand out "Let's go Jayda, trust me. We are friends"
I nod and grab onto his hand. Walking out of the hospital room.
"Is Ellie okay?" I ask Marco, tuning out the voices in my head.
He shakes his head "She's dead"
"Can I go see her? T-to say goodbye?" I ask, my voice weak.
He shakes his head once more "That wouldn't be a good idea. Kyle hates you, because its your fault Ellie is dead and Maddox kinda does too. That's why he wasn't there when you woke up" We keep walking silently until we get to a small clearing.
My eyes water "I'm sorry, I wanted to help her" I say unable to keep it in any longer.
He shrugs "But you didn't"
I pull my hand out of his "I tried!"
He gives me a hug and in the most sincere voice he says "And you failed, and now she is dead"
I feel my chest constrict "I miss her"
"Good, its normal to miss her. To know that you will never ever see her again" he says pulling away.
"Why are you telling me this things? I thought we were friends?" I ask, looking at him incredulously, I felt like I was about to cry all over again.
Marco pats my head "We are friends, that's why I am telling you all of this. Friends tell each other everything. Friends help each other."
And then all of the voices in my head get louder and louder until up until the point that they are screaming.
All they say is "Do it" over and over again.
I put my hand on my ears, I crumble to the floor and shake my head, trying to get rid of the voices.
"Stop, please. No shut up" I say in between sobs, the voices kept getting louder by the second.
"What should I do? Why do you keep saying do it?! What do I need to do?" I ask whoever was in my head.
A hand on my shoulder makes me jump "You need to end it Jay" I turn to look but Marco isn't there anymore. In his place is Ellie.
I quickly stand up and hug her "Ellie, I thought you were dead! Thank God you are here. I love you so much"
Ellie smiles "But I am dead" she pulls away "You killed me"
I gasp "N-No I would never do that. You are like m-my sister. And y-you aren't dead. You are here"
Suddenly she starts turning a greyish color and her skin starts looking rotten "Look at me, do I look alive to you?" She laughs "You killed me, you let him inject me with that and now I'm dead. I think it's only fair that you die too."
I got down on both knees, hugging Ellie's legs. "Please forgive me, I should have saved you. I'm sorry"
"You're sorry? You ruined my family.
There is no excuse for what you did.
You shouldn't have been born. If you hadn't my mom wouldn't have suffered as much" I look up to see Jayson looking at me with a glare.
"Jayson, I-I its not my fault. I didn't choose to be born" I say.
"But you were, thanks to you and your mom: Dad made my mom suffer. If only you would have stayed out of our lives everything would have been better without you!" he screams at me.
"Jayson I am so sorry, please forgive me. I love you! You are my little brother" I tell him but he rolls his eyes.
"Want me to forgive you?" He asks.
I nod frantically "Yes, I'll do anything"
He grins "End it"
"W-What? Why would you tell me that?" I look into Jayson's blue eyes and watch them turn brown, then his face changes. And before I know it Kyle is in front of me. Looking at me with so much hate I flinch.
"You killed her" he says with venom.
"N-No I didn't Kyle, you know I love Ellie" I say.
He grabs me by the throat "You were supposed to die, Ellie did nothing but be there for you and you let her die. Now she is rotting while you are here living your life"
"I tried to save her! She wouldn't wake up" I say and he starts squeezing my neck.
I start struggling to breath "Please, let me go Kyle." I choke out.
I close my eyes, feeling the oxygen leave my body and then I open them again when the grip loosens completely.
I see Maddox standing in front of me and I quickly hug him.
"Oh Maddox" I say crying into his shoulder.
He grabs me at arms length and looks at me with a concerned gaze "Are you okay?"
"Yeah now that you are here I'm okay, they kept telling me to end it" I say tears running freely down my face.
He frowns "Then why haven't you?"
I freeze "What?"
He caresses my cheek "Why haven't you ended it yet?"
I stare at him "You want me to kill myself?"
He nods, kissing my forehead "It will be the best for all of us. You are like a sickness. If we don't get rid of you now we could all die. Just like Ellie."
"B-But what a-about my babies? Our pups? They will die too" I stutter, putting my hands over my big stomach protectively.
"What babies? You aren't pregnant." Maddox mumbles, giving me a kiss on the lips. "I would never have a pup with someone as disgusting as you"
I then look down at my stomach and its flat, no bump no anything.
I'm not pregnant.
I never was, I'm crazy.
"I'm not pregnant" I state and he grins.
"I know"
"I thought I was" I say running a hand through my knotted blonde hair.
"Well you thought wrong" he rolls his eyes.
"I am your mate" I say.
"I am aware of that" he mumbles.
"Why do you want your mate dead? There won't be a Luna" I try to convince him, I really don't want to die.
He bops my nose "Of course there will be a Luna, silly. Anna will take your place. I have always been in love with her but you ruined everything like always"
I stare at him, still crying. "How can I end it? Will I get rid of the voices?"
He grabs be by the waist and gives me a deep kiss then He pulls out a silver knife.
I shakily take the knife.
"Good girl" he praises.
I put the tip against my stomach but Maddox shakes his head. Guiding the knife towards my neck and putting it side ways.
"Do I just slice?" I ask shakily.
"Just slice"
"Thank you, now I know this is the only way" I say, a smile gracing my lips.
I won't hurt anyone else.