Married at 19

We went to the garden on the rooftop of our dorm which the place where we usually hang out together after 10 pm and above. He said that he needs some fresh air, so maybe this is the right place for him to relax his mind.

We sat on the bench beside with each other. Although I feel it really awkward, but I still love being with him. He totally seemed messed up with and I do really want to help him so much, bring him the happiness back, because I want the old him that is full with mischief and always happy all the time.

It hurts so much to see him that way, so I decided to start talking after our long silence moment. "I-I'm really sorry for your loss, Nathan. I'm not sure what to say, but I want you to know that I care. You're my friend, Nathan, I really don't want to see you like this. I know Aunt Karen and Uncle Michael feel that way to. They must be really unhappy when see you like this. Don't you feel sorry for them too? Or do you want them to be sad to see you being like this from up there?"

Nathan's blue ocean eyes only look down to the ground and he is still remains silent for a while.

"You know Nathan, I lost my mom when I was 5 years old, when she gave birth to my sister, Ivy. I'm totally broke down at that time, I missed her so much especially the when she lullabied me every night before I went to sleep. It hurts me so much that time until my father came and comfort me. Then realized something, my sister never had once feel my mom's love so I decided to take care of her with all the things that my mom used to teach me. I become her mom and also a loving big sister of her.

You're not alone, Nathan. You have so much friends that care so much for you, Mr Stewart and me too...care so much about you as my childhood friend. Please, don't ever think that way, we're always here with you."

Both of us were silent for a moment after I said those words to him. It feels a bit awkward moment, but I have tried my best to comfort him as a friend.

I took out my phone to check out the incoming message when my phone buzzed inside of my pocket.

It was from, Nick, my cousin who is like a brother to me.

Nick: Where are you?

Me: At the park.

Nick: With who?

Me: Nathan.

Nick: Okay then.....I heard about him too. Send my regard to him, okay?

Me: Okay, I will.

Nick: I'm going to the mall with Ten Ten, do you want me to get something for you?

Me: No thanks...I'm okay btw.

Nick: Alright, just send text me if you want something.

Me: I will, thanks Brother Nick.

Nick: You're welcome.

I put back my phone into my pocket and think I probably get going now, because I'm starving so much....well, I didn't get a chance to buy any foods since I follow Nathan here.

"U-um....Nathan, I think I need to leave you now. I'm sorry if I offense you a bit with the words I said to you. I really didn't mean it actually." Without hesitating, I stood up from our bench. I bet he still needs time alone when he didn't look at me at once after all I said to him.

But he stopped me by grabbing me on the wrist when I was about to walk away from him. "Thanks Bella," I turned to look at him and he was looking at me with his teary eyes. But this time, the tears finally fall down right on his cheeks. "For being here with me, and the words you have said to me."

Automatically my hands moved without my permission to wipe his tears off. I feel so stupid at that time and glad too since I managed to comfort my friend. To be more surprised, he then stood right in front of me and gently pulled me into his hug where his chin rested on my left shoulder.

"You words mean a lot to me." He continued. "It means a lot to me."

I really don't know how to describe what I feel right now, at this moment, but I'm totally surprised with his sudden action.

His warmth comforts me so much, and I wish that I can stop this time, so I could stay in his hug a little longer. He really do taller than me and I was about his shoulder level only, so that's why he can rest his chin on my shoulder. But I don't mind though, because it felt comfy.

I wish that I could confess my feeling to you right now, Nathan.

But I think it might not be a suitable time for this. And besides, you love somebody else and of course not me. It just one side love that I have to accept it although it is really hard for me.

Sasha is very lucky to have two person to love her at the same time. Sometimes I felt so envy to her but I shouldn't because she deserved it since she is way more beautiful than me. I'm just a girl who doesn't know about styles and of course a bookworm. No guys will like me of course.