Lycanthropy

I don’t know why I let Dakota take control for that single moment. It was a moment of weakness, wanting to let her out, to show her what I was willing to do, for her. But she took advantage of it, by showing her love towards Winston! I shouldn’t have done this!

“Wait, Emerson. Please, don’t leave.” Daniel practically begged of me. He took hold of my hand and turned me around.

In some sort of last resort, he grabbed me by my waist, and pushed himself against me. Then he took my face in his large hands, and kissed me. Passion and lust filled this moment, and right there and then, I crumbled.

My heart was aching and emotions of long forgotten times, washed over me, taking me down memory lane. There where I once was, with my mother, playing in the forest, having fun and listening to her stories. Her white braided hair and her beautiful icy blue eyes, were always entangling me in her stories. She spoke to me about everlasting love, whenever I would find my mate. That was the moment where she said those words, which were engraved into my soul.

“Love doesn’t ask for anything, love just longs to be accepted and to be there for another day.”

Could it be real? Is it just a matter of acceptance and live on, just as the day before, but then together?

I couldn’t wipe away that tiny flashback, it just went on and on inside my mind. My beautiful mother, combing my hair, and putting little daisies that we had picked earlier, in between my white-blond braids. All the while she told me fairy tales and that one sentence, that never was forgotten by me.

“Are you crying?” Daniel suddenly said, snapping us out of this haze of lust.

Am I? I felt my cheeks and indeed, tears were rolling down my face. I have only cried once, and that was the day that my father killed my mother, ever since then, I haven’t. So, why am I crying now?

“Yes, you’re a terrible kisser.” I said.

“No I’m not, there is something going on, in that mind of yours.”

I lowered my head, looking absently towards my toes. Daniel lifted my chin, and gently forced me to look up to him. I tried turning my head away, but he wouldn’t have it. He took my face in both my hands again. “Tell me.” He said.

“No, you’ll think I’m weak.” I said.

He didn’t say a word, he was just patiently waiting, for me to open up. I guided him to the side of the bed and we both sat down.

“These past few days have been utterly confusing my mind. I know I feel something for you, but I don’t know how to show it. I’m not sure if it’s love, as I really never have been romantically in love with someone before.” I said.

“And you weren’t going to show it either, as you wanted to stay strong. But your wolf decided otherwise.” He said while sighing.

“Yes, she isn’t giving me a chance to find out, what it is, between us. My mother always told me wondrous stories of finding your mate, and how that would knock me off my feet, completely dazed by a rush of emotions. But then she got killed by my father, and I have seen plenty of couples give up their relationship as well. So, how am I going to trust, what I feel right now?”

“How are you going to accept, what you should be feeling.” He followed my way of thinking, and I nodded.

I began to lay down on my bed, shoving myself on my side, looking at Daniel, doing just the same.

“I started this pack, with the thought of never ever leaving it. I know that the few packs that were with a female Alpha, either got challenged, killed or gave up their rank, to be with their mate. But I can’t give up my pack, and everything I worked so hard for, for just some silly mate bond. I became the strongest Alpha there is, not to rule the world, but to make sure that everyone that lives in my territory, will receive what they deserve. A happy life, without pain and torture, and to never endure, what I had to, in the past.”

“And now I’m here, ruining that mindset, as I want you to become my Luna, and coming with me to the palace.”

“Yes, exactly.” I said, while turning on my back, and putting my arms underneath my head.

“Besides that, how could anyone love me? The cold hearted bitch of the north?” I said.

I just closed my eyes, listening to my own heart rate. Daniel sure must be feeling rejected, how can he not? I just said all the things that wandered through my mind, opening up myself to him, and practically telling him that I’m not going to go with him. Whatever happens.

I can hear him move on the bed. I guess he is leaving me, getting off from the mattress, which pushed me up a little, when he stood up.

But he didn’t.

He actually shoved himself closer to me, pushed me on my other side, and pulled me closer to him. So, that we were spooning in bed. He just held on to my waist and nuzzled his face in my hair.

“I don’t know yet, how to handle this either. But I do know, that you are no cold hearted bitch. Yes, you are determined to not show your emotions, and you hide your feelings pretty good. But your emotions are shown through your pack members. They have an amazing amount of respect for you, and your strength. And all the money that you make, is going straight back into the pack. You might not realize it, but you love your people. And your people love you in return.” He said, and I wanted to respond to that, but he interrupted me.

“And for the mate part, I feel something too. To be honest, I feel a lot. And just like you, I never cared for a mate either, as I’m strong already, and am the King for crying out loud. But ever since I have met you, even though I was hesitant about it, I knew I wanted you. So, why don’t we find out together, how we are going to do this?”

I was listening to every word he said, and I hated how it made me feel. If this weak feeling, of opening myself up to a man, of accepting such a close and intimate touch, which made me feel like I was floating in the air, on a magical pink fluffy cloud, then well… I wanted more.

"A pink fluffy cloud..." I could hear Dakota purr in the back of my mind. She was content of feeling him around us, and frankly I’m not complaining either.

Are those icy walls, that I have been building over the last decade, melting at last? Could it be possible?

Fuck it. Let’s try whatever it is, that this mate bond includes.

“I know where we could try and start, to figure out what we want. Because I’m still willing to have you, you know… to fuck me raw?” I said with a smile.

“Shit woman, don’t say such things, if you are going to let my cock hanging to dry again.” He said, as he pushed himself harder against my ass, making me feel what I do to him.

“Well if something comes up, we could always turn it cold. As where I want to go, is the shower. But I’m not intending to stop though.” I said, while pushing my ass back and move it a little.

He didn’t have to hear this twice, as he stood up, pulled me off the bed, and pushed me to the door. I guess he didn’t want to carry me now, but I didn’t care. I don’t want to be carried anyway.

I ran towards the bathroom, and growled to make sure that everyone that was in there, left the place. This was my time now, and I’m not going to share the view with others.