Chapter 30. Emptiness
As soon as I set foot in the room we had set up for the party, hand in hand with Nathan, I saw all our friends. Every detail was a sparkling white and gold color. We had organized this evening with great care and Rosalinda’s help had proved very valuable. For a moment I had let melancholy take over my emotions. That evening for many would be the end and the beginning of a new year, while for me it marked the end of the no return. I had to build a wall between this melancholy and me; this night was supposed to be fun, it was supposed to be about me and my friends. It had to be another one of those happy moments to remember.
“Hey you, beautiful!” Andrea exclaimed, approaching us followed by Abby, Aurora, Rosalinda and Ela.
“You have done an excellent job with this room”; Abby said.
“Truly an amazing job!” Aurora said enthusiastically.
“Thank you so much, it cost us a lot of work, but seeing and hearing these flattering comments is worth every effort. All the credit goes to Myra, not me.” Rosalinda said moved.
“Thanks a lot to everyone for the compliments. Rosalinda allow me to disagree, you did most of the work. For this I wanted to thank you for your precious and valid help. Without you I would never have been able to put up all this. ”
“We did a great team work.” Rosalinda said, raising her hand inviting me to hit five.
“Let’s go wild!” Abby yelled emphatically.
During one of the slow dances, held in Nathan’s arms, I noticed that he immediately froze, I looked into his face and seemed to be engaged in a conversation with his wolf or with someone in the pack through the mind link.
“I have to get you to the bunker right away, we are under enemy attack.” Nathan said, as soon as he was present again.
“What?” I asked for confirmation of what my ears had heard. Meanwhile Andrea and the others had approached us.
“Andrea, we have to get Myra to safety in the bunker.”
“I’ll handle that”; Ela offered, adding: “If I pick her up I can run fast, faster than all of you.”
“All right, Rosalinda will come with you, she knows where the bunker is. All the others are coming with me.” He gave orders like a true Alpha in command, he was so sexy that I was wet, despite knowing the timing was completely wrong, but it was something I was unable to control.
Nathan came up to me and whispered in my ear: “Little bird, how can you be wet in this situation?”
“You look awfully sexy when you’re in Alpha mode!”
“Yeah? Well when we get home I’ll show you how sexy I can be! I have to go, let someone contact me to tell me when you’re safe.”
“I will, be careful, come back to me, my love!” He kissed me tenderly and passionately, sure that Falco was also participating in that kiss and immediately afterwards he left without looking back.
After five minutes I was safe in the bunker with other people from our pack.
“Mom, contact Nathan with the mind link and tell him I’m safe in the bunker, please.” Without saying anything, she got in touch with him.
“He doesn’t answer me, maybe he’s busy but I delivered the message.”
“Ask dad how he’s doing? I have to make sure nothing happens to him.” My mother, once again, said nothing, she immediately left to contact my father.
When she returned from the mind link she had a serious expression, then she smiled and tried to reassure me.
“Dad said that Nathan is a little busy at the moment, the attack is very violent this time.” There was more to her expression than an attempt at reassurance. Why could dad answer and Nathan couldn’t? There was some dark point in this whole story, but I didn’t let anxiety take over. What could I do but wait for the attack to end?!
I lay with my head on my mother’s legs as she gently stroked my hair and whispered reassuring words. I fell asleep, my body was very tired, I don’t know how long I had slept, because when I woke up I was no longer in the bunker on my mother’s lap, but I was in a hospital bed. As soon as I opened my eyes I looked for Nathan, there was only my mother and my father, no trace of my love.
“Where’s Nathan?” I asked first, because it was the most important thing to me. My mother had a crying expression, while my father’s was indecipherable, but their hesitation in answering was driving me crazy and did not bode well.
“Will you answer me, where the hell is Nathan!” My mother and father flinched at the tone of voice in which I had uttered that sentence.
“Calm down Myra, Nathan is in the next room and ...” Knowing that he was in the next room I breathed a sigh of relief.
“Get him here,” I asked urgently.
“He can’t ...“, I didn’t even let her finish the sentence: “Take me to him then, I have to see him.”
“Myra ...”
“I’m going alone!” When I tried to get out of bed, I realized that my body was so tired that my legs could not support my own weight.
My father promptly approached to grab me and keep me from falling to the ground, while my mother pulled over a wheelchair.
We were in the middle of the night and the only noise in the corridor was the creaking wheels of the wheelchair I was sitting on. I didn’t know what was waiting for me behind the door of the hospital room where Nathan lay, what I did know, however, was that my heart was hurting a lot. He wouldn’t stop hurting until I saw him with my own eyes. As far as I knew he could very well be dead and keep it hidden from me, so I felt the need to be close to him and make sure he was still alive.
When we entered the room, despite the lack of light, I could clearly distinguish his body lying on that hospital bed. He was full of bed bruises all over his body and face, seeing him in those conditions was difficult. I realized that I was crying only when I felt tears fall on my hands, which I had placed on my legs.
I reached out with my trembling hands to touch his body, his face; I wanted to make all those nasty wounds disappear and above all I wanted to see his beautiful eyes and his sexy smile. I hesitated before asking what had happened, although there was nothing to joke about with the rogue’s attacks. They were always very violent fights where very often life was lost, but luckily it was not the case with Nathan, at least as far as I could see.
“What happened?” I asked my father through tears.
“Their goal was to take control of our pack, they killed Val to make sure they had no heirs around. After the announcement we made the other day, where we officially communicated the future Alpha ... “, my father stopped leaving the rest of the sentence pending, you could very well understand what their purpose was: they wanted to kill Nathan to take the herd control. ”
“Can they come back? What did the Doctor say? What does Nathan have? Why doesn’t he open his eyes yet? ” I asked a few too many questions all at once and I didn’t know if I would receive an answer to all of them and in the same order, but it was important to understand the situation.
“The rogue’s situation is finally settled. Nathan was hit with a silver blade, luckily it didn’t touch the heart, now he is resting because the operation ended just before you became aware. His metabolism has to dispose of the silver that hit him, so no one knows how long it will take him and his wolf. ”
“Come Myra, let him rest and you must rest too. The doctor will come later to check what he can do to help you… ”My mother put a hand over her mouth trying to hold back her crying. I knew why my mother was behaving and I also knew what the doctor would say. My time had run out, so for me there was only palliative care to help me go away in the most comfortable way possible.
“No, I’m staying here. Help me lie down next to him. ”
“Myra ...“, I stopped my mother immediately, there was nothing that could make me leave that room.
“No, Mom. This is my place, the Mate bond will help them heal sooner. Please help me, or I’ll do it myself. I have no intention of leaving this room.” Without saying anything my father took me in his arms, placed me on the bed and immediately afterwards they left the room leaving us alone.
“My love, before going away I would like to see your eyes look at me with love and passion; I would like to see your smile light up; I would like to hear your voice tell me, once again, I love you, Little Bird. More than anything else I would like you to kiss me. I would like a kiss of those that take my breath away as only you know how to do. Please, my love. I love you…” Immediately after saying those words, Nathan opened his eyes. Time for a smile and I closed my eyes; I was too tired and in a very short time emptiness took me with it.