Chapter 49. Trust Me?
Konstantin
Kai looks like he’s about to kill someone. After Lily told us what she discussed with Alpha Bastien and what he suggested, he wanted to start a war with The Harem King. Not to mention what Cat saw in her visions about Lily's split futures.
“I'm going to kill that pompous French piece of shit!” He exclaimed.
Cat pinched the bridge of her nose and sighed. “Let's not make enemies out of one of the Five, Kai. We now know he sees Lily as a bride that got away; hopefully, it stops since he knows she’s Kon's mate.”
Kai huffs, then he turns to Lily and pins her with a glare. “He told you the only way to solve the problem would be to kill my niece and nephew? Not just that, but why did you call him in the first place?!” He roars after pacing the living room floor.
Hey, I'm just as pissed off with her for calling someone else for help and even more so that she called fucking Alpha Bastien. Not just that, but although she is my mate, I have no intention of getting in between an Alpha and his duty to handle his warriors.
She clenches her fists and looks down. “His mother is known as the Queen of Curses, and I thought she could help-"
"Queen of Curses?” He exclaims, slamming his fists on the table. “We have the fucking mother of all witchcraft as a Pack Witch! You had no right calling someone outside the pack for aid, Lilith. Do you not trust us enough to help you?”
Her head shoots up when he asks this, and she shakes it frantically. “N-NO! I thought... I thought you wouldn't want to help me with this and saw me as a stain on the pack...”
Her shoulders sag, and she sighs, this causes Kai's anger to dissipate, and he walks over to her to embrace her. I can see her stiffening when he does, but then she eventually sinks into his arms. “You are one of us, and we take care of our own. Please don't ever forget that, Lily, you're a Volkova, and we all love you very much. I don't give a fuck what some serpent in your head says about that.” He says.
Lily mumbles a thank you into his chest then he unwraps himself from her. “Okay, now that that's out of the way, we need to figure out who put that knife in Kaia's crib and why. I would hate to fucking assume we have another traitor in the family, but from the looks of things, it might be one of our own.” He says.
I sigh but then chuckle, and they all look at me as if I've gone mad. “Always a fucking traitor, but this time you can thank my paranoid ass because I installed a nanny-cam in the nursery,” I say while holding up my cell phone.
Lily's eyes widen, and she walks over to me. “What? I thought we agreed not to!” She says, and I frown at her.
“Well, aren’t you fucking glad I did? Because it was one of the child minders who put the fucking dagger there.” I say, then look away from her shocked face and hand the cell phone over to Kai. “I assume you want to sort this out.”
He nods and takes the cell from me. “We'll deal with it, but first, we need to talk about what will happen tonight. You want the demonic side of you to be sealed away, right?” he asks Lily.
“Yes,” Lily answers with a nod. “If at all possible, I would like this for the twins as well and all the generations to follow after them. I"m not sure about Kaia, though.”
“Marle can sort that out too; we'll just have to see what she has to say about it.” He says before letting out a sigh. “We'll see you guys this evening.”
After nodding to Lily and me, he leaves the living room with Cat and walks towards the section the child minders sleep.
Now it's only the two of us.
Lily turns to face me with tears in her eyes, and usually that would cause my heart to stir, but right now, I am too upset to care. She went behind my back and called another man for help; of course, I would be pissed off.
“Kon, we need to talk,” she says and takes a step towards me.
I nod. “Yeah, I think we do.”
She looks down and sighs again. “Last night I... I can't explain what happened, and I don't expect you to forgive me for what I did. I wasn't... in control of my emotions, and it all just imploded!” She says, then takes my hands in hers.
That familiar warmth of her skin on mine threatens to shatter my resolve, and my heart nearly wavers when I look into her guilt-ridden eyes. “It won't happen again, I promise.” She finishes.
I shake my head and pull my hands out of hers. “You know, Lily, I can forgive you for the fact that you demonically roofied me and used me for sex; I can forgive you for running out on me to be alone with your thoughts. Fuck, I might even be able to forgive you for contemplating killing our kids.” I say, not sure if I believe that last sentence.
"But what I can't fucking get over is the fact that you went to another man for help when I was right next to you.” I take a step back from her when I say this, certain that the hurt is clearly displayed on my face.
She swallows hard and crosses her arms. “I didn't think you would want to help me..."
I don't know what, but this pisses me off even more. “What kind of fucking reason is that? I'm your mate, Lily! Why the fuck would I not want to help you or want to see you get better? You are the one person I would fight the entire fucking world for, but all you've shown me is how you don't trust me!” I roar, shaking my head and not trying to look into her eyes, knowing it would make me falter.
“I get it; I fucking get that you've been trapped in your head these last few months, but you have given me no indication of how I can help you, even when I ask. You always just say that you'll get better and that you'll be okay, but you need to see that you can't do this on your own, Lily. You can't handle your demons by yourself; that's why you have me!”
“I know!" She cries out with tears running down her face. “I know that, Kon! I have no excuse for what I did, but please... Please try to understand.”
Scoffing, I shake my head. “I've been more than understanding for the last few months, wouldn't you say? I love you, Lily, and I would do anything for you, but right now, you have no fucking idea how much you've hurt me.” I say; the crestfallen expression on her face made my heart shatter.
She takes a step towards me and reaches out. “Kon-"
“I can’t be around you right now; I'll see you tonight,” I say with finality, then walk out of the mansion.
As much as I loved this woman, I know I'll regret any other words that come out of my mouth right now. I've always been called heartless, but I never expected to turn that towards my own mate.
But then again, I never expected her to betray me like this.