SWNOVELS Chapter 17
AUDREY
“CHET SAVED ME!”
My chin quivers as I stare at his back. When he turned, I couldn’t hide it. The pain of why I left him hit me like a truck.
I didn’t want to face this, but I knew if I didn’t, it would haunt us both. My only hope is that he’s changed enough to accept what I’m about to tell him.
He steps closer and my body heats with embarrassment and a tiny bit of fear.
He looks at me like I’m crazy. “Saved you from what?!”
I raise my chin and try to put on a brave face. “From you.” I swallow. “He saved me from you.”
He quickly looks around then takes a few more steps to me. He tilts his head and points to his chest. “From me?” What the hell did I do?” He throws his arm out to the side.
“What didn’t you do, Jaxton.” I wipe my eyes and sniff as I look at the floor.
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” He clenches.
I raise an eye to him and shake my head. “You really don’t remember, do you?”
“Remember?” He gets closer. “The only thing I ever remember doing is loving the hell out of you and giving you everything I could possibly give you.” He grits as he glares into my eyes.
I feel the tears sting. “You just don’t remember how controlling you were back then.”
“Controlling? How the hell was I controlling?” He says under his breath as people walk by.
A small tear slips down my cheek and I wipe it away. “You don’t remember the rules. Dictating where I went and when. You don’t remember telling me who I could or couldn’t talk to. You don’t remember making sure my dress was appropriate and getting angry when it wasn’t to your liking. You don’t remember any of that.”
He got up close. “I was protecting you.” He grinds.
“The truth is I couldn’t breathe, Jaxton. I couldn’t live. I could barely think for myself! I had no life unless you told me what that was. I didn’t know how to be…me.” I slam my fingers into my chest as the tears started to fall. “You think you hurt? Try living as Jax Dupree’s doormat because for three years, that’s what I was. The truth, Jax, was I scared of you. So scared. I-I couldn’t speak up for myself because you were Jaxton Dupree. How could I?” I wipe my flushed cheeks and suck in a hitched breath.
His face softens a bit as he listens.
I fix my sweater and take a deep breath. I meet his eyes. “The problem was I loved you too much to leave you. Chet saw it. He started training me behind your back, but not lacrosse. He started training me to be confident in myself. He trained me to have the strength to do what I had to do.”
He lowers his head. “Leave me.” He mumbles.
“You often questioned what changed. I did change, but you forced me to change, Jax. I couldn’t be that meek little girl around you. My heart couldn’t handle it. So…” I take in another breath. “When the time was right, Chet stole me away. We were afraid you’d come looking for me so, I left the city with him.”
His jaw goes slack and his brows stitch up. I can see in his eyes, he’s putting it together.
“When I came back that one time, I thought I could handle it, but I was so wrong. I didn’t think it possible, Jaxton, but I still love you.” I hitch as I cover my mouth with my sleeve. “I love you so much, but I can’t be with you if you’re still the same boy I left.”
I sniff and look around. “And I’m not telling you this to get together. I just wanted you to know that I didn’t leave with Chet romantically. I didn’t. If I wasn’t so desperate for escape I wouldn’t have. That’s the Gods honest truth.”
His mouth falls open and he huffs a breath. He scrubs a hand down his face and looks around at the people glancing our way.
“Audrey…I…” He lowers his head and places his hands on his hips.
I quickly clean myself up and compose myself. “I won’t bother you anymore. I…I’m leaving. Tonight and I won’t hear from me again.”
I push past him and he grabs my arm. He pulls me into his arms and looks into my eyes. “I was a dumbass kid and you are the most amazing woman I’ve ever had. I’m going to kiss you now, if that’s OK with you.”
My lip trembles and I start to cry as I nod yes.
He threads his fingers into my hair and pulls me into his lips. My lips part and his velvety tongue slips pass them. His kiss was so soft and gentle that I hitched a cry on his lips and wrapped my arms around his neck.
He deepens the kiss and I completely melt into him. I felt his passion and kindness. His understanding filled me as out hearts pounded in sync. His hand gently lays on my cheek his thumb strokes my chin.
He pulls back and rests his forehead on mine. “I’m sorry. I know I can’t take back what I put you through, but I promise, I’m not that kid anymore. You, of all people, will never fear me. Ever. I was so fucking blind, Rey. I never stopped loving you and I spent 20 years blaming the wrong person. Baby, I’m so fucking sorry. I’ll spend forever making it up to you.”
“Forever?” I choke.
“If I last that long with the Queen.” He smirks.
I chuckle and slap his chest.
He slings an arm around my neck. “Let’s go back to my place. Pizza and beer. What do you say?”
“Can I order?” I sniff as I look up at him.
“Sure.” He grins. He points to me. “No pineapple.”
“Pineapple’s the best! I’m ordering it.” I raise my chin.
“Gross! Rey. No. Order anything else, but I draw the line at pineapple.” He scowls.
“You draw the line.” I arch a brow.
He looks at me. “Fine, I’ll pick them off, but only because I love you.” He raises his chin and I laugh as we walk out the door.
****
With the pizza eaten and the beer drank, we slipped into his room for the night.
He lowers me to the pillow, kissing me as he does. He breaks the kiss and kisses my neck as I wrap my arms around his shoulders.
My legs wrap around his chest and he kisses my chest. He finds my lips again and his hand slips between my thighs. His fingers find my slit and he rubs my wetness into my pussy as he finds my clit.
“Yes, Jax…” I breathe as he socks my ear lobe.
“I’m making you feel so good tonight.” He draws in my ear.
He circles my clit and I feel his electric touch crawl across my skin.
He gently kisses me as he rubs harder. I moan on his mouth as I feel the sensation of his hand.
He circles faster and I arch back. “Yess!” I grip his strong arms as he kisses down to my breasts. He cups them and bites my nipples.
His large chest vibrates with as purr as he licks my skin. My chest fills with his warm static caress as my wolf howls and spins in my ribcage.
His soft lips travel down my stomach as I play with his hair. The lights from the city outside is corner wall windows, light up his toned, cut features. His eyes meet mine and he gently spreads my thighs.
When his tongue hit my slit, I moan and arch. His hands dance around my pelvis and up my legs as his tongue licks my clit.
His mouth consumes my pussy and I feel his tongue flick my clit fast.
“YESSS…JAX!” I moan loud.
He sucks my clit faster and harder as his arms wrap around my legs. My nerve endings go haywire as my legs shake and my orgasm builds.
He moans on my pussy and digs his nails into my thighs. He flicks faster and I feel my climax teeter.
“GOD, YESSSS!”
He lifts a legs, slides a finger in my entrance and hooks it.
“YESSSSS!” I scream as he pumps my gspot and bites my calf.
“That’s it, baby. Fuck, I love watching you come.”
I buck my hips and he continues his pleasuring until he knows I’m spent.
He kisses down my leg and up my stomach. He meets my lips. “Now for the good part.” He mumbles as our passion filled eyes stare at each other.
His dick slid in my slit then down into my entrance.
I gasp and wrap my arms around him.
“God, you feel so good.” He grabs my hair as he slides his length out and slowly slides it back in to the hilt.
My legs lift and he puts one on his shoulder.
He kisses me deep and pulls my hair. “You taste so good…So tight…” He growls on my lips.
My nails dig into his back as he thrusts harder and deeper.
“Jax…Like that…” I pant as the heat between us was suffocating.
He holds my chest by my neck as he sits up. “So fucking beautiful…” He whispers as he holds my leg up at the calf and thrusts faster.
He rubs my clit and spreads my leg out. His hands slide down my legs to my hips. He pulls me up and his dick pounds my pussy harder.
“Yes, Yes, Yes…God, Yes!!” I white knuckle the blankets as I feel my climax climb again.
“Yes, Rey. Come for me, gorgeous!” He growls.
My pussy tightens around his girth and I feel his dick swell inside me.
“FUCK, YESSSS!!” I arch back as my body shakes and my orgasm rips through.
“Rey…I’m…DAMN!!” His hands grip my waist tighter as he slams his release into me. He drops me, cups my breasts and sucks my nipples as his hips rock and he finishes his strokes.
He moans on my breasts and I whine out moans as he slows down.
He kisses his way back up to my lips. His tongue dances with mine as he brushes my hair out of my face. He pulls the blanket from under us and pulls it up over us.
I hold his cheeks and kiss him with all the love I was hiding from him.
This is the Jax I wanted the whole three years together. Strong yet filled with a softness that only I could touch. To feel him now, I wish we never wasted two decades.
Thar being said, there’s much more I haven’t told him about what Chet and I have been doing, but I just want to get over this hurdle first. Let’s see if he’s actually changed before I let him in on all my secrets.
He slides off me and onto his back. I lay on his chest and run my fingers around his chiseled chest. His fingertips glide up and down my arm.
He looks out the window to the five towers making up the city’s skyline. In between the Silver Bullets and Hammers sits Horzon Corps off in the distance.
“It's beautiful.” I whisper as I take in the sparkling lights.
“You’re beautiful.” He smiles and kisses my forehead.
I lift my head to him and gaze into his eyes. “So are you.” I grin.
He grabs the back of my head and pulls me into his lips.
He rolls on top and we spend the next few hours in the throws of passion until we needed sleep.
I slept so soundly in his arms, that as I drifted off, I prayed to anyone who would listen that he was right and we will finally be happy because let’s face it…
The last two decades, we were both the most miserable people on the planet.