In My Desperate Time

Silvia and I glance at each other and rush towards the room. Sabina is lying on the ground in pain.
It's probably because she wants to climb onto the bed herself that she falls off.
"Mom, are you alright?"
I walk over to help her up, but she knocks my hand away in disgust.
"You vicious woman, stop pretending to be kind. If it weren't for you, would I have become like this?! If you want me to die, just
say so. You don't have to shed crocodile tears in front of me. Anyway, Frances isn't here. Wipe your disgusting look off your
face!"
What Sabina said really hurts me.
I suddenly miss Sabina who used to treat me well. She has given me a mother's love for a short period, but it seems that what I
have experienced is just a fond dream.
I wonder if time can wipe off everything.
"Mom, stop talking. Jane is not such a person. Don’t speak like that to her."
Silvia sighs and walks over to help Sabina up with difficulty.
"Silvia, what do you know about her? Don't be fooled by her kind look. I used to think that she was a kind and innocent girl, but
she has ruined my life. Now, it's so hard for me to get into bed, not to mention playing the piano. You won't realize I am right until
you are tricked by others."
Sabina is very excited. As she speaks, she glares at me with hatred as if she would take any chance to kill me.
I can understand her pursuit of the cause and she is very upset about watching her own dream die, but I really can't accept the
way she looks at me.
"Mom, stop it. You bring trouble to yourself. Who is to blame?" Silvia frowns and says.
I don't expect that Silvia will actually stand on my side so obviously.
I throw a grateful glance at her, but Sabina suddenly slaps Silvia in the face.

"You actually speak for the outsider?! Get out! I don't have a daughter like you!"
Sabina slaps Silvia with her right hand so hard that the red mark of her hand is left on Silvia's face immediately.
Silvia looks at Sabina in disbelief, her eyes flashing with tears.
"I don't want a mother like you either!"
After that, Silvia runs out.
Silvia has disappeared for a day. I call her many times, but she doesn't answer. She doesn't come back at dinner time. I can do
nothing but call Frances.
"Silvia is missing. Mom slapped her across the face. Could it be that she ran away from home?"
"She went to meet Lawrence. He told me on the phone."
She went to meet Lawrence?
People that are left vulnerable always want to find someone to rely on.
However, Lawrence likes Whitney. Will he care for Silvia?
When Silvia runs over to him, I am even more worried.
"Is this really good? You know, Lawrence doesn't care about Silvia." I said in a worried voice.
"Don't worry. She'll be fine. I'll be back in a moment. I'll hang up."
I hang up the phone, go to Sabina's room and get her for dinner.
She is lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling with empty eyes. I don't know what she is thinking about.
However, when I see her like this, a thought comes to my mind.
She doesn't want to live anymore.
I sigh and walk over to Sabina. "Mom, get up and have dinner."

"I become like this, but you still ask me to get up. Do you want me to fall in front of you again so you can laugh happily?!"