In My Desperate Time

What?
Steven's words are like piercing swords that just struck into my heart.
I sit with my mouth slightly agape, and I'm unable to say a word for a long time.
How is this possible? Steven has always known that it is Whitney that has done that to me, but he never tells me about it.
My mind is bombarded with too many thoughts and I'm overwhelmed with many complicated emotions. I don't even know how to
react to him after hearing the truth.
I have trusted Steven so much. But, in the end, I realize that it is he who has caused so much pain to me. How can I accept this?
"Why are you doing this to me?"
After a while, I question him in a trembling voice.
"Because I love you endlessly and nothing is going to change that. I love you so much, so how can I watch you and Frances be
together? The days when you were by his side were too painful for me. Do you know how happy I was when you had finally left
him? I thought I finally have a chance. But even if you left him, you still have him in your heart. I am jealous, but I can't do
anything to change you. I'm sorry for being too selfish."
Steven's expression is full of despair.
I think he must also be suffering in great pain these days.
But who should pay for the pain I suffer?
I don't want to blame Steven, but I have no idea about the way to get over it.
It turns out to be so heart-wrenching when I'm deceived by someone I trust.
"Steven, you know that child matters to me, but why did you help her to kill my child? Why are you doing this to me?"
I try my best to control my emotions, but my voice pitch couldn't stop rising.
"I didn't help her, and I only learned about it later. Whitney bribed the staff on my plane and caused some technical issues to
happen. Hence, the plane made an emergency landing in another place and there was no signal, so I couldn't contact you at all.

In order not to worry you, I didn’t tell you about it. I only knew later that this was not an accident, but Whitney’s conspiracy which
she had planned."
Steven explains.
However, I refuse to listen to him anymore.
I don't know how to confront Steven at all.
"Jane, please trust me. I have never thought of hurting you. I did it just because I love you too much."
"Love? If you love someone, shouldn't you think about how to prevent your loved one from being hurt? Sorry, I can't bear your
heavy love. I think we will never see each other again, and I really don't know how to continue to be friends with you."
I grab my bag and turn around to walk away.
"Jane Noyes!"
What sounds behind me is Steven's desperate cry.
But I do not look back.
There are no more ways we can mend what done is done.
After leaving the entrance, a cool breeze blows on my face, and the tears in my eyes finally roll down my cheeks uncontrollably.
The loss of Steven as a friend is really painful for me.
After returning home, I am still feeling unhappy.
When Frances returns home, he notices my expression and asks, "What's going on? Who makes you unhappy?"
"I went to see Steven today," I tell him truthfully.
Frances’ eyebrows frowned immediately.
He doesn't like Steven, and that is something that I am always aware of.
"Why are you going out to see him? Don't you know that he likes you?"

Frances’ expression shows that he is feeling jealous.
However, I don't have the mind to care about his feelings towards this. My mind is entirely troubled by what Steven has done to
me.
"He told me that he knew Whitney was the one who killed my child, but he never told me about this until today. That's why I
hated you back then for so long. If he were to tell me earlier, maybe I wouldn't even blame you for so long."
I am feeling apologetic for what I have done to Frances.
He didn't do anything, but I have misunderstood him for so long.
I was stubborn at that time. No matter how much he explained, I didn't even want to listen to him.
"However, I think I should thank Steven instead."
Frances says this inexplicably, which makes me very puzzled.
"Why?"
Shouldn't he act like me, and be unable to forgive Steven? Why does he say that?
Sure enough, Frances' mind is really hard to be comprehended.
"Because, if you were to know that this is not done by me, maybe you wouldn't even marry me."