In My Desperate Time

"Frances just shut up, I can't see the road anymore."
I choke with sobs and tell him.
The car has already arrived at the gate of the hospital, I ask him to wait in the car, and look for medical aid inside.
When I come out again, Frances has already closed his eyes.
On his lips I can see a slight smile hanging, if it isn't for his pale face, and the blood on his chest, I might think he is only asleep.
No, no, he cannot be in danger!
I run towards him crying, and throw myself on him.
"Frances, don't die, I love you! I love you!"
In this moment, my heart pains horribly.
How can anything happen to him!
Earl's issue is not solved yet, and I have not forgiven him yet, how can he just die now?
I still have so many things to tell him, and we want to have our own baby, how can he leave me?
But, before I can reach him, the doctors already pull me back.
"He is only unconscious, not dead."
The doctor's words give me a big surprise.
My heart that just died, is now back to life!
I do not have the time to bother about the people staring at me, and follow the doctors into the hospital.
Frances is pushed into the OR, and I wait outside anxiously.
Even though he was alright before he went into surgery, but he lost so much blood, I am sure his situation is not quite so easy.
Until now, I still don't know which organs the knife hit.

The doctor does not come out for a long time, and I pace up and down in front of the door, my heart is torn with anxiety.
I don't know how much times has passed, it is already dark outside, the doctor finally comes out, looking very tired.
"Doc, how is he doing?" I walk up to him, and ask him quickly.
"He is stable, but his artery was injured, and he lost a lot of blood, right now, he is still unconscious, I don't know if he might go
into shock suddenly, so tonight we have to keep him in the ICU for further observations. When he wakes up, we can transfer him
to the ward."
The ICU has fixed visiting schedules, so I don't have the chance to see him.
But, I know that he is okay, and that is enough for me.
This night, I don't go anywhere, I wait in the hospital the whole night.
I am afraid that something might happen to him.
When I thought I lost him, it was like my world collapsed.
All this time, I thought I hated him, but in that moment, I realized that I love him with all my heart. I don't care what he has done,
as long as he is okay, nothing else matters to me.
The second day in the morning, Frances is transferred to the regular ward.
I am so relieved, and immediately go to see him.
When I walk into his room, my eyes meet with his, he is smiling.
What is he smiling about?
Why do I feel shy when I see him smile?
I lower my head and walk inside, I stand next to his bed ans ask him, "How are you feeling? Are you having pain somewhere?"
"I do. My heart is aching." He says calmly, his voice still sounds weak.
Heartache?

"Where does it hurt? What kind of pain is it? I am going to get the doctor right now!"
I ask him anxiously, and turn to run outside.
Frances suddenly pulls on my hand, and he looks at me, telling me in a very serious voice, "I feel pain in my heart, seeing you so
sad."
I blush, and push his hand away, then I deny, "Who feels sorry for you! You think too much of yourself!"
"Hmm? I remember when I passed out, I heard someone say that she loves me, or... was I just imagining it?" Frances scratches
his head, and puts on a face as if he is thinking.
Frances heard everything I said, and now I don't even dare to look at him anymore, so I turn my head away.
This man, he already passed out, why does he eavesdrop on me!
Luckily, my phone rings, which saves me.
It's Mindy, I guess she has news for me.
I pick up the call.
"Jane, didn't you say that there were two other guys who went to Prague with Hamlin? I found them!"