In My Desperate Time

“Sure.”
I immediately agree with it.
Frances Louis will not tell me what he has found out anyway. Even if he tells me, I might not believe it.
I will rather find the clues by myself.
Mindy calls David Gibbs in front of me and requests him to do this.
David promises Mindy easily as he will never reject her request.
I feel relieved with David’s help. After chatting with Mindy for a while, I go home.
Where did old Mr. Louis go these few days? Then, I am surprised to see Frances at home when I walk past his room.
He is standing near the window, with his only back shown to me. I wonder what is he looking at.
Looking at his back, I sense that he feels lonely for some reason. Suddenly, I feel bad about him.
Recalling what Mindy has said, I stop at the doorway of his room.
Perhaps I should really try this.
How long will it be to have this peaceful time before the truth is revealed?
After taking a deep breath, I talk to Frances, “Have you eaten?”
Perhaps he doesn’t expect me to call him, he is shocked obviously. Then, he turns his head towards me and says hesitantly,
“No.”
“What do you want to eat?”
“Anything. As long it is made by you.”
He walks towards me as he talks.
I feel it is not that difficult after I try to smooth our relationship. At least, this is much better than fighting each other.

“I will go to see what we have in the fridge.”
After saying that, I walk downstairs and cook.
There are only two of us. I simply make two dishes and bring them out.
When I walk out, I see Frances sitting on the sofa while looking at me.
I am a little embarrassed when he looks at me. My face blushes and I ask with a deep voice, “What are you looking at?”
“I feel that you are being weird today,” he says with a worried look.
Even though he doesn’t mention it, I feel weird about it too.
I only do this after listening to what Mindy has said. I feel so awkward to be directly exposed by him.
“It’s time to eat.”
I force myself to smile, trying to change the topic.
Frances doesn’t say anything. It is rare that we finish this meal in peace.
After putting down the chopsticks, I am about to clean the table. Suddenly, Frances says, “About the divorce you mentioned...”
I suddenly feel a little scared about what he is going to say. I quickly speak to stop him, “Let’s talk about it later.”
After saying that, I take the bowls and chopsticks to the kitchen as if I am escaping from him.
At this moment, I finally realize how afraid I am if Frances says the word ‘divorce’.
If the truth is really too cruel that I cannot accept it, then let me enjoy this short peaceful time first.
After doing the dishes, I walk upstairs and go towards my room. I am pulled by Frances when I walk past his room.
He hugs me tightly in his arms. I can clearly feel his fast heartbeat.
However, no matter how fast is his heartbeat. There is no way it is faster than mine.
“What are you doing?” I say as I am shocked.

“Since we are talking about the divorce matter later, let’s do what couples should do.”
After saying that, he holds me and puts me on the bed.
I do not reject him.
This is the first time that I lay under Frances without resisting.
Everything is good. It is so good until the moonlight looks gentle too.