In My Desperate Time

I can't help looking in the direction that Mindy said.
I see Frances and a woman walk into the hotel.
The woman looks familiar, but I can't remember who she is.
"I think I've seen that woman before."
I whisper.
"Well, I also feel that I have seen her once." Mindy tilts her head and is also absorbed in thought.
Then we remain silent.
Suddenly, Earl starts to cry. I hurriedly pick him up and coax him in my arms.
This is the first time I've brought Earl out. I panic as he cries.
At the same time, Mindy's baby also begins to cry.
We can only stop looking at the hotel and turn our attention back to them.
After the kids stop crying, Frances is not there anymore.
Mindy stares at the hotel opposite and says angrily, "Do you want to go catch them in the act?"
"What?" I smile and shake my head.
"Come on! It's just a nominal marriage. I don't bother. No matter which woman he wants to hook up with, it has nothing to do with
me."
I pretend to be indifferent, but I feel uneasy in my heart as if a big stone is pressing down on me.
I've told myself a thousand times that I don't care. But when I saw him enter the hotel with another woman, I couldn't help.
I have been swayed since I met Frances again.
I hate him. At the same time, I try to prevent myself from falling for him again. I'm really exhausted.

And it's hard for me to deceive Mindy, who knows me so well.
"Is your marriage really a sham? But I think you and Frances have already slept together."
I am embarrassed to hear Mindy talk about private matters frankly.
Judging from her assured voice, I think she firmly believe that we've done that.
So, there is no point trying to hide it.
I have no choice but to nod.
...
Mindy suddenly slaps hard on the table and stands up. Her baby trembles a bit in sleep and then calms down.
"Jane, you have become a stupid after your pregnancy! Frances killed your child. How could you sleep with him? Don't you feel
hatred in face of him? What's wrong with you? You said you want to take revenge. But you have been attempted by him again!"
Mindy looks at me angrily.
I sigh heavily and say, "I really hate him, but sometimes I don't know what to do. I did try to resist. But I am too weak. It's too
difficult for me to fight back against him."
"Well, I don't know either. Anyway, don't forget why you come back to him."
"I won't forget. Even if I die, I won't forget." I say resolutely.
How could I forget it? He hurt me so bad.
Mindy is also a mother now. I believe that she knows how important the child is to me.
I will never let go of the child. I hate him. No matter what Frances does, I won't forgive him.
"Well. There's no point in me saying anything. You'll know what to do when things happen. You're Mrs. Louis now. We should
start to take revenge on Frances."