In My Desperate Time

It wasn’t by chance?
Recalling how Frances and I got to know each other, I feel that Steven might have worried too much about it.
“He didn’t come to me. Actually, I got to know him by accident.” I explain.
I don’t even know why I am so anxious to refute Steven’s words, as if I’m afraid that it may harm our relationship, which has been
twisted from the beginning. And I don’t believe that the man I love is like what Steven said.
Many years later, I am wondering whether my life would be different, if I didn’t get on Frances’ car.
Steven stares at me for a long time.
Then he says, “Jane, no matter what I tell you, you still choose to believe him. Do you fall in love with Frances?”
I panic as he sees through me. I hurriedly explained, “I’m not speaking for him. You should find evidence if you think he did that.
You can’t just blame it on him.”
Steven’s expression changes. He says somewhat awkwardly, “I do not have any evidence right now, but I will investigate it. Jane,
if your parents’ car accident is really related to Frances, would you leave him?”
He looks at me with an extremely serious gaze and a hint of anticipation.
I know that Steven wants to help me.
I smile bitterly at him and say, “Even if the accident has nothing to do with him, I will leave him sooner or later. We are too
different. And it’s dangerous for me to stay with him.”
I have to leave Frances, but I am not able to do that by myself. Last time, Steven helped me to hide from Frances. I was about to
get on the plane. However, I failed to leave because of my parents.
Steven has tried to help me once, so I think I can turn to him this time.
I have no choice but to count on him.
“Steven, I’m pregnant.”
He is stunned and forgets to take the phone I hand to him.

“Are you going to keep the child?” Steven asks me.
I nod without saying anything.
“But if Frances finds out that I’m pregnant, he won’t allow me to keep the child. So I hope that you can help me leave him, the
sooner the better.”
“Alright.” Steven answers me straightforwardly.
“You should be careful. Don’t let him know. I’ll arrange for you to leave.”
I return to Frances’ house, but the images in the video are still lingering in my mind.
I tell myself not to think so badly of him, but I can’t help speculating.
Frances has been mad at me these days. Every day at home, he ignores me. The stranger we get, the more intimate he and
Whitney seem to be.
I can’t remember how long it has been since he came to my room. For several times, I hear his steps and think he is going to
enter the room.
But in the end, he doesn’t knock on the door.
But that’s good.
Since he is intimate with Whitney, he will gradually get tired of me.
Time flies and I have been pregnant for three months, but Steven hasn’t get things ready. I feel worried as my belly has slightly
bulged out.
Fortunately, I’m thin and people can’t tell when I wear loose clothes.
Whitney also starts to wear loose clothes.
I heard her and Lawrence talking on the phone the other day. It seems that she is going abroad. But I don’t know when it is.
Once she leaves, will Frances bother me again?
Can I conceal the fact that I’m pregnant by then?

Mindy has left with David, so I can only go to do the examination by myself at 12 weeks.
When I’m leaving the house, Whitney is not at home. I’m not surprised as her rarely show up.
However, when I arrive at the department of obstetrics and gynecology, I see Whitney, who was also here for an obstetrical
examination.