I will never be yours

Selena pov

We spend a long time searching behind the cave yesterday but none of them could find anything, at one point we had to give up and go home.

Michael took the book with him to continue figuring it out more, he will come back with it once they have done what they can.

I had my appointment with the doctor today and everything was fine, could have told him that without being examined but Kian insisted to make sure and I went for his sake. After feeding and being with our children until lunch I decided I needed to head over to my pack and look at things haven't been there for a long time.

Both my mother and Kian's wanted to stay with our children while I'm away for a few hours, we got two nannies and one is with them all the time I know everything will be alright and Kian is in the house but I still have a hard time being away from them.

There is a knock on my office door and Jessie walks inside and heads over to take a seat in front of the desk.

" how do you feel?" I ask her when she relaxes back in the seat.

"I have started to be sick this morning and had to rush to the bathroom!" she says and looks at me, I got very lucky not once did I get morning sickness.

"Have you talked to Emma I bet she has something that can help you!" I say and know she probably has something good she can give Jessie.

"I will talk to her tomorrow if it continues, let me tell you there will be an awful long pregnancy if I will be sick the whole time and not shifting!" she says and sigh, I can understand her.

"Well I have a job that will take a lot of time, we are trying to find where the rogues have their new camp and what they are up to. If you are interested we need several more to try and go through all material we got and notes, we have to make sure we know as much as we can!" I say and for Jessie, it's probably not a job she would prefer but she is involved and knows my notes from day one. "I've got nothing better to do! I'm in" she says and I give her a nod

" Kian has started over at the castle, you can come over whenever you want!" I say when my office door is opened and Emma comes waking inside when she heads over and takes a place beside Jessie.

"feels just like old times with only us, if we could get Zoey in here as well it would be perfect!" she says and she is right it feels like old times when we were alone in the pack.

" but to get Zoey and my brother to be apart for more than a minute I don't see happening!" I say and chuckle, I never thought I would see the day when she would stick together with her mate every second of the day. Not once since they told me have I seen them being apart, not more than a couple of steps for a short moment but the rest they are together.

"yeah who would have known she had it in her!" Jessie says and chuckles when I feel a mind link reaching out to me, picking it up it's Kian on the other end.

"Are you done soon or do you need any help?" he ask and I know he would come right away if I needed his help.

"No, I'm done only talking to the girls!" I answer him back

"We are here and waiting for you and we are having dinner alone just the two of us in two hours, dress up love!" he says and I instantly want to go back but I want to talk with the girls for a moment we haven't have time to catch up properly with everything going on.

"I'll be back in a little while!" I say and cut the link shortly after.

"I guess that was Kian!" Jessie says and I turn off the computer before looking at her.

"yes, it was and I have to head back in a bit before my breast start to leak again!" I say and hear Emma chuckle.

"yes, I remember myself promising before I had Ella that I would never be one of those parents that went to the grocery store with old breast milk on me or a vomit after she had eaten. One day I stood in the line to pay for my things and saw a big dried vomit on my shirt and just shrugged my shoulders! Every uns of my promise was out the door, I simply didn't care!" she says and laughs I can picture it myself and laugh with her.

"I can understand completely I have had days even if we have a nanny all the time once they are asleep I have to decide if I'm going to take a shower or a nap or ever have something to eat, then several times I just sit and stare out into nothing with how exhausted I am!" I say and shake my head.

"and not to mention I have no idea when the last time I shaved my legs, I'm not sure I care right now!" I start to laugh at the thought I had panic about being hairy when they were born.

Emma falls in and laughs with me while Jessie sits there in silence.

"yeah sounds fun and something I'm looking forward to...not!" she says and shakes her head. "Well, I know Kian has prepared a nice dinner for you two why don't you take a shower and shave while 1 bring you some nice clothes!" Emma says and it sounds like a good idea, then I can just feed them when I go back before dinner and I'm ready and get some more time talking to the girls.

"yes sounds nice!" I say and get up from my seat, Emma gets up as well.

"I have the perfect dress in mind for you!" she says and smile before rushing out of the room, looking at the door where she went I wonder what's gotten into her?