I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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Two nights of nightmares are enough for bags to form under my eyes .

I have laid awake since two am , unable to sleep and I just sat on the bed , watching Aiden snore peacefully .

It was the same dream , the exact same dream and I think that it’s the cause of my stress .

Aiden and I barely looked at one another yesterday and today we finally get the results .

I move to the couch , wrapping s blanket around my shoulders as I sit with my knees pulled up to my chest , watching the dark clouds turn lighter , the sun shining behind them and I can’t help but feel sick , vile rising as I wait each passing second .

I’m tired , but I refuse to dream that horrifying nightmare again .

My mouth starts to water and the nausea is getting worse , I throw the blanket off me before rushing to the bathroom , throwing up as I sit on my knees in front of the toilet .

A hand brushes my hair back before the other rubs my back , “Are you okay ?” Aiden’s sleepy voice asks and I nod as my head hangs over the toilet , my lips parted as my saliva drips from my mouth .

I sit upright , standing up and he lets my hair go as I rinse my mouth with water .

“You’re sick .” He points out , “I’m pregnant .” I scoff , hating the word .

Why should I even be a mom ?

I know nothing of being a parent , I have never looked after a child my entire life…

My eyes are watery as I turn and I try to blink the tears away as I look up at the ceiling .

“Come back to bed .” He offers his hand and I shake my head , “I’m good .” I lie , I wish that I could climb back into bed and sleep for eternity , but I have important things to do .

“Just for another hour , you look like you haven’t slept .” He points out the obvious and I roll my eyes , crossing my arms over my chest as I hug myself and I shoulder him as I stride out of the bathroom .

I don’t want to talk about how I haven’t slept because I had yet another nightmare , the same one .

“I’m just kind of hungry .” I mutter as he follows me to the room and the excited smile on his face is priceless .

“Okay , we can go eat something .” He smiles and I nod , grabbing a jersey and I put socks on .

Heading to the door , he stands on the first step down , smiling at me before turning his back and he holds his arms backwards .

Annoyed with him not moving , I glare at the back of his head , “What are you doing ?” I snap at him and his head turns as he faces back to me , “You have socks on Eleia , get on my back .” He demands and I shake my head , “I’m not in the mood for this , just move .” I try to squeeze past him but he blocks me with his arm , “You can slip and fall and lose that baby .” He grits out possessively .

“Wouldn’t you love that .” I beam sarcastically and his entire body turns as he looks at me with a sad and hurt expression , his eyebrows are furrowed together while the edges of his lips are turned down , “Do you think I’m a monster ?” His head slightly tilts to the side and I shrug , “No , but you don’t want this child because you think it’s Regan’s .” I point out and he rolls his eyes as if I were overreacting , but I am the only one saying what he’s thinking .

“I don’t care if it’s his kid Eleia .” He sighs and I scoff before lifting one foot , pulling my sock off and I do the same with the other , tossing it back into the room .

“I can walk .” I grit out each word and his jaw tenses before he stands to the side and lets me walk down the stairs .

I wasn’t afraid of these stairs until he said that I could fall and lose my child .

With shaky hands , I cling to the railing as I slowly walk down , but even though I try to not make it obvious that I’m afraid , my body does .

“Let me just …” his hand holds my shoulder and I freeze , “No , leave me alone .” I snap and he sighs , letting go of me .

I never thanked the goddess for getting me safely down a flight of stairs until right now before we head to the kitchen .

After we ate eggs on toast , the landline phone right outside the kitchen rang and Aiden went to answer while I cleaned , but when he came back , his face said everything that I dreaded .

“What ?” I ask , I need him to say it , I need him to tell me the test came back .

“The test came back and we need to go in .” He forces a smile and I nod as I rinse the last plate and put it on the dish rack before drying my hands .

I feel stressed enough and for some kind of reason , I am not in a hurry at all to find out what the results are .

‘If you know , we might sleep better .’ Crystal chimes so positively and I just wish she could tell me who the dad was .

‘Unfortunately , I can’t .’ She mutters , sounding smug .

I close her link before I walk up the stairs and Aiden is right behind me . I think he’s more afraid than I am to slip and fall , but the railing is my guardian and I’m never letting go of it again .

We change into warm clothes and Aiden went down to make sure there’s actually a path to walk before we went .

Putting on my rain boots , I sigh as I gather my strength .

I know I can do this , I know that whatever the results are , we’ll be fine .

I stand up from the bed and head out of the room , slowly walking down the stairs with my one hand gripping the railing and the other in a fist next to my side , praying that I won’t fall .

It’s a big relief when I take the last step and I head to the door , finding Aiden shovelling a path .

“Come on .” He waves me over before continuing to shovel the the road for us to walk . Arriving at the hospital , my insides are shaking .

Aiden takes my hand as he leads us to the office of our doctor .

He knocks on the door respectfully , even if he is alpha and can barge in there like he owns the place , because he does .

“Come in !” The doctor beams and we head inside , sitting down .

“I have the results right here .” She holds an envelope in her hand , “I haven’t opened it because it’s yours to read and I did not want any business in knowing .” She shrugs before sliding the envelope over the counter .

I glance at Aiden , forcing a smile before I reach for the paper with shaky hands , blowing out a breath as I stare at the white envelope .

I want to know , I need to…

“Do we have to know ?” I look at Aiden and he gulps , staring at me with a blank expression .

“Right .” I nod , slowly opening the flap , watching the paper tear before I pull the results paper out .

It’s folded in three and I stare up at the doctor , “Do you mind if we do this privately ?” I ask and she smiles so gracefully , “Of course not .” She stands up and walks out .

I open the paper , squeezing my eyes shut as I pray that it’s Aiden’s kid .

I start to read the results and my eyes begin to water , my heart beating against my chest ,feeling like it’s about to beat out of my chest .

“What is it ?” Aiden asks , turning his body to me .

I feel like I can’t breathe , this is not happening to me…

He snatches the paper from my hands and I sob , my entire body feeling numb .

He crushes the paper in his hand before tossing it across the office , standing up.

“I need air .” He mutters before leaving me alone to deal with this mess .

I cannot believe that I’m having Regan Night , the brutal monster’s , child .

My hands fall on my stomach as I try to calm myself and the doctor comes in , kneeling beside me , “It’s okay , relax .” She rubs my back , being more supportive than my so called mate .

I shake my head , “I don’t know what to do…” I choke on my own words as hot tears stream down my face .

I wish this didn’t happen … why does these things have to happen to me ?

Can’t something in my life just be right ?

Can I not just be happy ?

Now I have to raise a kid that is going to remind me of the monster that took my virginity , my innocence and then broke my heart .

How am I suppose to love a kid that reminds me of a monster ?

How can I expect Aiden to be with me after this ?

I’m going to lose him too…