I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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I don’t know what to say as I sit on the bed , my breathing getting heavier by the second .

“Hey .” Aiden grabs my chin in between his fingers , dragging his thumb over my trembling bottom l*p .

My eyes lock on his ocean blues , “I know .” He nods and my gaze averts down to my hands fidgeting with my clothes .

“I..” my voice cracks as the back of my eyes sting .

“It’s okay .” He breathes out , his words say one thing , but his eyes are full of hurt .

I look at him , my eyes flicking between his , “I’m sorry .” I manage to mutter out .

“Don’t apologise .” He pleads in a demanding way .

His voice is deep and his eyes dark .

“I need to .” Tears rest on the rim of my eyes , “You don’t deserve this .” I shake my head frantically as tears stream down my cheeks .

“No , you don’t deserve this . You don’t deserve to wonder , you didn’t deserve what happened to you .” The white of his eyes are slightly turning red as his eyes glass over , he’s trying so hard to stop the tears from forming and falling .

My hand automatically cups his cheek , my thumb gently rubbing underneath his eyes , “We didn’t deserve this .” I force a smile , choking on it as I sob and he rests his one hand over mine that’s on his face , his other hand holding my free one .

“We’ll make it work , we’ll find out , alright ?” He pulls my hand slightly away from his face , turning his head and he places a k**s on my palm , sending shivers up my spine .

“Can we do some sort of test to find out ?” I ask and he nods , “If you want to .” He shrugs and I inhale a deep breath .

I don’t know how to choose , on the one hand , I want to know if this is Regan or Aiden’s child…

I can’t expect Aiden to love a child that isn’t his , I don’t even know if he would want to , if he could..

Everything feels like a mess , what am I even going to do when it’s Regan’s child ?

“Calm down.” Aiden snaps me out of my mind , pulling me closer to him and I rest my head against his shoulder , only realising then that my breathing is out of control .

“I don’t know what to do .” I start to sob against his chest and his hand drags from the back of my head down to my nape .

“Just calm down .” He breathes and I try to stop sobbing like a maniac , but I’m struggling to come to terms with my pregnancy .

I know nothing about kids , I know nothing about being a mom…

My breathing finally calms down and I sit up , staring at my mate with pleading eyes .

It’s not fair that I want him to tell me what to do , but I , myself , have no idea where to start .

“I’ll call the doctor and we’ll get a DNA test , alright ?” He smiles , but it seems forced .

I guess he’s upset too , I’m his mate and I might be carrying another man’s child .

I might be carry his enemy’s child…

“Okay .” I smile and he stands up , leaving me alone with my thoughts .

I can do this , if it’s Regan’s child… I’ll have an abortion.. but I can’t…this child is mine too.

I sigh , dropping my face into the palms of my hands .

I want this to be Aiden’s child , I need this to be Aiden’s child .

I can not face Regan , I can not share my child with that monster…

Aiden comes back , followed by a doctor , who’s smiling with a worried expression and I wouldn’t blame her because this is her pack , I should be carrying her alpha’s child but here we are , getting a DNA test .

I hold Aiden’s hand while they do the tests , making me bare my teeth as they take b***d for the testing .

The doctor leaves after telling us that the tests will be ready in two days .

Two whole days I have to sit with the worry and wonder if this child is my mate’s or not .

“Can we go home ?” I lay back with a stiff body , my eyes boring into the white ceiling above me .

“Yes .” Aiden’s thumb rubs over the top of my hand .

I nod , inhaling a breath before I sit up , throwing my legs off the bed and Aiden rushes around the bed to get to me , helping me off .

I stand on my feet , my hands holding his wrists , “Eleia .” He breathes out and I glance up at him through my lashes .

I’m scared of what he’s going to say…

“It doesn’t matter who’s kid it is , all it matters is that it’s your baby , the baby is going to be apart of you and I already love it .” He smiles , grabbing me face as my eyes tear up .

I nod , smiling as I sniff .

“Let’s go .” He bends down onto his one knee , grabbing my shoes and he puts them on for me .

“Thanks .” I smile as he raises , towering over me .

We stand and stare at one another for a while before he grabs my hand and leads me out of the room .

Once we reach the exit of the medical building , Aiden stops me by putting his hand in front of me , staring out onto the snow before he turns to me and scoops me up into his arms .

I giggle , feeling like I can have a little bit of happiness after everything , “I can walk .” I tell him , feeling like I’m saying it a lot .

“I don’t want you to slip and fall .” He stomps through the snow , carrying me all the way .

“What if you slip and fall ?” I ask , raising my brow at him .

“Then I will fall first and break your fall .” He shrugs , “But I don’t slip and fall .” He grins , making me playfully rolling my eyes as I hold onto him .

Arriving at the house , I reach for the door and open it , letting him put me down inside .

“Safe and sound .” He blows out a breath , closing the door .

He turns , his hands resting on his h**s .

“We’re going to have to see the doctor tomorrow , to fix your diet for the…” He’s cut off when Rosie runs in , wrapping her arms around me , “What happened ?” Rosie asks , holding onto me for dear life .

“I’m fine .” I hug her , tapping her on the back .

She lets me go , her eyes trailing my body , looking for an injury that isn’t there .

“I’m fine .” I chuckle and she turns to Aiden , “Is she ?” She asks and I stare at the side of her face agape , her serious expression making me scoff , “Rosie .” I call for her attention , but she raises her hand to me , silencing me , “She’s fine .” Aiden rolls his eyes and she nods , “Then why did you pass out ?” She c***s her head at me .

“Because…” I look at Aiden and he nods , “I’m pregnant .” I lock eyes on her and her smile stretches , looking between Aiden and I .

“Oh my goddess !” She shrieks , jumping as her hands clasp together in excitement .

“Congratulations !” She beams and I wish I could share her happiness , I wish I was happy instead of miserable .

Her smile falls , staring at me with a worried glance , “What’s going on ? What’s wrong ?” Her head slightly shakes , his hands holding one another , tightening as I stare at Aiden for help .

He shrugs , he just shrugs and it breaks my heart because I don’t want to cry .

My eyes meet the floor and I hug myself , swiping my foot left to right , “It might be Regan’s child .” I mutter , chewing on my bottom l*p .

The silence in the room makes me want to crawl into the floor and disappear , but when Rosie’s arms wrao around my from the side m her cheek pressing against mine , I tear up again .

I’m so sick of crying , my nose hurts and my eyes sting .

“It’s okay .” She just holds me and I know it’s wrong , but I feel more comforted by her than my own mate .

“I just want to go lie down .” I mutter up an excuse and she lets go , nodding as he fidgets with her fingers .

“Yeah , go rest and I’ll see you at dinner .” She smiles .

I turn to the stairs and walk , not even looking at Aiden .

I know he’s trying , this is harder for him than for me , I might be the pregnant one , but I would never expect someone to ask me to love a kid that isn’t mine , I obviously would , but like my own? No .

I hear his heavy footsteps following me up the stairs and I just feel exhausted by the thought of him talking right now .

“Hey .” He follows me into the room and I turn , forcing a smile , but once our eyes lock , the smile is real .

“Are you okay ?” He asks , his eyes filled with concern .

I nod , “Yep .” I slowly sit down and take my shoes off , “Are you sure , you seem upset ?”

A low sigh escapes my lips , “I’m really just overwhelmed .” I confess and he nods , striding forward , sitting down next to me .

“I know , I’m sorry .” He rakes his fingers through his dark hair and I crawl on the bed , laying down on my side .

I don’t want to be ungrateful for the little thing growing inside of me , but I want it to be Aiden’s baby .

I don’t want a part of Regan in my life and I know I’ll love this baby , I already do , I can feel it .