I am a Second Female Lead

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥This chapter is dedicated to ms. Suzana. I have put two chapters in one. Till Monday ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ "Why would your mother detest me so much and why do you repeatedly say, so-called mother?" Sheri diverted his thought.

Devon looked at her.

"It was a long story between your parents and my so-called mother. Your mother and the Empress were once friends and both were in love with the General but the General choose your mother over my so- called mother. That makes her enraged. When the Emperor saw my so-called mother. He was in love and marries her but in the end, it was she who poisoned him. She hated your mother to the bones and wanted your father. So she made all the movements. Upon investigating everything. I unexpectedly found that I was not even his son. It makes all sense all those heavy punishments I received from her. I was just an abandoned son. Raised by her and become her tool for her vengeance. The emperor keeps on checking your father for the fear that the empress will be snatch away. That is one of the reasons why he sends your father away, every time there is a war."

Sheri was shocked by all the revelation. No wonder why the Empress looked at her mother so maliciously and no wonder the Emperor was into the matter of the general. Sheri was still the whole time and didn't speak instead she felt extremely exhausted with all the revelation and prefers to sleep. Sleep might aid her to digest all the information she received.

The whole night Sheri and Devon sleep in the bed.

Morning arrived Sheri's head is painful. She slowly wakes up and recalls everything that Devon said.

She sits down and starts to massage her forehead. Devon came with a tray of food and medicine. Sheri was looking at him the whole time.

"Why is that I didn't see that he looked like Du Wen."Sheri thought to her self.

Devon gently put down the food and hand over to her a pill.

"It's for your headache. You sleep very long." Devon gently said.

Sheri looked at him and after a minute she takes the medicine and drinks it in one go.

"Eat also, so that the medicine will be more effective." Devon further said and put the tray in front of her.

Sheri didn't shy away instead she started to eat. She stops when she tasted the soup. The memory of Hunter soup flashes into her. When She grabs the bread. The taste of the bread she likes when she was in hospital in her own world is the same tastes the bread she's eating. She pauses and looked at Devon.

"Didn't you like what I made, I can make another?" Devon was nervous when he saw her stop eating and look at him.

Sheri shakes her head and started to eat again.

Sheri and Devon were silent the whole time. Sheri didn't want to talk to him.

Two days passed by. Sheri and Devon didn't talk. Every time Devon arrived at her room Sheri is gazing outside the window. Sheri was figuring out everything on her own. It gradually sinks into what happened. She doesn't know what to feel and how to feel. Everything, for her, is hard.

Here is a man who made away for her to be reborn into Sheri and was able to recognize her and keeps following her and due to the misunderstanding, they have missed the opportunity to be together.

This was supposed to be her punishment world but it turns out to be complex. Sheri was looking at Devon who is silently putting down the food tray. The whole two days Devon was patient he didn't force Sheri and neither asked her. He was always there providing everything she needed.

"I want to go out." Out of nowhere, Sheri spoke.

Devon stops for a second what he was doing and put down the tray his holding.

"Alright," Devon said.

Sheri was silent again and turns her eyes outside of the window.

"But I will be coming if you don't want me to come. My offer is still available, and it will never expire."Devon gently said and opens the drawer of the bed. There lay the gun. Sheri closes her eyes.

She walked toward where the gun lies and grabs the gun. She readies and points the gun toward Devon.

Devon didn't budge when he saw that she is pointing the gun toward him. Instead, he walked toward her and holds her hand and places the gun in his heart.

He looked at her. She looked at him. He caressed her face.

"I love you and if this will satisfy you. I wholeheartedly surrender my life for you."

Devon doesn't want that Sheri will soil her hand so he will shoot himself for her while clasping her hand.

Devon was supposed to press the trigger when Sheri pressed the magazine release button. The detachable magazine box where the bullets are falls to the ground.

Sheri put down the gun and drop it on the floor and return to look outside the big window.

One thing Sheri knows for sure. Mistakes after a misunderstanding have happened between them she does not want to make another mistake. Two lifetimes she was hurt but she wanted to think it through. If he wants to follow so to be it. Sheri doesn't actually don't know what to do.

Devon look at the back of Sheri. He was absolutely ready to shoot himself, but she stops at the last minute. A small smile form in his lips. It means perhaps he has a chance. Even a small chance he will grab it. As long she allowed him to stay by her side.

The next day she went outside her room. She walked into the garden. It was a beautiful garden. Sheri just wanted to get her head straight and think about what to do. She keeps on recalling every mission she has and everything that has happened.

She started to gently massage her head. Suddenly a warm thing drape on her.

"It is a bit cold," Devon said.

Sheri looked at him and didn't talk she continues to walk. Devon just silently followed her. She saw a beautiful bamboo garden swing chair. She walked toward it and she sits. Sheri looked at the whole garden i seems it was currently made.

While sitting, Devon also sits next to her. Both were quiet. Sheri didn't mind the silence nor his presence. She just wanted to think and think.

Sheri looked at Devon and asked,

"Why did you think that I was Janice in the last lifetime?"

Devon looked at her with gentleness in his eyes. That was the looked he always sees in her past life. "Sheri was thinking. She missed something, didn't she?

"There was a time I was walking alone. It was the day my grandfather died. I was around 17 at that time. I keep on dreaming about a girl since I was a child. When a girl bumps into me. She was being chased

by her guards and the only thing that I recognize is her hair, her hand has a birthmark and her necklace. When I meet Janice, I saw the birthmark it was vague the mark that I saw in your hand."

Devon gently grabs Sheri's hand and looks at her birthmark.

"So I thought she is you since no one

has the same birthmark. Unknowingly Janice found out that I was seeking a long time a woman who has a birthmark and I described it with my investigator. Janice had a relationship with my investigator, and she went under surgery to copy the birthmark. She even asks someone to specifically сору the

necklace that you have. It was

stupid of me that I didn't check it

out. I never doubt her. I was the one

who draws the details of the

necklace because it keeps on

appearing in my dream. When I was

...."

Devon stops when he recalled the time Eric was torturing Sheri. He closed his eyes. Sheri can see the pain of being reminded. Nevertheless, he continued his story.

"I wasn't able to recognize you. The

time you were tortured. I don't know yet who I am. I only know who I am when I saw you vanishing at the cemetery and you're necklace suddenly drops. I look at it but it starts to vanish. Right then and there found who am I. I asked your brother Sven to confirm about the necklace. At first, he was hesitating to let me look at it. In the end, I saw it was the necklace I made only for you. Everything was too late. I was a fool and stupid and was easy to manipulate." Sheri can see the disgust and anger on Devon's eyes by mentioning Janice.

Sheri looked at the flowers.

"No wonder why you didn't recognize me because the time they started to torture me they remove everything. My watch, my ring especially my necklace."

Drops of tears fall at Sheri's eyes. Even though she forgives. There are things she remembers vividly. Indeed, Devon didn't participate in torturing her physically but he was there standing by.

Devon kneels in front of Sheri and lays his head on her knees. Sheri doesn't know what to do. She felt that Devon was also crying.

She was hesitating to touch his hair. Instead, she wipes her eyes first and was supposed to touch him, but she was hesitating.

"I.. I don't know yet what I want. I am in pain right now, and I can't decide." Sheri honestly said.

Devon looks at Sheri. His eyes were red. He is in so much pain if he remembers their past lives. He keeps on thinking if it is much better to leave her alone. But how he loves her so much that if he can't see her. He will go crazy. Would it be much better? Devon has so many things in his head.

"The time, I went back and saw you. You found out that Janice lied. You slowly kill your self. And when you saw me at the grave slowly vanishing. I'm wondering how come you could see me." Sheri said.

"The moment I knew that Janice

lied. I investigate everything. I found

out she is not the one I have been looking for. I don't know why I feel so remorse when you died. I did try to reason out to my self that I have seen worst and did worst. But I keep on feeling so remorse. I ask my people to gather every photo of you to see why in my dream Xue looked like you. There I found the truth and it was too late.fet sickness take hold of me as punishment for my self. When I went to the grave, I saw a bright light on my left side when I look. It was you and the last one. I saw before you vanished is your necklace. I don't know how to say I'm sorry. How to say, I regret everything because there are no words to say how sorry and stupid I am. The great Goori or even the crown prince was a stupid person."

Devon is still kneeling and starting to punch his head. Sheri holds his hands.

"Devon..."Sheri starts to cry.

Devon gets up and embraced her.

"I am sorry. I will do everything for you to love me and forgive me or even if you don't love me. Let me stay by your side."

Devon and Sheri sit in the garden for how many hours.

Sheri now grasps everything why Janice would do what she did. No wonder Janice's hair has the same hair as her. Even her eyes were the same.

"But how did Janice fount out it was me," Sheri asked when everything calmed down.

"My private investigator. Both Janice and my investigator collaborated. No wonder. My company was losing billions because Janice was selling information to other companies to pay that man. I let someone investigate it and gave a copy to my grandmother."

Sheri can see the disgust in Devon's eyes.

Sheri's mind started to work. The time she pushed Janice to the stairs. Janice was supposed to push her, but Sheri accidentally pushed her first. It makes everything clear now.

"What happened to Janice by the way." Sheri was curios.

"She's in jail and in a place that she wishes she would die than keep on living," Devon said but the last part he didn't mention because he doesn't want to go into details with Sheri. He knows how kind the heart of Sheri she is still no matter what the Xue li, he remembers.

Sheri didn't speak and just look at the setting sun.

"Would you this time reconsider us again?" Devon was nervous when he asked that question it took him a lot of courage to ask her. He knows he doesn't deserve her but he is so in love with her that if ever she will say no. Then it is better to vanish completely.

Sheri looked at him. He was still the man she falls in love with over and over. No matter how much she runs away. He was always there. Indeed, her first mission was the look-alike Eric but the mannerism is Devon. Sheri doesn't want to go into details of all her missions. There are things better to be buried than to keep on remembering. Sheri doesn't know what to say.

"I don't know... I really don't know.." Sheri honestly said.00000