Chapter 26
Amelia’ POV
I stood there shocked. I didn't know what to say. I just nodded my head and left. I went back to my room to gather my thoughts.
What am I supposed to say to that? How am I to believe that those words were true? I feel like the one whole week was just some dream. A dream I wished I could stay in forever.
I sighed as I went back down to see the children were waiting for me at the backyard along with Karen. I smiled at them as we started to plant flowers.
I really liked spending time with Karen and the children. It took all stress and worry away. I don't have to think about Xavier or my time away.
Soon were done and we went back inside. The children and I had our lunch together as they went back to their parents after that.
Normally I would be doing pack work along with Xavier. I was dwelling on that thought. Should 1? As the Luna Queen, its my responsibility to do my job.
I shouldn't let my thoughts get in the way of my responsibility. I took one deep sigh and left to go to his office. I took slow step while going to his office.
The anxiousness eating me alive. Standing outside his office, I could already smell is scent which only increased my heartbeat. I took in one last deep breathe and was about to knock his door. When the suddenly the door open and he was standing there. "Little one." breathe out. I never understood that nickname.
I stood there staring at the floor. "Come in." he said opening the door wider. I nodded my head and enter as he closed the door after me.
"I-I was wondering do you need help with any of the paperwork?" I asked immediately. I saw him thinking hard before nodding his head.
I sat in front of the desk as he sat behind the desk. He passed me some of the paperwork. We quickly started on the paperwork.
All the while, I felt him steal glances at me. I would fight the urge to look up at him. It was starting to become so difficult to avoid him.
All I ever wanted was him to accept me. Love me. But now that he does, every time I thought about being with him, everything just come flooding back.
The way he treated me. The man, who masked like him, trying to kill me. Even though I forgive him for everything, thinking about those times, the very last words he said before me being kidnapped. It just replays in my head and no matter how much I try to forget them, I just can't. I wish I never got my memories back. I wish we stayed the way we were before I got my memories back.
Thinking about all of this, I didn't realise it was already evening with the sun gone and we were done with the work.
I sighed and put the work in order and stack them up before giving it to him. He took them and placed them in his draw.
We looked at each other without saying anything. Not able to bare the silence, I gave him a nod, indicating I was leaving, before walking off when his voice stopped me.
"Please come back to me, little one." he said making freeze on my spot. My heart was telling me to turn around and embrace him into a hug and tell him that I love him.
But my mind, it was asking me to run. Run and never turn back. To never come back. I slowly turn around, as I face down, looking at the floor.
"I-I need time a-and s-space." I whispered nervously. Suddenly he stood right in front of me, taking my hands into his.
"I will give you as much time you want. I would wait for you. But please don't ask me to give you space. Especially from me." I felt the desperation in his voice.
I don't know what to say. I have never seen him this vulnerable. Not for me. Not for anything. I just nodded my head.
He was understanding and patient with me. Its only fair that I do the same. He hold my chin making me look up at him.
"Thank you little one." he said, looking into my eyes. I just stared at his eyes, like the magnet, pulling me towards him.
Suddenly, an image of him yelling at me, came into my mind making me tear away from his gaze. I pulled my hands away from his and walked out.
I tried to get the image away from my head. Just them my stomach growled making walk towards the kitchen. All those paperwork making me hungry.
When I entered to the dining area, I saw some of those guards working in the palace having their dinner too. I waved them a hello before getting my own plate and filling it with food.
Looking at the food, my mouth drool as I devoured the food. I heard someone clear their throat. I look up and saw him standing. I looked around and saw that we were the only one there.
Where did they go? He took a plate and put himself the food on his plate. He took a seat next to me and I tensed but quickly relaxed myself.
I continued to eat my food as so did he. We sat there eating our food, in silence. Not uttering any voice. Once I was done I washed my plate not wanting to stress the ladies over one plate.
As I was about to go to my room. "Good night little one." I heard him say. I muttered a good night to him and went to my room.
I need to find a way to fight my horrors. My demons. Only then will I be able to get back to my
normal life. And I would try. No matter what it takes.