Chapter 19
Xavier's POV
6 months. It has been 6 months since everything happened. Since I went into the darkness. Since I became a monster. Since my mate died.
After she was gone, I couldn't do anything and wanted to isolate myself from this world. But then I realised that's the same mistake my mum did and I can't do the same mistake.
My Kingdom still need me. Amelia always respected my duties I did as an Alpha King and I won't disappoint her. I continued my duties as Alpha King.
No one talks to me properly. Not Nathan, not Angela, not even my mother. Because of that, I had stopped talking. Only when necessary.
Nathan only communicate with me when it comes to the pack and Kingdom. He calls me by my title and nothing more. I wouldn't blame him.
I am the reason his sister is dead. I have become more ruthless and merciless. When Amelia died, she took my light along with her, leaving me in my darkness.
I made sure there were no witches alive anymore in the world. I took everyone down, sparing the kids. I knew how much Amelia loved kids and I couldn't do harm to those kids.
But promised one day, when they grow up, I'll come for them. This is what has become of me. I became a monster.
Here I was torturing a rogue for disrespecting me. He was pleading me, yet I continued my torture on him. This is how I keep my mind busy.
Once I was satisfied, I went back up, when I saw Nathan approaching me. "Alpha King, Alpha Miguel is in the line for you." he said grimly.
I nodded my head and went towards my office. After washing my hands, I picked up my phone. Miguel greeted me from the other line.
"Xavier. How are you?" I just hummed in response. "I have been calling you to come over for months but you refused. But now I need you here."
"For what?" I groaned. After hearing about everything, he has been pestering me to come over to take time off things.
"Rogues." is all he had to say, before I could understand. Rogues has been getting out of control these days. I sighed knowing I had to go there.
"Fine. I'll come over." I said as I put the phone down. I quickly mind linked Nathan to come over. Within seconds he was knocking on my door. I asked him to come in as he entered
"We need to go to Alpha Miguel's territory. Get about 2 men. We will heading over ASAP." I instructed him. He nodded his head and was about to go.
"I am sorry, Nathan. I hope you'll forgive me one day." I whispered. I felt his body tense. He just walked away without saying anything.
I sighed and got up from my sit. I went to her room as I took her hoodie and sniffed it. It immediately calmed me down. I took her photo and caressed it.
"I miss you, little one.” I said sighing. "I wish you were here. I wish you could make me the better man that you thought of me.”
"Knowing you are not here, kills me. I wish to come to you so badly. But you wouldn't want that. You would want me to live for our Kingdom."
"The children, ask of you everyday. I have no answer for them, little one.” I said tearing up. I miss her so much. I wanted her back so badly.
I fell asleep in her bed like everyday clutching onto her teddy bear. When I first saw that, I couldn't
contain the smile that spread across my face.
I had imagined her hugging it to sleep. She would have looked so cute. That was the last image in my mind before going into my nightmares.
I shot up awake again from nightmare. It was of, Amelia, dying. This haunts me every night. It has become my own prison in hell.
I checked the time and it was 5am. Might as well stay awake. I went back to my room, shower and got ready for the trip to Miguel's territory.
By the time I was done, it was 7.30 am. I waited for Nathan to mind link. An hour later he mind linked saying everyone was ready.
I sighed and got my things and left. The faster I leave, the faster I can come back. I made my way downstairs and saw Nathan with 2 other warriors. I nodded to them and we left.
We rode for about 5 hours when we finally reached his land. Upon seeing us, the guards let us in, bowing to me. Miguel was already waiting for us.
"Welcome Xavier." he said inviting me. I just nodded my head. "Welcome Beta Nathan. I am sorry for your loss." he said to Nathan as he just nodded his head.
The moment we entered, we went straight to his office and got down to business. "We have the rogues in the dungeon.” Miguel said getting to the point.
"We tried to get information from them, but they wouldn't bulge.” Miguel said sighing. "Well they haven't got interrogated by me." I said snarling.
"Where is the dungeon?” I asked him as he quickly showed us the path. We followed him down the basement and going down in the staircase. I had asked Nathan and the rest to wait for me outside. The moment he showed me them, I snarled at them. "Let me be alone." I demanded him. "But-" I stopped him by a growl.
Without saying, he left me with them. "Shall we begin?" I asked with a sinister smile as they cowered away. With that I began my torture on them
For hours, I was there getting the answer I needed. Finally after getting the answered, I went back. "They were here to challenge you for your Alpha position. Hence was sneaking around to find your weakness." I said to Nathan.
Nathan looked at me bewildered. I was covered in blood. I probably looked like a monster to him. But I don't care. "What happened to you?"
I just rolled my eyes at him. "I got the answers you want. I suggest you let one of them go, to pass the message.” I said to as I walk pass him to clean myself up.
Once I cleaned myself up, I came out and saw everyone was waiting for me. "Now that we are done, we should get going.”
"What? Come on. Its going to be night. You guys should stay the night." he said with hope. I sighed thinking about it. The guys looked exhausted themselves.
I nodded my head in agreement. He showed us the guestroom and later we were called for dinner. I skipped dinner not really in the mood
I was in the living room balcony when Miguel came in. He just stood there not saying anything, knowing I needed the silence.
"I miss her. A lot." I said looking at the moon. I heard him sigh. "I understand. If someone as to much think of hurting, Emma, I would be furious.” Emma is his mate.
"Why did I let this happen?" I asked no one in particular. "You can blame yourself for what happen, but we both know we couldn't have avoided this."
I sighed. I wish he was right. "You should have seen her. She was full of life. I have never seen anyone as energetic as her. She was an energy ball.” I said smiling.
"We would have had so much fun.” he said laughing. I smiled at that. They would have been good friends. Both of them were trouble makers,
After some time he left me knowing I needed my space.
I sighed as I prayed to the moon goddess, hoping my agony would end soon.