His Alpha's Guardian

**Kataleya's POV**

I knew this question was coming. It was just a matter of time before Justin finally asked me what the holdup was with starting a family together. In the beginning, we did not use any form of contraceptives and it was kind of a miracle that I did not end up pregnant. Shortly after the Alpha ceremony, we had decided that it would be best that I would go on some form of birth control, just in case, since neither of us were truly ready to start a family.

Even though he said all the right things, I was still worried about the thoughts of us having a family together. The idea of me being a mother was terrifying, but I knew Justin would as least be with me every step of the way, which made me relax slightly.

I think the worry was always going to be there about whether I would make a good mother. How do I balance being Alpha and raising my children? I remembered there were days and sometimes weeks where my dad was gone at conferences or summits and we did not see him. There were just some things that he did not take us to, which was fine at the time in the beginning because those meetings were sometimes boring as hell. I guess that would be a bridge that we would pass when we got to it.

After we finished eating, we packed everything back into the picnic basket and placed the basket in the car before taking a stroll through the park. The Park was silent and it was nice listening the birds chirping and cricketing of the crickets.

Justin and I walked hand in hand, both of us lost in our own thoughts. I was sure that we were both thinking about the same thing. I knew that he was wanting pups. I have known that he was wanting pups for quite a long time, but it never feels like the right time. I hated the thought of bringing up children for fear that he was going to react just like this. I know what he wants and I am capable of giving it to him, but the fear of fucking up is constantly there. He never asks for anything though. He constantly gives me anything that I ask for, even if he does not agree with what I am asking for... I looked over at Justin and pulled us to a stop. “Is everything okay,” he asked.

I nodded my head before I spoke. “Everything is just fine...we can start trying for a baby..."

He pulled me into his arms, picked me up, and spun me in a circle, kissing me passionately.

“Thank you, my queen. Thank you. Thank you.” He repeatedly said in between peppering my face with kisses. He finally stopped spinning me and slowly lowered me to my feet. We stood there wrapped in each other's arms before we started moving again.

“Are you ready to leave?” he asked me.

I quietly nodded my head, once again consumed by my thoughts. The weight of my agreement finally hit me...we were really going to go and try for a baby.

We headed back to the pack, both of us quiet throughout the drive. I needed to just get out of my head. I just could not help but think that something bad was going to happen if we were to get pregnant... The feeling settling into my gut was starting to make me feel nauseous and uneasy. As we started to pull into the driveway of our house, I pushed the uneasiness away, allowing my body to relax. Everything will be alright. I just feel this way because I am nervous about being a mom, right?

We walked into the house hand in hand, neither one of us said anything.

I made my first to the bathroom to shower and to get ready for bed.

While I was washing my hair, Justin walked into the bathroom and stood by the sink. I could feel that he wanted to say something, the feel of his were emotions overwhelming me.

"Do you mind if I join you?" he asked hesitantly.

"Of course,” I said quietly, "is everything alright? you seem upset. I can feel the whirlwind of emotions floating through you."

He finished stripping his clothes and hopped into the shower with me. I moved closer to the wall, so that he would be able to fully get into the bathroom. “I can feel your apprehension,” he said quietly. “Your worry and fear...it is bleeding into the bond and I cannot help but think that you only told me yes because you felt that it would make me happy.”

I stepped closer to him, so that I could feel the heat radiating from his body. “Baby, I am worried and apprehensive, but is that not how most parents are when they consider having pups or are pregnant for the first time. I am just worried about my own capabilities. I know you will make a wonderful father. You are already so kind and wonderful to the pups in the pack...any child will be lucky to have you as the father...me, on the other hand, that is another story. I have so much baggage and trauma that I just don’t want to project anything onto our child... don’t want them to have to experience anything that I went through just a few short years ago. For you, though, I would do anything.”

I pulled his head towards mine and kissed him passionately. He spun me around, so that my back was now touching the cold, hard tiles. He picked me up and pressed my back against the wall as he devoured my lips. I moaned into his mouth, which made his desire flare even more. I could feel his hard member pressed against my bare pussy.

He released my lips as I was breathing heavily, his lips trailing down my jaw, to my neck, nipping at my mark. I arched my back and moaned at the sensation.

He used two of his fingers and played with my wet pussy lips before shoving them inside me roughly, pumping in and out, causing me to cry out.

“Fuck!” I panted. “Don’t stop...” I moaned.

He continued fucking me with his fingers as he sucked on my breasts, using his tongue to toy with my nipples.

“I want more,” I begged breathlessly.

“Your wish is my command.” He said as he thrusted inside of me, sheathing himself in me to the hilt, making me gasp, as he let out a moan. He moves at a slow pace, his cock was slipping in and out, slowly building a pleasurable friction. His cock was rubbing my walls, making them clench around him.

“Faster,” I begged.

He grips my waist tightly before he pounds into me relentlessly, not giving me the chance to even think. I cried out, not caring about how loud I was being. I could feel myself nearing the more that he pumped inside of me. He leaned forward, sucking my nipple into his mouth. I rolled my hips against, building up the pleasurable friction

He thrusted in me one more time before my body erupted in pleasure. He continued thrusting into me, allowing me to ride out my orgasm. He pumped in me a few more times before he groaned and I felt his hot cum shoot into me.

He slowly pulled out and I slumped against him, laying against his chest, listening to his heart beat. “I love you,” I whispered.

We finished our shower before getting out of the shower and getting ready for bed. I pulled on my nightgown before lying next to him in bed, my head resting on his chest. I let the soft thump of his heartbeat lull me to sleep.