Her Volkovs #Book 3

Belle's POV

I am officially Mrs. Volkov.

Nikolai and I got married but I wasnt even asked if I accept the man to be my lawfully wedded husband. Heck, I wasnt even given the chance to say a single word!

Since getting home, I isolated myself from Nikolai and Alexei. I locked myself inside Yelena's room and made sure that no one comes in. I just want to be left alone. I have heard knocks many times since last night but I ignored all of them.

They even got Amy to cook Palawi food for me in the morning but I was not having any of it. I just want to be away from people. I told my bestfriend that I'm not hungry and that I needed time alone. She said that if I need someone to talk to, she's always there for me. She did not know what happened last night at the church and I think it is better not to tell her yet.

Matushka herself tried to convince me to eat but I ignored her. I thought that of all the people in this world, she will understand me the most but her being a mother to Nikolai and Alexei took over. She will always look after and fight for her sons even if it means supporting their evil ways.

I am lying on my stomach while looking at my hand. The ring Artan gave me is still here. And then I realized that I don't even have a wedding ring.

I mean, who does that? Who gets married without a wedding ring? Even the couples getting married in the civil courts have wedding rings.

I happen to marry a Billionaire with a great sense of humor, I guess.

I glide my finger over Artan's ring. The man was a sneaky liar but I will not deny the truth that when I was with him, I felt safe and at ease. He made me feel special in his own way.

But then again, who am I kidding? Artan is the kind of man who will do everything just to get his way just like Nikolai. He was about to announce to the whole world that we were getting married, he even had a picture of us along with that article. It's unbelievable. I guess Mafia Bosses are hardwired to be like that.

I heard my tummy growl in hunger. It's almost dinner time and I havent had a decent meal since last night. My poor baby Volkov might be hungry as well. I know he or she is probably just a tiny clot of blood inside my womb but this living thing needs momma's food to grow.

I tiptoed my way outside and made sure that there's no one in the hallway. I ran to Nikolai's room first to change my clothes. Everything around seems to be in their exact places when I left except for the bouquets of flowers around the room. On the side of the king size bed there's this really huge bunch of red daisies and baby's breath wrapped with white silk ribbon with a note attached to it. To my wife,

You can have our room. I will sleep at the guest bedroom tonight until you have forgiven me. From here on, I will teach myself not to touch you, kiss you and make love to you unless you summon me to do so. I will take care of you and our baby the best way I know.

I love you.

-Nikolai

I swallow the lump in my throat and force myself not to tear up again. One moment he's like the devil himself the next second he turns into a sweet Romeo. This is like an emotional torture I could never escape from. I put aside the bouquet in the vase right next to the existing flowers. As much as I hate Nikolai, these daisies are too beautiful to throw away.

I went inside Nikolai's walk in closet because apparently, he had my stuffs moved to his closet without my permission. Obviously, not the first time he decided for my life without my consent.

I took a pair of white long sleeve shirt and skinny jeans from my side of the closet. I freshened up and let my now shoulder length wavy hair down. I wanna make sure that I look nothing like a hungry, depressed and unemployed pregnant housewife that I really am.

I went straight downstairs to the kitchen and found Matushka and Yuri drinking something while the Chef from Dile and another woman are busy cooking.

Matushka immediately scooped a deliciously smelling soup from one of the transparent glass bowls on top of the stove and placed something in a small bowl in front of me. She then sliced the french bread and placed a white garlic cream on top. Oh my god, everything looked mouth watering. I sat down and instantly digged in.

"Thanks Matushka."

Matushka hugged me tight and kissed my head. She went back to her seat and just stares at me. If I werent so hungry, I would get concsious and bolt out because the people around me are acting all weird. But at this point this pregnant bitch is too hungry to care.

"One more please!" I pushed the empty bowl towards Matushka. The evil queen's smile grew even wider as she places more soup inside my bowl.

I finished with my second bowl when a familiar scent and electrifying charm entered the kitchen. Another kiss landed on top of my head courtesy of Alexei. He sat beside me and pulled me towards him. A small burp escaped my mouth when he squeezed me. My face tickled pink in an instant.

"That was the sexiest burp I have ever heard in my life." Alexei said with a teasing voice.

I instantly smack him on his chest it made him soft chuckle. He wrapped his arms around me while my side is on his chest. I breathed in his sexy scent and in an instant, tingles run through my body like shooting stars. The kind of tingles that harden my shameless nipples like frozen berries. Gosh, am I horny or what? Hormones, calm down will ya?

"I was worried about you. You had us all worried." He said while speaking at the back of my ear just on top of my neck.

"You can stop worrying now Alexei. I'm okay." I responded.

Nikolai entered the kitchen and it's obvious that he did not expect to see me. He halted and slowly walked towards my direction.

The hatred inside my heart started to boil just by seeing him.

"Bring me to your bed Alexei. I'm sleepy." I demanded. I wrapped my arms around him to force him to carry me. "Now please?"

Alexei looked at Nikolai as if waiting for his brother's permission. I instantly pushed him and removed myself from him to stand up but he grabbed me back to his body. "Okay.. okay.. come on." He said all defeated.

While on his bed, I'm hugging one of his pillows while looking at him prepare to go to an important meeting. He's already buttoning his shirt while looking himself in the mirror. Oh gosh, Alexei, why you so hot? God! What is happening to me? When was the last time you had sex Belle?

Moments later the door clicked and Nikolai got inside. He's also preparing just like Alexei. He looked at me with those ridiculously gorgeous green eyes I first fell in love with. I instantly looked away. I then focused my attention to Alexei and completely ignored him as if he's not in the room.

He stood beside Alexei in front of the mirror while adjusting his cufflink.

"Alexei come here, let me do it." I gestured him to stand next to me in bed so I can put on his tie.

He obliged and handed me his dark blue pin stripes tie. I wrapped it around his collar slowly. His sexy scent instantly filled my lungs. And then electric current started to tingle inside my abdomen. I swear to the heavens that if Alexei asks me to get down on my knees and eat him at this exact moment, I will do so in a heartbeat.

I then shamelessy looked up to him hoping that he will kiss me on my lips, but to my dismay he didnt. It's like he had an internal battle and thought of it for a second but eventually decided not to do it. Or maybe he's just not into kissing me at this time. Whatever it is, I looked down in embarassment. So much for having sex with him.

Alexei lets go of me and went back in front of the mirror. I didnt even notice that Nikolai is already a step away from me. He's holding in his hand his dark blue tie. I don't exactly know if he's just holding it or handing it to me, either way I instantly turn my back on him.

Nikolai just stood there for a few seconds. From the corner of my eye I saw that this arms fell to his side. He sat on the corner of the bed while looking at me.

I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest. I stood up from Alexei's bed and slammed the door on my way out.

I hate what's happening to me right now! I feel like I'm drowning. I happen to be with the men who used to make me the happiest person in the world but now I feel suffocated.

I can't even stand being in a room with Nikolai. And now Alexei is doing his best not to make physical contact with me.

Tears pour down my eyes as I walk upstairs to Nikolai's room. I shut the door and sat on the floor. I curled my knees to my stomach and hugged my legs towards my body. I sobbed until what's left of me is nothing but my exhausted heart and body.