Her Volkovs #Book 1

Belle's POV

As I slowly near the black iron railing of the balcony, I see several people already enjoying the party, there are many women in long gowns but majority in the room are men. There are chairs and tables for guests scattered around the ballroom. And right below the grand chandelier are elegant sofa's surrounding a rectangular center table where drinks and food are placed. The people sitting in that particular table are what looks like the important people since they are surrounded by men standing and just observing, including Yuri and Boris. Most of the men in the table look familiar from Nikolai's birthday party in the beach.

My eyes then quickly noticed someone all too familiar. Oh god. It's Nikolai, the Nikolai who broke my heart but still protected me without even me knowing. My Nikolai. My first love, my first kiss and my first heartbreak. He looks like a god wearing a tuxedo.

There are two women sitting beside him. I feel like my heart is being crushed into pieces. The women are holding him while whispering on his ears and laughing. Nikolai is actually interacting with them. But his eyes are now dark and devoid of warmth. I cannot see my Nikolai in those eyes. Beside him is Alexei, he's talking to another guy from that table.

Why am I even doing this to myself? I feel like my heart is beating a million times. You are here because you chose Nikolai. You are here because you chose to accept him, all of him, monster and all. You love him and you are fighting for him.

I swallowed my pride and erased all my doubts. I decided to slowly walk down the grand staircase leading to the ballroom. I feel like every step I make, a lump in my throat forms and slowly suffocates me. I car actually feel my hands are shaking. O god please help me. I then took a halt right in the middle of the grand staircase.

I pray that Alexei will finally notice me to save me from whatever hell I am in right now. Alexei please, I am here.

A few seconds later I see Alexei talking on the phone, he then glanced at the grand staircase direction. Uhh finally, he saw me. I also noticed Yuri and Boris glanced at my direction, they looked surprised when they saw me. Yuri then whispered something to Nikolai. I quickly remove my eyes from them and looked for Alexei. I could not stand looking at Nikolai like this.

Alexei is now standing at the bottom of the stairs waiting for me. He is wearing a grey tuxedo and looks so hot and gentlemanly. He has a wicked smile plastered on his face as he awaits for mw. I feel like all eyes are suddenly staring at my direction.

I swear I could hear my heart beat an abnormal pace at this point. What have I put myself into?

As I slowly approach Alexei, he offered me his hand. To my surprise, he planted a kiss on the back of my hand, pulled me close to him and whispered to my ear.

"You look exactly what I imagined you would look like in this dress."

I just smiled at him coyly. "I'm nervous Alexei."

"I got you, don't worry."

"Happy Birthday, I wasn't able to get you something. I'm sorry."

"Your mere presence is too much of a gift already my princess."

Oh Alexei.

"What now?"

"What now is we dance."

He grabbed my hand and brought me to the center of the ballroom. The people who were on the dance floor suddenly walked away. It's now only Alexei and me. "Relax, I got you."

Alexei guided my hands to his shoulders. He then places his hands on the small of my back.

"You look perfect tonight."

"Uhh thank you?" I said shyly.

Alexei pulls something from his pocket. He took my right hand and wraps a gold bracelet with small diamonds hanging and a red daisy ruby pendant on it. This is so beautiful.

"I have been meaning to give this to you my princess."

"Alexei, but it's your birthday, I should be the one giving you...." Alexei did not even let me finish and planted a long sweet kiss on my lips. Oh god, what is happening? I feel like my whole body heated up. I know that I'm slowly turning crimson.

"Damn my brother was right. Youre lips are amazing."

I smack him on his shoulder in response.

"Alexei, you are really making this hard for me."

"Oh you have no idea how HARD it is now." He retorted.

I smack him again on his shoulder.

"Just trust me on this princess."

"What's your plan Alexei?"

"To finally kiss you."

I swear this man is really something.

"Alexei, I'm not exactly enjoying this little show of yours so a little heads up would be nice."

"Ow, did you just say you did not enjoy the kiss?"

Dammit Alexei...

"I am not enjoying the show but I liked the kiss." Oh god did I just say that to him?

I see that Alexei had a satisfied look on his face. Shit, what is actually happening right now?

"What I mean is..." I tried to justify what I said but the moment I opened my mouth to speak, Alexei landed another kiss on my lips. This time, its more passionate and a little over five seconds. At this point I know that I'm already crimson.

I tried to catch my breath as I remove my lips from his. My lips are still slightly parted while I'm looking at Alexei's eyes.

"You are perfect." Said Alexei while pulling me tighter to him. Instead of getting mad at him, I found myself smiling because my red lipstick has stained on and around his lips.

I removed the stain with my right thumb while Alexei's arms are still wrapped around me. He smiled as I run my thumb on his lips. "The lipstick suits you." I said teasingly.

"Yah?"

"Uhuh."

"Can I have more?"

I landed my palm on his face and pushed it backwards it made Alexei soft chuckle. For a second there, I forgot that we are actually surrounded by a lot of people not to mention the intended person, Nikolai Vyacheslav Volkov, who are now feasting their eyes on us.

"Alexei..."

He sported a wicked smile. "Are you ready?"

"Ready for what?"

"The grand finale."

Alexei then held my hand and walked towards the grand staircase. I did not have the courage to look at Nikolai's direction. I just could not do it. I can see from the corner of my eye that as we walk past some people, their eyes are glued to Alexei and I.

Alexei helped me as I kind of struggle to walk because of my high heels and my dress. We went straight inside a room a few doors from the ballroom balcony. We stood face to face right next to the bed. "What are we doing Alexei?"

"Do you trust me princess?" Alexei looks me in the eyes while cupping my face.

"Yes Alexei I trust you."

Alexei removed his tuxedo, leaving his vest and shirt on. He then places his hands around my neck and at my nape, slowly unbuttoning first the top button of the back of my dress. "Any moment now."

What is this man talking about?

All of a sudden I hear a loud bang on the door. Oh my god! It's Nikolai and he looks outrageously mad.

I look back at Alexei, but he only gives me a smile. This is his plan all along. Oh my god. My hands are already shaking. What's going to happen now?

Alexei lets go of me and went near the windows. I just stood still because I can't seem to move my legs.

I parted my lips in horror when Nikolai quickly paced towards Alexei and punched him on his face. Oh my god.

"No! Nikolai!" I tried to run towards their direction but someone held my hand and stopped me. It's Yuri.

"Madamme, they need to do this." This is the first time that Yuri has actually talked to me. What does he mean that Alexei and Nikolai need this?

"You have to let them do this. There's no other way."

Alexei is now on the floor wiping blood from his mouth. Nikolai made a few steps towards Alexei and grabs him by his collar. Nikolai spoke angrily to Alexei in Russian. I could not understand a single word but Nikolai looks like he could kill Alexei. Nikolai is full of rage and I know that there's no stopping him now.

Yuri is still holding my arm and not letting go of me. My heart jumped from my chest when all of a sudden, Alexei throws a punch to his brother's face it made Nikolai sit on the floor.

"Stop! Please, Nikolai! Alexei!"

I feel like my eyes are being pinched by tiny needles. My tears are now threatening to fall. Boris and Alexei's men are also in the room but they are just standing, their backs facing us. Nikolai stood up, grabs Alexei and throws him to the wall. He then punched Alexei on his stomach. It's obvious that Alexei was in pain.

Alexei pushes Nikolai to the floor and punched him again in his face but Nikolai was able to quickly recover. Nikolai stood up and about to punch Alexei again on his face. I felt Yuri's grip loosened so I ran away from him and squeezed myself in the middle of the two.

"Nikolai stop! Please! You want me out of your life? Fine! I'm going to leave! You are never gonna hear from me ever again! I am giving up! I now understand and accept that we are over. But you should know that Alexei did all of these for you!"

Nikolai's eyes are still full of rage. Yuri and Boris helped Alexei out of the room. I tried to follow them but Nikolai grabbed my arm and throws me to the bed harshly.

"Tell me to stop, and I will stop." Nikolai said while looking me in the eyes. A gasp escaped my mouth when suddenly, he yanks my gown until it rips apart exposing my thigh. I suddenly felt so bare and vulnerable. I bent my knees and turned to my side.

My eyes widened when all of a sudden I heard the clinking of Nikolai's belt and the unzipping of his pants. He then pulled me close to him and made me face him. He is now on top of me as he spreads my legs and pulled my panties down.

"Baby, tell me to stop." Nikolai said, his voice is hoarse, he seems to be struggling to look me in the eyes directly.

I did not stop Nikolai. I want him and I don't care if I regret this in end. I want him to take me. I just begged him one thing.

"Nikolai, look me in the eyes. I want you to look me in the eyes."

Nikolai tried to look me in my eyes but he quickly looked away. He is now looking directly to the bed on the side of my head.

My lips parted when all of a sudden, Nikolai inserted his cock inside my femme. I gasped for air in pain of my very first. I feel like a knife has cut through me.

My tears are now starting to flow. I could not see Nikolai's eyes. I feel so alone even if there are two of us in this room. I feel like I'm all by myself.

Nikolai grunts as he continue to push inside me, so deep and hard. "Kiss me Nikolai, look me in the eyes and kiss me please."

It's as if Nikolai did not hear a single word I said. His body is pressing into mine so roughly as he pounds my femme. I feel like I am being broken into pieces. Nikolai and I are not making love. This is not making love.

And then, all of a sudden, he removed himself from me and left me lying in bed. I just heard the sound of the door opening and he's gone.

At this point I feel like my world crumbled down. The tiny piece of hope I was holding on to has now vanished. Nikolai crushed my soul.