Chapter Seventeen
I tilted my canvas to the left as I tried to get my paint brush at the perfect angle for my now fully developed yellow flower.
Anytime I needed to think, relax or just be at peace, I just grabbed my supplies and make art. A bird chirped beside me as the cool evening breeze from the meadow whipped my hair all over in messy curls. I frowned as I ran my hand through it, seeing it as yet another reminder that Niall wasn't here.
Since we've lived together, he had always combed my hair for me, simply because I could never tame the coily waves myself. However, since I had to go to bed alone last night, I didn't get my usual braids or twists, courtesy of my lovely mate.
But he didn't come home, and he still haven't.
Sighing deeply, I tried to remember what Asia had said about him being able to take care of himself, which was further backed by his mom later that night at dinner. That didn't mean that I didn't miss him though, and I couldn't hide the hurt I felt knowing that he just left me without telling me anything.
I'm his mate. He knew damn well that I'd be worried sick and missing him. Whatever he had to do so urgently better be important.
I sighed, feeling defeated as I made the final stroke on my painting of the meadow. It was beautifully painted--maybe one of my best, but it didn't give me the same satisfaction I normally felt whenever I finish a painting. I knew that it was because of the immense frustration I was feeling, but I didn't even try and hide it.
This morning when I woke up, I laid in our bed, hugging his pillow for two hours straight. I then went down for breakfast, which I had no appetite for, so I grabbed my supplies and came here. So far I've painted a single green tree standing in the midst of a gray background, a bird, and finally the whole meadow.
Niall's room cant hold anymore of my paintings, so I concluded on just gifting them to his parents or leaving them in storage.
I leaned against my tree with my legs pulled to my chest, and my chin on top of my knees as I gazed into nothingness. I tried not to think about him too much, but I ensured to keep my link wide open so that if he just happens to step within linking range, I'd know immediately.
I let my thoughts drift as I allowed my eyes to flutter closed. I pushed my wolf forward in my head in order to connect to nature more, just to appreciate the brush of the wind, the quiet hums of animals and the melancholy sound of the stream flowing. Luka always helped me with this technique growing up even without my wolf. He always said that once my wolf comes alive, I'd connect better.
And he was right.
Within seconds I was one with my surroundings, just appreciating everything about the moment. Though my frustration was still on edge, it was now bathed in tranquility as I let myself go. I slowly filled my lungs with air momentarily, before letting it out again. I made a mental note to thank Luka for this as I felt myself drifting away. It wouldn't be the first time I fell asleep here, and no one else knows about the place so I was safe.
However, as if the universe couldn't give me a break, I suddenly got alert when I sensed a foreign presence near. I perked my ears and focused on the scent that was distant but strong nonetheless. I straightened my back as my eyes shifted to my wolf's amber ones, a sign that she has taken control. A growl rumbled from my chest as I looked through my wolf eyes around the area, just waiting for my intruder to appear.
I knew the smarter thing to do was run back for help, but there was a strong primitive instinct in me that glued me to my spot in order to protect the pack. And though I haven't had much fighting practice in wolf form, Luka and Beta Caleb ensured that I learnt how to fight. So if it should come to that, I'd be ready.
However, the closer the intruder got, the more familiar the scent became until I realized that my wolf stepped back completely, leaving me defenseless as she relaxed. I mini panicked, forcing her to get back up, confused at her behaviour.
I knew she was hurt about mate leaving but isn't dying just a tad extreme? But in time I noticed that she wasn't sad or lonely, she was just calm.
Our wolfs act mainly on instincts. It's what kept us alive all these years. So I trusted mine and let my guard down just to try and focus on the scent. But as the wolf got closer, I realized why the scent was so familiar. My eyes scanned the trees as I waited for her appearance, and I couldn't help but wonder how she managed to find me all the way out here.
If she was dangerous, I'd be in real danger. The first time I saw her was at Victoria's house back in Brightwater Pack territory. Now I'm miles upon miles away and yet she managed to find me. She obviously has something worthwhile to tell me, since it seemed like she has been tracking me a while. The last time she was ushered away by Niall, but now I'll know for sure what she wants.
I got up on my feet as I saw a shadow in the trees on the other side of the clearing. If my wolf wasn't so calm around her, I would've been really freaked out about how mysterious she looked just standing there. It almost gave me a creepy stalker vibe.
"You've come all this way to find me. What is it that you want?" I shouted just loud enough where I knew her wolf hearing would pick up.
Instead of answering, she emerged more from the trees as she came closer to me. I kept my wolf on edge just enough for if I will need to shift quickly. Even though she didn't seem like a threat, I still couldn't avoid the fact that she's a complete stranger. It's only smart to stay on edge.
The closer she came, the better look I got at her face. She looked more at ease than the last time I saw her, which made me feel slightly better knowing whatever she had to tell me wasn't bad.
She was also very pretty. She had a latino complexion and dark waist length hair. Her eyes were big and bright, and her lips held a small friendly simper. She had a scar running from her lower left eye to her left ear, but it just gave her a tough but surprisingly sexy look.
As she came closer, I saw that calling her a 'girl' would be slightly inappropriate, since she looked around the age of Victoria and Luka. It was for sure that she was a rogue, but her clothes were bright and clean, a sign that she wasn't the nomadic type of rogue.
"I'm sorry our last meeting didn't go so well. What I need to say wouldn't sit well with your mate" She said once she was a few feet away from me. My eyebrows scrunched in confusion as I felt my stomach fall.
If whatever she had to tell me wouldn't sit well with Niall, then it wouldn't sit well with me either. The mere fact that she even knew who I was unsettled me.
"Who are you? How do you know who I am?" I asked, just to get my mind clear enough.
She smiled gently as she moved to sit in front of me with her legs crossed over each other. I mimicked her pose as I readied myself to hear what she had to say. It was so odd that even though I was still on alert, I felt so comfortable around her.
"I know you because I knew your father" She stated, and I was up on my feet before I could even blink.
"I knew it!" I knew her scent was too familiar to his for it to be a coincidence. It just puzzled me how she's just finding me and why.
"Hey relax. I'll tell you everything" She gestured for me to sit back down, which I slowly did. My excitement and anxiety was eating away at my mind. She offered me an encouraging smile while I relaxed into the soft grass.
"I was born of the Gamma family of The Roseum Pack, deep in the forests of the Amazon. I was stolen by rogues from by family at age six, brought to the US to be exploited for my blood. You see, Zoey, we are very special wolves, but at such a young age, I never understood." She met my eyes with a encouraging smile as she fiddled with her hands before continuing.
I was more than already invested in her story even though there wasn't much connection to us as yet.
"Your father, Reagan, found me and rescued me from their evil hands before they could even imagine doing their dirty deeds with me. He knew I was like him from the moment he caught my scent. But since I was a child without a wolf, he didn't know for sure. I was old enough to tell him where I was from, but I had no knowledge of English back then. So, he took me in and raised me as his own....By the time I was proficient in English, I had already grown close to him and refused to go back home, since being the daughter of the Gamma family never granted me as much affection as Reagan gave me." She looked up to meet my eyes with sorrowful ones.
"I'm sorry you didn't get to be raised by him. I knew he loved you very much"
"Thank you. I can only imagine" I mumbled, feeling a rush of sadness sprinkled with an ounce of jealously for this woman. I had no ill feeling towards her though. I knew she was sincere.
"I lived as a rogue with him, and on many occasions I almost got him killed when he had to fight to protect me. Sometimes when we were settled at a temporary home, he would tell me stories about himself, but he was never straight forward with anything. Eventually, I put it all together and figured out my own theory about his background, but up till this day, I am yet to learn everything" Her expression changed from one of thought to one of moderate excitement.
"But when I turned 18 and initiated my first shift, I understood completely. Once I caught his scent and realized how different it was from other rogues, I was able to understand why he fought for me, why he saved me and why he raised me. Because we are bound by blood"
My eyes widened in shock as the words stumbled from her lips. I mean, it would make sense why their scents were familiar, but it still had a lot of loop holes.
"Wait are you saying we're related?" I questioned as I rubbed my temples in frustration.
"Not exactly, but there's an ancient story that will explain it all. I wish I could tell you, but I'm yet to learn it all on my own. "
"So why didn't you go home and find out why?" I asked as my head soared with questions. "And did you say your first shift was on your 18th birthday?"
She chuckled lightly as she held my hand in her small ones, but ignored my questions completely to continue her story.
"Reagan wasn't surprised when I didn't shift on my 16th birthday but he didn't tell me why. It was then that I knew that he knew where I was from all along. Maybe it was my driving desire to stay with him, or the father-daughter relationship that we had that made him adhere to my request to stay. But ultimately I knew that he would try and send me back eventually. He always talked about how dangerous the rogue life was"
"That's what he said in the letter" I muttered mostly to myself.
"And he did. Once I turned 18 and shifted for the first time, he wouldn't stop preaching about how much easier I'd be to be tracked now that my wolf was awake in me. He tried to convince be that I'd be safer at home, but after twelve years as a rogue, I didn't know to be anything else. I didn't even like my home. Things were always so...hard" She looked away from my intense gaze, and I could see her discomfort. I didn't urge her to explain, since it looked like a touchy subject.
"However, like any father would do, he didn't stop trying to get me home. So we had a falling out and I ran away. I'm sure he looked for me, but he must've known that I learnt his strategies of staying hidden and unnoticed. " Her eyes looked sad as she played with my fingers with hers, but a small smiled formed on her lips as she continued.
"But then I realized that he stopped searching, and I tried not to be disappointed even though I didn't know why." She met my eyes once again with nothing but admiration. "Then a companion we had up north informed me that Reagan bore a child--a daughter. I couldn't be more happy for him, but I also knew you'd be his main focus now. I knew he'd try and get you in a pack, and I'm terribly sorry about the price he had to pay to do that"
Her face fell, and I could see that she missed him probably even more than I did. She knew him for twelve years after all, and I only knew him for three. It was my time to squeeze her hand in comfort, encouraging her to continue.
"I kept an eye on you, but I never intervened because we both were safer that way. I don't know why I chose until now to approach you, but I just came with one goal" She said with a thoughtful expression.
"And what's that?" I asked, still not knowing her motive for seeking me out just now.
"Whatever you're looking for, you wont find it here. You must go to the Emerald Pack in England. There you will learn all you need to"
"But I've been to the Emerald Pack countless times as a child."I pointed out, even more confused than before.
"You have, but you weren't seeking answers then. I know that you don't know me, and you have every right to be skeptical. I'm a rogue who claimed to know your dad. But from the little he told me growing up and what I concluded on my own, I know your answer is there" She smiled encouragingly and I tried really hard to believe her.
"Why Emerald Pack?" My heart raced as I thought about it all.
I feared what she would say next, because deep down I knew that answer. I've always felt drawn to Emerald Pack more than home, and Victoria always assumed that it was because of the freedom I was granted whenever I visited Emma. Yet I knew it was deeper than that.
"Because, my dearest baby sister, your father was from Emerald Pack"
And that was it. The answer I was afraid of.
If my dad was from Emerald Pack, then that meant that was where my blood lies. I gasped in realization when I affirmed that I could be relatives of the Beta family there. I always noticed that we oddly resembled each other, especially Jodi, Beta Alex's smaller sister and my only other best friend.
Could it be?
"I-I don't know what to think" I mumbled as my eyes watered. I couldn't register what I was hearing, and the look on her face told me that that was just the least.
"You must go. But I cant be too sure if your mate will be happy with what you learn" My heart stopped as I whipped my head towards her.
"Why wouldn't he be happy with it?"
"As I said Zoey, we are bound by a blood tie that goes way back. Though we aren't related, we are very similar. When you learn everything, you'll have a grand decision to make. If you're anything like your father, you'll make the decision that will be against your mate's wishes" she said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"If you're suggesting that I will leave my mate then you are wrong!" I shouted in anger as I jumped to my feet. She followed my movement with a regretful look on her face.
"I'm just saying, Zoey, it's a lot. I'm trying to prepare your mind for what you'll learn"
"Why cant you just tell me?" I threw my hands in the air as frustrated tears stung my eyes. "What kinda blood tie do we have? Why did we both shift at 18? Why are you and my dad's scent different from other rogues? What is all this huh? I didn't sign up for this!"
The frustration of not having Niall with me plus learning all this brought me to tears. I hated that she wouldn't just tell me.
"If I tell you, then you wont get the same fulfilling feeling that you'd get if you learn it on your own. And as I said, I don't know the full story. Reagan kept his stories about himself to a minimum, and what I learnt on my own are just fragments of the truth. But you, my dear little sister, can know it all. It will be a lot, and you'll have some serious decisions to make, but you'll do the right thing. We both know you will" She looked up to the sky as she uttered the last part, and I couldn't help but wonder if this is what he wanted for me.
From his letter, I knew his intention wasn't to die, but he knew it was a possibility. He wanted to keep me safe from the truth maybe for my own peace of mind. But oh how I wished he would've said more in that letter, or at least tell my mom more. My mom said he loved her, but he kept stories about his life before a rogue to a minimum. Something he obviously wished to kept hidden.
But how will I have peace of mind if I don't know more? Especially now that I've learnt that I may be Beta blood, and not just any Beta blood, but relatives of the Beta family in England. I just had to know everything. Once and for all.
"Go, learn the truth and do what needs to be done. If by then you still haven't learnt everything, I promise to tell you everything I know."
She took out a small tube vile with red liquid from her pocket and placed it in my hand. I eyed it weirdly, silently asking what's it for.
"Drink it" She simply instructed, causing me to gag at the very thought.
"Is this your blood?" I scrunched my face in disgust at just the thought of drinking her blood. She rolled her eyes in amusement at my question before grabbing my wrist and rolled up my sleeves.
She silently asked me with her eyes to bite me as her canines emerged. With a gulp, I nodded slowly as she sank her teeth in my hand.
I stubbornly shoved my hand out, requesting hers as I did the same with her hand. If she could drink my fresh blood, I deserved that too. Almost immediately, I felt a new link forming in my mind. My eyes widened as the feeling took over my body greater than I anticipated. It was like I knew her all my life.
"My name is Clarissa by the way. You can link me anytime anywhere no matter how far. This only works for wolves like us though, so don't go around biting people now" She attempted to joke, but I was still in too much shock to register. "And remember what I said. You need to go to England"
And just like that she turned on her heels to leave me just standing there in my own thoughts. She was already across the clearing when the one question I've been asking myself since this conversation started rushed to the front of my mind.
"What are we?!" I shouted desperately as the urge to know what kind of wolves we are swamped my emotions. She turned to face me with a sly but proud smirk on her face.
"It's not what are we Zoey. It's who are we" And just like that, she was gone.
I stumbled back as I fell to my bottom on the grass, as I stared aimlessly into the forest. I knew what I had to do, but I wasn't too sure if I was prepared for what I'll learn.
However, what I definitely wasn't prepared for, was the sudden surge of panic I felt rushing through my mate bond with Niall. My chest rose and fell as his panic ran through mine like a flood.
"Niall!" I screamed as my heart raced in fear for him.
At first I believed that my links were messing with me, since I just initiated a new bond. But there was no doubt about it that it was my mate. Unlike every other link, my matebond link didn't only exist in my wolf's mind, but in my human heart too. I could feel that he was in a state of constant panic, and that could only mean one thing.
My mate was in trouble.