Her Freezing Heart

The Christmas break is starting tomorrow and Aaron and I are going home to meet our families. First I am going to Greycoast and from there I am going to Easterden with Alec. Steven and Austin are coming with us. Steven just won't leave my side. Yup! We are dating and it's quite serious. I know it's been merely like two months of us being together but it feels perfect. He is very much set on marking me but I am not ready yet and he understands that.

The pack on the other hand is in turmoil. The vampire siting's have increased drastically. They are seen near the cabin more and more these days. Leo was so worried that he asked the Knights for help. I was shocked at first when Ryder told me this but he said if I trust them then he trusts them too and so does the pack. The Knights help them with the patrol and stuff. They were unable to catch the intruders though. Ryder is on edge as well.

Xander still can't leave the clearing. He has grown since the last time I saw him but he is still a pup. Our mind link has become quite strong since the incident. I can talk to them all the way from here. Not only him but the others too. It feels good to be connected to the pack. It hurts too to see them on edge and in constant threat. All in all, it is not a good time to visit Greycoast. It's one of my home though and a couple vampires can't drive me away from there.

On the positive note, I have gained a few... qualities. My senses have enhanced. I am faster and stronger than before. I even trained with Austin and Steven and they were impressed to say the least. I was already good at fighting as papa had trained me before. Now with the extra bonuses, I must say I have become quite efficient in it.

I have also progressed in using sprit powers. I am no longer fainting after healing. I healed Austin a month ago and I didn't even break a sweat. I have also progressed to moving small things with it. Cassidy said I might be able to manipulate my surrounding if I practice hard enough. I haven't shifted yet but looking at my progress, I will be able to do that soon.

Our bags are already packed and we are ready to go tomorrow. I just hope everything goes fine. I am a little worried about seeing Asher again. Not because he is my mate. I have no feelings whatsoever for him. Not even anger. I am worried that he will create a scene again. I am not ready for another drama. I have already informed Leo about Steven and Austin. He seemed just fine about it when I told him about me dating Steven and so were the others.

I am more worried about the intruding vampires. They have become quite rowdy from past two to three weeks. There last visit was last week and that has quite shaken the pack. Even the Knights looked worried. They won't tell me what happened though but Leo has strictly instructed us to not to go to the forest and so did Ryder. We are to go straight to where the houses of the pack are that is near the Greycoast beach. Ryder said he will meet me there.

I was startled at first when two cold hands wrapped around me but relaxed immediately. The moon looked so pretty in the sky.

"What are you thinking love?" Steven asked, his lips too close to my ears making me shiver.

"Just the things going on back home." I said to him sighing.

All this thinking is making me exhausted.

"Shouldn't I be the one worried?" He asked amused.

"You have nothing to worry about. I will right beside you. I will thump anyone who tried to hurt you." I joked.

"That I know love. I am just worried if your pack will accept me or not. Its your pack and it is important for me to gain their trust. I want to be a part of your life after all. I have to talk to Mr. and Mrs. Cross as well." He replied circling his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my shoulder.

I didn't knew he was this worried about being accepted by my people.

"They wouldn't have let you in the pack lands if they didn't trust you Steven." I reassured him.

"Allowing me into the pack lands and trusting me to be your other half, are two different things."

I can tell his nerves were getting the best of him. He is quite firm on being with me from the very beginning. We never engaged in the... more exciting bodily activities after that night. We are quite close and touchy with each other but I am just not ready yet and he understands that. I am really happy for having Steven in my life. I want to move our relationship forward but there is this fear in my heart that I can't explain. Maybe I will give in soon. He is very hard to resist.

"You will be fine. They might threaten you and narrate to you different ways to torture and murder you but they won't actually do that till you hurt me which I am sure you won't." I said to him turning in his arms and looking him in the eye.

He gulped. I laughed at him making him pout. I pulled his head down and took his pouted in mine. He lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his torso while he pushed me against the wall, kissing ferociously. I can feel the butterflies going on a rampage in my stomach. He always makes me feel that way. In some way I feel like I belong here, in his arms.

He sucked on my bottom lip making me moan. He took the chance and slipped his tongue in my mouth. His hands grazed my skin under my shirt. Wherever his fingertips touched my skin, I felt my skin burning with desire. I want him so bad. I want to feel his skin against me. I want to feel him inside me. I felt his hardness against my core making me moan against his mouth. We should stop before this goes too far.

His lips left mine and started trailing kisses down my jaw, to my neck. He stopped where the mate mark should be and sucked hard. A strangled moan left my mouth. I tugged at his hair making him groan. That felt so right. His lips were doing their magic on me. I am glad the mark Asher gave me disappeared right after it was burned out of me that night.

That one fateful night has given me so much. I felt his fangs graze my neck. I stiffened. I was torn between letting him mark me or to stop him. I know he wants to mark me. He had asked me about it so many times but I tired to distract him from the topic all the time. He pulled away abruptly and rested his forehead on mine, breathing heavily.

"I won't mark you against your will love. I will wait as long as you want. I love you. I can't imagine my life without you. I am surely not going to ruin anything because I am so impatient. I love you so much to even imagine losing you. Take your time love. I will be right beside you." He told me smiling at me fondly.

My heart swelled at his words. I never returned his 'I love you's. I was too sacred to admit it. I still am. Do I want this? Am I ready for this? I trust him and I am starting to fall for him too. He had already confessed to me about his feelings and I feel the same. Yeah! I am ready.

"I love you too." I told him smiling at him fondly.

He looked shocked at first but his expressions quickly changed to love and happiness. Looking at him, I knew I am making the right decision.

"Mark me Steven."

His eyes widened in surprise. He cupped my face with his palms and kissed my lips hungrily but he quickly pulled away. When he looked at me again, he had unshed tears in his eyes. Does he not want to mark me? Did I do something wrong?

"Are you alright Steven? Did I say something wrong?" I asked panicking.☐☐☐