Frozen Fire(Mxm)[UNEDITED]

Ragnor POV

I gripped tightly onto his shoulders as he drove his manhood into me, with each thrust that he made, he touched something inside of me that had me feeling so much pleasure, I could cry.

I felt that same kind of knot form in my stomach as earlier and threw my head back as the waves of ecstasy hit me over and over again.

I felt him bite down on my neck , bringing me to my limit as I shot out that same substance.Shortly after, I felt something warm fill me, as he stopped thrusting.

I slumped against his chest out of exhaustion. My entire body still trembled from his touch. And in the good way.

I've never felt anything like this before. The pleasure, the pain.. it consumed me and took over me. It felt so amazing and indescribable to be held by him. It was everything I imagined... and more.

For the first time in my life I felt like I belonged somewhere. Like I meant something to someone.

I felt him run his fingers down my spin as I panted against his chest and felt him slowly pull out of me.

"Thank you " I said out of breathe

"Your welcome " he said

"Was that your first time?" I asked him, not really wanting to know the answer out of fear that it wasn't,but at the same time, I couldn't help the curiosity that ate at me. I hated the idea of him holding someone else. Of being this close to someone else.

"It was" he said as he held my face with both his hands and pecked my lips pressing me against the rock so I wouldn't fall down.

It was a simple kiss, no where near the ones we engaged in a few minutes ago, yet it was so full of emotion and passion.

"Did you like it?" I asked looking away slightly. I couldn't bear to see it in his eyes, if he regretted what we did.

"I loved it" he said as he put me down slightly. The minute his strong hold on me loosened, my knees buckled and I almost fell over.

"You might not be walking for a day or so" he said as he chuckled and held me. I found myself liking his laugh, but then again, I liked everything about him.

Did I just say I liked him????

"How did you know what to do??? I thought you said you were a virgin?" I said as I raised my eyebrow at him.

"I said I was a virgin.. not stupid"

He helped me wash up and remove his fluids , which mind you was the most embarrassing thing I could endure.

I found myself enjoying his company. I opened up to him more than I have to anyone else and in turn he told me about his family, about his brothers and father.

That man really was a bastard.

I got to know that he had lived his whole life being exposed to nothing but hatred, which blinded him to the beauty of what life could be.

I was sure now, more than anything that I wanted to show him that. The beauty and joys of life. What life could be like when we shared it with someone else.

I wanted to be that person.. the person he relied on, the person he came to when he felt like the walls were caving in, the person he looked at like there was no one else... his equal..

his soulmate..

and for that...

I needed to be stronger..

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We travelled for almost a day...

I watched his back as my horse followed behind his. He was such a strong person physically as well mentally. Nothing deterred him from what he wanted.

I found myself having a certain desire to emulate him in everything. I wanted to be like him. He had been through so much and yet he still kept his head high.

Me on the other hand, I had always been weak.. And I hated it.

I hated how I always had to depend on someone, how I couldn't be left to wander and discover life since everyone was always worried that I'd get sick and die.

After some time I began thinking that dying wasn't so bad either. I had nothing here anyway. My parents loved me, but to a certain degree, I knew I was a disappointment to them.

When my mother was told that she was going to have a son, the entire kingdom rejoiced at the news. Everyone looked forward to the heir that would salvage and save the Ice people.

No one would say it to my face, but I knew what everyone thought. Which was partly the reason why majority of my childhood was spent inside the four walls of my room. Among my own people...

I felt like no one understood me. Like I didn't belong there.....I felt lonely..until now..

From the moment our eyes met for that brief second.. to the moment our bodies became one, I knew..

I knew that I could be me around him. My intuition constantly told me that he was different.. that he was someone special..

My heart fell every time I was around him. I felt a different connection with him than I have with anyone else. I felt like I've known him forever..I felt instant comfort with his touch, almost like it was magic.. like we were meant to be.

I only hoped that deep down he felt the same way... because I knew more than anything... that I could never feel this way about anyone else.

I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard his voice. I looked up at him confused, since I didn't hear anything he just said.

"You weren't listening were you?" He asked

"Sorry. I was thinking.. what did you say?"

"I said we should be reaching the borders in a day or two. We can rest if you're not feeling well, you must still be in pain" he said, causing my cheeks to turn a bright red as though someone had squeezed pomegranate seeds on them.

"I'm fine. We can continue " I said not making eye contact with him. I had to salvage what little dignity I had left since our last encounter.

I watched him come towards me, his horse stopping just against mine , as he leaned over.

"Are you sure?" He asked as he raised his hands caressing my cheek. I felt electricity hit every nerve of my body as his skin touched mine. He leaned in and placed his lips on mine softly.

I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I felt his tongue glide over my bottom lip, and this time I knew what he wanted, so I opened my mouth for him giving him unrestricted access as he slid his tongue inside making it slid over mine.

I felt my heartbeat quicken instantly as something began to harden. I couldn't get enough of him as I pulled him closer and deepening it.

I broke away when I felt like my heart was going to burst and panted.

"Does it hurt a lot?" He asked as he trailed his fingers down the bite that he made. It hadn't healed fully yet, given my illness, I naturally healed at a slower rate than the rest of my people.

"It doesn't.. I like it though " I said. He looked at incredulously as he tiled his head.

"Why so?" He asked.

"I don't know.. it makes me feel like I'm yours" I said. Once I heard what I said.. My eyes widened immediately..

What was I thinking??? What if he didn't feel the same thing I felt.. what if he was just curious ???

All these thoughts ran through my head as I panicked . I looked up at him and saw him just looking at me. I was so panicked that I couldn't even read his expression... but one thing was for sure.. one expression I could make out...

Shock...

He leaned in.. till his mouth was in line with my ear and whispered... making my heart stop immediately... everything around me suddenly became still. I couldn't hear anything else but the sound of his voice and what he said....

"Do you want to be mine?"