Chapter Forbidden 28
Drunk And Numb
Walking in my mum is sitting alone, I talk to her and find myself relaxing. I drink too much, but it helps to numb everything and helps. me forget about Joel and the question of what his sick game is this time.
I'm happy though, according to my mum Ivy is staying with friends tonight so Joel shouldn't be here. If I had known, I would have come by sooner. I watch the hours pass as I get too drunk. "Bed Harley, before your dad comes home and sees you a mess." Her words have me laughing, but I nod and I stand as I do the door opens. and I hear my dad laughing, he walks through to Jasper, and his eyes. widen.
"You're drunk!" He turns to my mum. "Dawn, really? I need to get to the club, Jasper help her upstairs before you go to bed please, otherwise, she is likely to sleep on the steps." My dad turns and walks out annoyed, and I giggle.
"He's stressed, the bike he was collecting tonight no one answered so wasted trip." Jasper smiles at my mum and helps me walk upstairs, getting in the bedroom he removes my clothes while shaking his head and tutting.
"Drinking only hides it for a short while baby girl." I don't reply, too tired to even figure out the words. Instead, I wrap my body around his and fall asleep knowing he is right, but tonight, I was relaxed, it was more me enjoying myself than hiding from everything. I think.
Waking I smile and feel his arms around me.
"Morning Daddy." His hand strokes down my back stopp
he squeezes it and I laugh.
you didn't think I was your daddy, so that leaves
"Now sugar, I know you didn't think I was y
me wondering, who else would you call that?"
I panic and open my eyes seeing Joel looking at me, I go to move and find myself tied down facing the mattress.
"Let me go!" I fight against the rope and it digs in.
"Oh hell, no sugar. Your mum and dad took Ivy out, Jasper is a little busy as I created an issue at the club. So you can scream and fight but no one will hear."
"Fuck you!" Screaming I pull feeling the rope burn.
"You see that's my plan sugar. You drank too much, that made this all too easy. You do remember that, right? When you drink past a certain point I can easily move you and tie you down and you don't even notice." I continue to fight against the rope.
"Just leave me alone! I'm not yours."
"Kiss me sugar, one kiss and I will go." He moves towards me, and I spit at him.
"Fuck you, I would rather eat shit than let you touch me." He grips my hair pulling my head up.
"I asked nice, now I will just take what I want." He moves forward kissing me. I open my mouth and bite against his lip, hearing him hiss. He moves back and hits me.
"Don't you fucking dare leave marks on me." I feel I'm going to have at
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black eye, I know it. How the hell do I explain that? I feel him move and kneel between my legs.
"Now, you answer honestly and I may just leave you alone. Who did you think I was?" His hands grip my ass and I wiggle trying to escape. "Answer me!" He shouts and pulls my hair.
"The fucking devil, I like to call him daddy when he visits. He reminds me how weak you are." If I can't fight back with my hands I sure will with my words. He grips my neck and chokes me, and I fight back the panic, instead, I laugh.
"Harder please, if less your aim is to tickle me?" I mock him and his hand tightens on my throat, I struggle to breathe and fight against him, he isn't stopping. I see him smile in the mirror at my panic, so I still. Fuck him and giving him pleasure.
I stay still, accepting that if I fight and panic he wins.
"Now the truth, who did you think I was?"
I roll my eyes and laugh.
"That was the truth, me and the devil have a deal, he visits every morning. Reminding me how bad you are in bed, it's laughable really." I scream as he thrusts into me and I try to break free.
"I know it's Jasper, and I can't wait to tell your daddy," I scream as he hits me, my body fighting against him. "You're mine, and I don't care what it takes, you're coming back with me. I have a little collection, sugar, slowly building up the perfect scene for your daddy, and the fireworks will be epic." I block out his words and force myself to a happy place, to black out his hands on me.
The tears roll down my cheeks as I see myself with Jasper, feeling safe,
and unwilling to come back to reality even after Joel has finished and unties me. I stay still, clinging onto the memory as I hear him warning me he always wins. My mind and body refuse to move, and I begin to make a plan.
He dies. Joel dies. Not by my dad, or Jasper, but by me. I will find a way to kill him, without anyone knowing beforehand why. I will find at way to trick him, and I will kill him. I accept that is the only way I can win.
"Baby girl." I stay still hearing Jasper, he moves sitting on the bed looking at me confused. "Why haven't you gotten up yet, it's nearly 8 pm baby girl, have you not eaten?" He looks at me worried, his hand moving my hair from my face."
I can't answer, I just know I need to end this, protect my dad and everyone, and I have to kill Joel.
"Baby girl you look numb, emotionless and it's scaring me, please." He pulls me up, and I see the fear in his eyes. I force my mind back to reality and smile at him. "Don't smile, not when you're hiding something!" He shouts and I flinch and he notices.
I need a story, something to stop him from asking questions. A lie, but if it works, before these two weeks are up, Joel will be dead by me, and no one will get hurt.
"If I tell you, you promise it ends here, you ask no more questions and tell no one." I look at him waiting and he nods. My mind thinks of a
story.
"About a year ago I was in a relationship with a guy, and things turned bad. That is why I cancelled coming back a year ago for my dad's birthday. I was covered in cuts and bruises and I knew it would cause trouble. That's why I don't feel comfortable around so many people,
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and why I don't sleep well."
"Who?" He looks at me and I can see he is ready to track down whoever it is.
"I said it doesn't matter, so don't ask."
He sighs and nods. "For now, I won't, you told me, which is far more than I expected baby girl, so hopefully you will give me real details in time. That though, doesn't explain now, today." He looks at me waiting.
"I have nightmares." I shrug and fight back the tears, "Noise doesn't help, so this morning having that nightmare and waking up hearing someone bang downstairs made me on edge. I swear, that is all." I cuddle into him.
"Baby girl, you have no idea how fucking hard this is for me. Every part of me is screaming to tell your dad, even if it means he finds out about us two. I won't though, as I can see you wouldn't tell him, so for now I will be happy that you at least spoke." He kisses me and hugs.
1. me.
"I'm meeting your dad soon baby girl, so go to my place. You know the code, I messaged you it. So, go to my place, enjoy the peace, leave your bike in my garage, and tell your dad some story, you're visiting friends, then you don't have to walk from the hotel." He kisses me and smiles. "Get to mine and rest." Turning he walks out, getting myself ready I walk out, going down I see my mum and Ivy, my eyes widening at her.
"What happened?" I don't know why I asked, I fucking know what happened.
"I fell." She looks at me full of hate, and I nod, I know better than to ask for the truth. Joel did it, I look at my mum, and she believed the
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story, of course she did. I need to make this end, even if it fails, I need to get him away from Ivy.
Saying goodbye I leave, getting to Jaspers I put the pin in and drive into the garage, covering my bike I walk in and look around. It's peaceful which is what I need. Walking to the kitchen I grab a bottle of water and drink it before climbing back into bed.
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