SWNOVELS Chapter Dornatill (3)
Lux
When we were done night had fallen again. I was fresh out of the shower and putting on my clothes. We didn’t really have to speak the words. Both of us knew we had caused each other too much pain. This was it.
‘Carina…’ he started. Still in bed. Naked. White sheet barely covering his lower body. One arm propped over his head, staring me down with his bedroom eyes.
I closed the zipper on my hoodie and turned towards him. ‘Don’t…’ I begged.
He closed his eyes as if he was in pain. ‘Don’t go yet.’ He added. Almost pleading as well. As if seeing me go was hurting him deeply.
I reached for my purse.
‘Wait…’ he got up, sheet wrapped around his waist. It had no use since I had seen and done things to this man’s nakedness that would make you blush.
’Dosch, you don’t have to say it. I know.’ I turned around and looked him into his dark brown eyes. I felt tears coming up. A part of me was screaming to not leave him, to run for him and never let him go again. That same part that knew he was in danger yesterday.
‘There is something I need to tell you.’
He grabbed my hand and walked me towards his white couches. I didn’t know why I followed, because I knew as soon as he got the chance he would talk me into his bed again. He just had that much power over me. He always had this. From the very first time we met actually.
He sighed, put his head in his arms. It stayed quiet for a moment. He looked back up, eyes watering. He showed me his underarm. Six faded lines were on his wrist. He was showing me some tattoo as if I knew what that meant.
‘I don’t understand….’
‘You know you saved my life yesterday… you know why?’
I shook my head.
‘Because of these lines.’
I shook my head again.
‘They formed that first weekend we spend together, all those weeks ago. I knew it though… the first time you entered that classroom.’
‘Knew what?’
’You are my mate, Lux.’
I started chuckling. ‘What is this? This is not funny Dominic.’
‘I know it isn’t. Oh trust me Carina, I know. Because now I got to protect you for the rest of your days against my crazy cousin who wants nothing more than end my happiness at all costs. Keep you happy and safe, because every time you get upset I feel it.’ He slammed his hand on his heart. ‘Here.’
’And lucky for you… now you got a whole bunch of enemies. Because whoever finds this out about you, will kill you to hurt me. You see?’ he kicked an empty bottle of beer against the far wall. It smashed into a million pieces. ’We are fucked.’
’Nobody can know Lux. Not until I can guarantee your safety. So we can’t be together, maybe ever. Can’t be seen together. When you leave here it is the last time you contact me, you hear me?’
‘Wait… that’s why you-’
‘Yeah, that’s why.’
It all made sense now. Why he suddenly shifted. He was protecting me because if anyone found out what I was… that I could provide him with his child. That’s when they kill me, a part of him would die too. That he got only one mate, and that was me. I was the one he got. But how?
‘It takes everything.’ He added. ’You are all I think about and it’s driving me crazy.’
I reached for his hand and he pulled back. That hurt.
’It diminishes after we break off the physical contact. The bond will still be there, it will always be. But when we break of contact, the only thing that will happen is that we will long for each other. Like a nagging type of pain, but it is manageable. If we keep… fucking… than we will be in some damn real physical pain.’
‘But we haven’t had sex in weeks now… why weren’t we in pain?’
‘Because we…. sealed the bond last night. It wasn’t my intention.’ He felt bad. Really bad about that.
He showed me his wrist again, and indeed three out of the six were in bold now.
’Normally it could take up to three days to seal the bond with a mating frenzy… I guess they gave us a break.’
I swallowed. ‘Oh my god… that explains so much.’ Like the incredible pull I had felt towards him, or every time we had sex it had intensified.
‘It will try to pull us together for the next days. We need to fight it. When we get through this first part, we will be done with the worst. If we stay away from each other we won’t ever have to go through it again.’
‘It’s going to be bad Carina. I’m so sorry for it.’ I literally felt his emotion. He was telling the truth.
‘Now go… before I change my mind. It’s pulling me away from this already.’ he croaked. Kissed me.
I kissed him back and practically ran for the door.
For the last time.
He wasn’t lying about the pain. I literally cried myself to sleep. It was as if someone was ripping of my leg at night.
We still had potion class together. I sat down next to him, and immediately my entire body reacted. He had the same reaction by the way he righted his back and didn’t glance my way.
‘How are you doing?’ he asked without looking at me.
‘Being shot was less painful.’ I said.
‘Agreed.’
He was clenching his fists, knuckles white.
‘Good god… I can’t even sit next to you.’ Nostrils flared. He rose from his seat and stalked out of the classroom.