Figment of Dreams

It had been the moment I had envisioned for many months. The lust had finally won and it had happened. Then why did I feel so incredibly hollow? The Rainers were polygamous, so I’m pretty sure Sebastian wouldn’t mind it that much. Even though he acted really possessive lately. Yet, it was the way I was left in that bathroom, his cum still seeping unto my leg, like a ten cent hooker. That made me choke back a sob. It had been the best sex of my life. But I needed him to hold me, to cuddle me, even just for a moment. To tell me he cared about me for more than my body, more than the sex. That was obviously not the case. My legs were still shaking and with even shakier hands I tried to tie my jumpsuit back together. My hair was a mess, it looked clearly fucked. I quickly tried smoothing it down. My panda eyes were a mess as well. I could not go out there looking like this. I made quick work. On shaking legs I went back outside. Skylark found me and handed me a cup. ‘Are you alright?’ she asked immediately. I nodded. I’m not sure Skylark, your older brother just fucked me three ways from Sunday, and then left me there with his cum still seeping out of me, like I had the plague. ‘You look flustered.’ She added once more. ‘Just tired…’ I lied. ‘Sebastian went to our cabin. He had developed a headache. The others are at the lakeside by the fire. I was just going to get you.’ I sheepishly followed her outside towards the giant firepit. Dean was roasting marshmallows and everyone looked hella wasted already. It wasn’t even midnight. ‘There she is!’ yelped Dexar and made a howling noise. All the others immediately glanced my way and I felt like I had a sign that said: ‘just fucked Ash’ on my forehead. The latter was also seated. Sipping from his beer, head down. Not glancing my way. Great. I sat down next to Dean and he offered me a marshmallow. I took it gladly, suddenly starving. I still felt like I could cry any second now. ‘You know what…’ I said to my other side as soon as the marshmallow was eaten, Skylark and Dexar. ‘I’m heading in as well… see you tomorrow.’ I stood up and could turn around in time before anyone saw my tears fall. I cried the entire walk to our bungalow. Feeling so disappointed in myself. I opened the door and sniffed while trying to lock it again. ‘Little bird, what’s wrong?’ Sebastian was still on the couch, scrolling through his phone. His brow furrowed in worry. I couldn’t stop crying so he just walked my way and held me. I felt guilty about that too. ‘Seb… I’m so sorry… it just happened… I can’t…’ he grabbed my face. ‘What happened love? Who hurt you?’ his happy persona long gone. He was ready to murder whoever had hurt me. ‘Asher and I… we….’ I broke out another long series of sobs. Sebastian hugged me again and brought me to the couch. ‘You fucked him?’ he rubbed my back. I nodded, feeling like shit. ‘Good.’ He said. I sat back, not understanding. Before I could speak he added. ‘Than he is finally out of your system and you can move on with me.’ I wiped away my tears. ‘You look too damn sexy when you cry love. It’s killing me.’ he kissed me and I felt so grateful for this man. ‘Unless, you want to… you know. Have him and me… I’m not really a big fan of the idea but we certainly wouldn’t be the only ones at the academy or in Moira with that arrangement….’ I snorted. ‘No… I’m good.’

He laughed. ‘Was it that bad, huh?’ I slapped his arm. ‘No…’ he raised his eyebrows at that. ‘If you tell me that brute fucks better than me, I’m going to really have a problem.’

I laughed at that. ‘So that’s where you draw the line.’

‘I’m better in bed and you know it…’ he glanced my way. ‘You know it right….’

I kissed him. ‘You are amazing.’ Which he was. But Ash had literally fucked me so dirty, I kind of liked it. ‘So can I put that to the test right now?’ he teased. Already horny again. I rolled my eyes. ‘I’m not exactly in the mood…’