Feelings through poetry

One mistake is all it will take, and everything is wrong

“So you should learn what to do, but you can’t, you don’t notice.

Novice! Can’t do anything, can you?”

But no! I will beat you up through my sickness I suffer,

You won’t take me down by telling me I’m useless to the dawn.

“Moron can’t do anything; it would be better if you just would stop trying.”

But I won’t., and that is wrong.

I wish I could do it right, but it feels so tight.

I have no clue what to do so far,

No clue no glue,

Can’t even glue test to the book,

True is no clue

I don’t know what to do,

Math won’t solve for me.

Numbers everywhere and I don’t know what to do, can’t do anything.

I feel randomly sad I don’t know why,

True no clue

“Oh, my my, you don’t even know why?”

Maybe something is wrong with me.

Otherwise, why would people stop talking to me after a while?

So I wish... That sometimes there would be shadow covering my face.

I always force myself not to cry. I don’t show my emotions off,

I create armor on my body, shield that protects me from showing emotions off.

And I keep it in myself... not having a clue what to do.