Fated is overrated

Jason POV

I'm sure she thinks nobody will notice in her big baggy clothes - but that body of hers can't even be hidden in a trash bag no matter how much she tried. Her body is that of a goddess and I would very much like to run my tongue along every inch of it and sinking my teeth into her marking spot, while thrusting myself inside her.

I pray so hard to the moon goddess that she will be my fated mate. And even if she isn't, I would take her as my chosen any second of any day of the week. But I'm pretty sure she wouldn't though.

She doesn't even want a fated mate. I am just hoping that if it were to be me - it has to be me! - she would have a hard time resisting the bond as she already loves me as a friend and wouldn't want to hurt me, so I would have time to win her over.

I just have to wait a few more weeks and pray hard because, honestly, I feel like I am starting to crack with her scent all around me and her being without a bra or in just a towel, f*ck! Especially that hug in just the towel almost made me come undone in my pants. I'm surprised she didn't notice my erection actually. But like I said, she is completely clueless.

If it weren't for me getting closer to her lately, I may have had to have another girl in my bed for some release, but I can't risk her finding out now that we are finally seeming to get a bit closer.

Even if she were to finally give into the bond if we were mated, I would have to find a way to make her stay in the pack with me, as I know she has her heart set on leaving this place.

I can't leave this pack as I am destined to be head warrior. I have my duties here. I'm just hoping that once she would be mated and marked everyone would back off as she will no longer be a threat to the women and unavailable for the men.

And if not, I would have to beg Chris and Ashton to let her be and hope they got on board. It's not right what they are doing to her and I wish I could help her, but I just can't stand up to my future Alpha and Beta. Not to mention it would be my own undoing as well. "So, how did you like the first one of our horror marathon?" she asks me and suddenly I realize I was completely drowned in my own thoughts throughout the entire movie."

You know how I feel about the crap you call movies" I chuckle. "I watch them solely for you and especially today you get a free pass. Anything you want goes today".

Hoping that she might catch on to the anything part of that sentence, but I doubt she will. "Cool, at least being left to die has some perks after all! I will put on the next one!" "oh by the way, are you staying for dinner? If you are, I'll text Nadia if she wants to join in as well".

"Of course I am staying after the day you have had! Nadia had some chores for mom and dad to attend to tonight, so I am afraid she won't be able to come" I lie through my teeth of course. Nadia had no plans whatsoever as far as I knew, and neither was she the vigorous study type Lola is. But I just want my alone time with Lola for a change."

Oh ok OK, too bad. But I am really glad you are here Jason. I would really hate to spend my evening alone after the day I've had". I see her gaze dropping to her feet and she pulls her bottom lip in between her teeth, a thing I have noticed she does sometimes when she is nervous.

The nervousness is probably from earlier and not for being alone with me, but I can't help but adore the way she looks like that."

Don't ever thank me for that, I wouldn't have it any other way and it is my pleasure to be here for you when you need me". She smiles and pulls me in for a tight hug. Relishing in the closeness, I take in all of her scent and pull her a bit tighter, before she breaks the hug and puts on the next movie.