Falling For The Man I Married

"Madielyn!"
George pulled me out of the clinic after finishing some laboratory tests with her doctor.
"What?" I asked her, confused.
"When did you get married? You didn't tell me you're already married! And what was that inside, what was that scene? I thought
you're dating that Gabriel guy? What happened, why was he with that pregnant woman?"
-'Ohh, so she still doesn't know.'-
"Yes, we're married but just in papers-----"
"What? What do you mean you're married but just in papers? Does your Mom know about this?"
My eyes widened with her question. "No, she doesn't know any of this. And it's a long story, George. I promise I'm going to
explain all this to you but not now."
"Fine. But tell me who's that girl with him? Was she his real friend or-----"
"Ex-girlfriend."
"Ex-girlfriend?" I nodded. " If she's the ex-girlfriend and you're the wife---what was that Madielyn?" her face turned into a scowl.
"Hey, calm down, George." I chuckled as I tried to calm her.
"Calm down? And you're really the one telling me to calm down, huh?" she placed her hands on her hips as she glared at me.
"Because you're pregnant."
"Gosh, Madielyn! You're just letting your husband go with his ex-girlfriend? What kind of a wife are you?"
"Huh!" I gasped. Why me? "George, listen to me, please! It's not what you think it is! I told you I'm gonna explain this to you in
some other time!"
"Fine!"
We separated our ways when we reached the parking lot because we were occupying a different parking space.

"Madi!"
I heard Gabriel's voice as I was about to open the car door. I turned to look at him and saw him running in my direction. He took
my hand, but I didn't protest nor did I complain, I just stared at him.
"Love, she sent me a message earlier. She said she had to see her doctor today for her check-up and that she didn't have
anyone to come with her."
"Why are you telling me this, Gabriel?" I asked, pretending as if it was nothing to me.
"Because you must know about this, you're my wife," he said taking again my other hand.
I chuckled sarcastically.
"Really? Am I your wife? Gabriel, if you consider me your wife, you will tell me about this before you decide to go with her. But
that's okay, because I know I'm not your real wife, I'm just your fake wife. And I'm not asking for your explanation, because
sooner or later, this deal will come to an end."
"No---"
I cut him off immediately.
"Gabriel, I told you. You don't need to explain. Everything's fine with me. We're married in the first place because of her. You're
here because of her. She's pregnant and she needed you, she needed the father of her baby." I shrugged.
"Madi, please let me clarify these things. When she texted me, I was just about to call her to do an early DNA test with the baby."
"Ohh..." I said nodding. "I see. I thought you were back together because you're so sweet, you know, 'kissing." I just muttered the
last word to myself.
"You've seen us?" his eyes widened.
-'Oh, gosh! Did I say it out loud? Argh! stupid!'-
"Well, yeah." I chose to tell the truth. "I just didn't show up because I didn't want to interrupt you and your romantic moment
together."
"Madi, I'm telling you it's not what you think it is----"

"Gabriel, whatever I'm thinking, does it matter? It's the second time I've seen you kissing her, and it's also the second time you've
told me it's not what I think it is. Well, whether you're the one who kissed her or she's the one who made the first move, the thing
is---- I don't care! You can kiss all the girls you want to kiss and I'm not in a position to judge you or to stop you!" I opened the
door on the driver's side but I was stopped in the middle when I heard him speak.
"You're jealous."
My head immediately snapped at him and I laughed at the hidden truth about it.
"Me, jealous?" I asked pointing to myself. "Do you hear yourself, Gabriel? Why would I be jealous if, in the first place, I don't
even have a single right to feel that? We're just 'friends' right? And I was just your 'fake' wife!"
"Madi---"
"Gabi!"
But he was cut off by the bitch's voice behind him. I glanced at her with a formed fist as he turned around.
"What?" he asked her irritably
"I can feel something hurting in my belly, Gabi. Ouch!"
-'Ouch your face!'-
My face turned sour and couldn't help but roll my eyes when she held her belly and pretended as if she was really in pain. I
couldn't help but shake my head and hissed in irritation. I thought I was the only one to hold the title of being the best actress,
but guess what... I was wrong because I was just the first runner up here. The real winner is the bitch-Stacey in front of me.
-'Tsk.Tsk.Tsk. Congratulations! We have a winner!'-
But Gabriel, of course, ran towards the mother of his second baby. I don't know why I was still standing there watching them
make a scene in front of me. The bitch who's just obviously faking her pain just to have Gabriel on her side, and Gabriel who
seemed very anxious for his beloved ex.
-'This is it! This is too much!'-

I muttered and turned my eyes away from them. I opened the car door and finally closed it, ignoring my husband who followed
me while calling my name.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Three days later...
Three days... I have given myself three days to think about all the things and events of these past days. I filed for a three-day
vacation leave, so I can take some time for myself and analyze what I want, what I need, and what I feel.
The advice of the lady in the restroom kept ringing in my head even at night, when I was going to bed or when I was about to
close my eyes...
**Suffering doesn't mean, you have to let those people or that person hurt you repeatedly**
Did I let him do it, or am I the one to blame for why he does it repeatedly?
**If you spend too long holding on to him, which you know doesn't treat you the way you deserve, you'll miss finding the one who
will treat you as his priority. Don't waste your time and your tears.**
Am I that hopeless... holding on to someone I know who can't love me back?
**Don't waste your love for someone who can't see your worth.**
Am I not enough? Am I never going to be enough?
**Leaving him will cause you pain and a wound from it. But when the pain subsides, the wound will heal. You will be left with a
scar but it will fade and disappear over time.**
I wish it will, because if only tears could heal the pain inside me... I think I would have to cry my whole life because I don't know
when will I stay in love with him.
**Don't embrace the pain, embrace the life and happiness you will have later.**
How could I not embrace the pain, if even I don't allow myself... it's the one embracing me?
But as they say, everything has an end. In every sacrifice, we must put an end to prevent it from leading us into pain. And I finally
realized that it should be time to think about myself.

I need to get up and bring the old me again the 'Old Madi'. Who's always willing to help others but hasn't forgotten how to help
herself first. The one who's brave and strong to face every consequence that life holds for her.
And now it's time...