Chapter Chapter Six
~Sebastian’s POV~
I stormed out my room with Andrew right behind my tail. I run into the forest and went into the clearing at the cliff. I sat down and stare at the moon.
"What happened?" Andrew ask sitting beside me.
"I fuck up. I swear. She was responding to my kisses then suddenly she freaked out.” I stated angrily. I told Andrew what happened. And he listened to me intently. He patted my back when I started crying. Never before have had I felt so damn helpless. How can I protect her when I caused her pain?
"Sebastian, she went into a trance. I saw her face when we barge into your room. She wasn't talking to you but to someone else.”
"Yes, but it was my damn fault. I totally lost control and I almost raped her.”
"Well, you should try to be more in control then. Come on, brother. You are always in control with your action. Never once have I seen you lost it.” Andrew said.
"I know but with her I'm nothing but a loose cannon. Everything seems to be out of control when I see her. I mean the stupid mate bond is adding an extra pressure to my attraction to her." I explained.
"Well, if she responded to your touch like you said then she is also feeling the bond between the two of you. She just seemed scared. We got to know what happened to her."
"You're right. She is scared of something. I would find out who hurt her and I would kill them. Damn I'll even start a war if I have to." I said furiously in my Alpha tone.
"Calm down, Sebastian. We will find out soon what really happened to her but first we must gain her trust.”
"I know but now that would be a great challenge for me. I mean how can she trust me when I tried to take advantage of her? How can I convince her?" I stated frustrated about the situation.
"Well, apologize and try to start from the top."
"I wish it was that simple. Go back to the pack house, brother. I'll just need to calm down. I'll head back in a few.”
I lost track of time as I sat down staring at the moon. My thoughts kept running back with the heated kiss we shared. I can still taste her in my lips, feel her soft skin and smell her sweet scent. Just thinking of her turned me on. I went back home and settled for a cold shower.
I found her sleeping in bed peacefully. I did my best to control myself not to do anything stupid. I can go sleep in another room but my wolf would never calm down unless I was besides her.
I cradle her as I lay in bed. I settle her head on my chest and wrap my arms around her possessively. I caress her long blonde hair and enjoyed her sweet scent. I kissed her forehead before closing my eyes to sleep.
I woke up when I felt someone slap my cheeks. I lazily open my eyes and saw my mate glaring at me. I smiled at her lazily and hugged her tightly.
"Morning, love. You are a sight to see in this beautiful day."
"Let me go!" She said annoyed. "What the fuck did you do to me?" She said accusingly.
"Nothing." I loosen my hold around her. "I just slept. And I didn't do anything stupid.”
"Good." She got up and straddled me on my waist. "Because if you did. You will regret it."
"Love, are you trying to give out a warning or turning me on?" I said huskily. "I have to warn you that I don't have enough self-control left with the position you are on.”
"Well, you have to make sure you don't lose control then.” She started grinding at my erection. "I don't like my men losing control over a foreplay.”
"Love, I can give you the best foreplay you can imagine if you let me." I said holding her hips as she continued to grind at me in a faster rhythm.
"I don't think so.” She grabbed my hands and pin the down above my head. "I think..." She started kissing my cheeks and trail down light feather kisses down my neck.
"Love, you are driving me crazy." I moaned when she bit my earlobe and I felt her panting as she continue grinding her core at my very eager arousal.
"Good." She suddenly stopped moving and got off me. "Because after your stunt last night you are not getting lucky with me I'm better off pleasuring myself." She said then went inside the bathroom. I was left frustrated in bed. I can't believe it. She got me so turned on yet left me hanging. I went into the next room and had a cold shower. I found her sitting on the edge of the bed when I returned back.
"Like anything that you see.” I smirk at her when I notice she was staring at me with a towel wrap around my torso.
"Nope! I've seen better. I just can't believe you needed a cold shower after a minor teasing. My gosh. And I thought you would have been more experienced.” She stated while obviously still checking me out.
"You are the only one that has this effect on me. And the only reason I needed a cold shower was to calm my nerves so I can get the answers to my questions. Because with you around I forget what self-control means. It's the mate bond. Our wolves want to fuck and I don't want to force myself on you."
"Whatever. When can I go? I mean you have to set me free. I don't want to be locked up here forever.” She stated.
"Love, as I told you yesterday. You are here as my mate not as a prisoner. I am not letting you leave my side. You will be with me forever.”
"Can't you just look for someone else? I am not suitable for you. You're an Alpha. I'm a rogue. We don't belong together.” She reasoned.
"Do you want me to be a rogue, love so we can be together?" I stood in front of her and she stared at me.
"No. I just don't want a mate. I want to be free. I am just about to start my new life. I'm death weight to you. You're a great Alpha. I'll ruin you."
"Love, at least give me a chance. Let me be part of your life. Let me share your worries, your fears. Tell me what are you running from, what happened to you? Let's try to work things out. You won't ruin me." I said sincerely.
"I'm not interested. Just please let me go. I want to enjoy my freedom. I don't want to talk about anything about my past with you.” She said.
"All I'm asking for is for you to give me a chance. Why are you rejecting me when you haven't even got a chance to get to know me?"
"If I let you have your wicked ways with me would you let me go?" She asked seriously. “I'll let you fuck me however you want.”
I was taken back by her statement. I was insulted and the same time worried about her. How can she just say that! How can she offer her body just to get her freedom? I need to play my cards well. I have to make sure that we two end up together. She is after all my Luna. And I'll do anything to have her with me forever. She is mine as I am hers. She belongs with me.