Desire for you- ALPHA RYAN Book 1

RYAN

"He was in the prison, Arnor called him by the name James..."

My eyes turned black as I held her in my arms.

That was Arnor's fucking beta.

A growl escaped my throat and the whole thing felt like déjà vu.

'WHERE IS THE FUCKING BETA OF ARNOR?' I screamed at Tristan and Michael.

It was the middle of the night and they were both still fighting with Arnor.

'His beta wasn't there that day, at least we couldn't spot him,' came from Michael.

'You will find me that dog if it's the last one,' I instructed them. How could I forget the damn Beta, he could have easily planned an ambush to get Arnor out of here.

'Why what's going on boss? Is there trouble?" Tristan asked me.

'There will be in a minute,' was my answer.

I didn't want to tell the whole story to the pack. That was fine with Catherine, who was lying in my arms. I had pulled her close to me and covered her with the blanket.

Why had Eleonora kept this part of her past from me? I was bloody angry.

Not at Catherine. Oh no, she couldn't help it, she was a victim of all this. If, I get my hands on this guy...

I looked down at Catherine, who was lying in my arms, completely distraught. I took a deep breath. I didn't want to hurt her even more by storming out of the room to bring Arnor to justice.

I didn't want to know what else had happened there.

I gritted my teeth, barely able to calm down. So bloody angry. Onyx bared his teeth and wanted to go after the pig.

I damned myself for awakening all those memories in her, why the hell had I unzipped that damn zipper for her? Again, I was glad I had done it, otherwise I would never have known about it.

I hadn't just set one stone rolling, hell no, I'd moved a whole mountain.

'Find him and keep Arnor conscious, I'll be with you in an hour. I instructed them.

I breathed in and out deeply again, the scent of Catherine calming me too. Knowing that she was safe here with me meant a hell of a lot to me.

I wiped the tears from her face. "You don't have to cry, Cate..." I said to her, looking into her blue eyes.

"Aren't you angry?" she asked uncertainly.

I shook my head "Not at you. I'll get justice, I promise." I said to her and gave her a little kiss on the hair.

"It's time for you to take your revenge for what was done to you." My alpha command had an unconscious effect on her.

Her eyes sparkled dark red for a brief moment and turned back to blue.

I knew Rose had dark red eyes, but this was something else entirely. I hadn't, had I? I hadn't awakened her inner demon, had I? Even if it was only a small part, it was in her.

She didn't say anything, just nodded.

'You said an alpha command on her, you idiot,' Onyx said to me, seeming exasperated.

"Catherine?" I asked, glaring at her. She stared into space for a moment and finally blinked several times.

"Yes?" she asked me, biting her lower lip.

The need to mark her has never been greater. I could feel my fangs coming out.

"Cate, I want you to be officially mine," I breathed into her ear and then looked her in the eye again. "I want the whole world to know that you are my mate, my wife, the mother of my pups and the Luna of this pack."

The words gave me goose bumps. Did that really just come out of my mouth?

'Yes, indeed mate, that's what you said,' Onyx confirmed to me.

She laughed briefly and shook her head "I-I can't be a Luna, I can't even make it through a day without breaking down," she said desperately and looked at me.

"You're stronger than you think, love..." I said to her. "You're living proof of that."

She looked rattled. "I think now I'm the one who wants to take things easy..." she laughed briefly and clutched me tightly again.

"W-what if this all goes wrong?" she asked me.

"What could go wrong, we were meant to do this. Have you forgotten that?

I shook my head "Maybe this really is too much of a good thing for tonight... I'm going to get you..." I whispered the last part in her ear and gently stroked her face.

A smile appeared on her face. It warmed my heart to see her laugh.

"I want you to rest now, love," I said softly and stroked her hair.

She nodded slightly and was also visibly tired. I could be annoying and exhausting. Forcing her to talk was a part I hated to do. Now that I knew who did this to her, though, I just had to figure out where that damn wolf was and what Arnor was hiding.

I waited until Catherine had fallen asleep in my arms. I looked down at her and she was sleeping peacefully in my arms.

The coast was clear. I got up carefully and covered her naked body with a blanket.

I put my shirt back on and undid the first three buttons. I rolled my arms back and quietly walked out of Catherine's room, closing the door behind me.

I marched straight downstairs and headed for the dungeon. As I was walking down the stairs, I caught sight of Kilian in the kitchen. "So, how was your evening?" he called out to me, grinning.

I shook my head and sighed in frustration. I ran my fingers through my hair and the next thing I grabbed was an ancient vase that had belonged to my grandmother and threw it against the wall.

"Wow, Ryan, give me a break. Was it that bad at the Italian restaurant?" Kilian looked at me in shock and looked down at the broken vase.

"I always thought that damn vase was ugly," I said, growling softly. Kilian came closer to me and smiled. "The vase isn't to blame for your frustration, what's wrong?"

"Hey, you can always talk to me. Has something happened?" he asked me.

How was I going to explain to him that Catherine was a victim of rape and broke?

'ELEONORA! I shouted in my mind. Not another second passed and she was standing on our mat.

'WHY DIDN'T YOU GIVE ME AN INSIGHT INTO THIS DAMN PART OF HER PAST? I was furious and glared at her. Kilian was just watching the two of us and was still calm.

She looked at me calmly. "Are you sure you want to see this?" she asked me.

Damn, did I want to see that? How a person I loved more than anything was hurt? No! Who the fuck wanted to see something like that...?

"I need to know what happened to her, Eleonora... Please..." I said in a calmer tone.

"What about him?" she asked me, looking at Kilian.

I nodded "I want him to know too." I said. Eleonora nodded, grabbed our hands and we were already in Catherine's past.

We saw what we needed to see. Now I could understand Rose, why she was trying so hard to protect Catherine.

Eleonora brought us back to reality. Kilian gasped. "You mean to tell me this is true?" His veins were forming on his forehead and he was just as angry as I was.

"That, gentlemen, was part of Catherine's past and all of it is true," Eleonora said, glaring at us.

"We need to find the damn Beta of Arnor, he's still out there somewhere," I said to Kilian.

He nodded. "I want to beat that bastard up for the first time," Kilian said, cracking his fingers.

I shook my head "No. I think I'll help myself to Tristan's S&M chest for the first time, there's bound to be a whip lying around somewhere."

I raised my eyebrows and looked at Kilian. Suddenly he grinned at me. It wasn't a normal grin, it was an evil sinister grin. His eyes sparkled silvery.

'Tristan where the hell have you got your fucking chest?' I included Kilian in our mind communication, since he was an Alpha I could do that.

'Can someone finally tell me what's going on?' Tristan asked, visibly confused.

'We want to give Arnor a little S&M lesson. Tell us where the damn chest is.' Kilian growled.

I could imagine Tristan rolling his eyes. 'I'll get it,' he finally said.

We went down to the cellar. We heard Arnor shouting.

"You fucking assholes killed my mate!" He screamed. He was about to go mad

'Tie him up,' I said to my wolves.

'Whip Tristan.

'Whip?' Tristan asked me again, looking at me in confusion.

'Yes, damn the whip again.

'I didn't know you liked whips.' Tristan giggled and made fun of me a little.

'If only you knew...' I picked up the whip, which was made of leather, and walked towards Arnor, who was chained up on his knees.

"I'm going to kill you, you fucking piece of shit!" He shouted, tugging at the chains like a savage.

"Tell me Arnor, can you remember the whip and the counting?" I sat down in front of him and clawed my fingers in his hair, pulling his head back.

"What was that again? Oh yes! We count to two hundred and if you miscount, we start all over again!" Kilian added to my words. He leaned against the wall and looked over at me.

"I think you'll do the first hundred, then I'll make do. What do you think?"

"With pleasure," I said and gave him the first lash.

Arnor grimaced. Wait and see, he would stop laughing.

"Arnor, I can't hear a word you're saying. I'm going to keep whipping you until you open your damn mouth and start talking. Speaking of talking! Where's your fucking beta?" I started swinging the whip and landed several hits on his torso. He was still silent.

Now he was grimacing in pain.

Tristan and Michael looked at each other in irritation, not understanding what was going on.

"Go on, talk!" I shouted at him and the next blow was a harder one.

A bloody welt formed on his upper body.

"I don't know." he croaked, frowning in pain.

"Then you'll find out. It's quite simple." More lashes fell across his upper body. Just by the way he slumped his shoulders, I knew he wouldn't last long.

Kilian shook his head.

"Stop, stop, stop. You're doing it all wrong!" he said.

"Well then, do it properly," I said to him and put the whip in his hand.

Kilian took the whip and walked towards Arnor.

He crossed the whip around his neck and squeezed so hard that it choked him.

Arnor was completely covered in blood and now the whip was also cutting into his neck.

"When you're told to talk, you'll fucking talk again!" he said angrily. "You're the one to be made docile, you damned dog," he said to Arnor, squeezing so hard that Arnor almost turned blue.

"Hey, hey, we still want him alive. Have you forgotten that already?" I said to Kilian and grinned at him.

Kilian loosened the whip a little.

"Where's your fucking beta?" I asked again and picked up a knife.

"When I find the fucking son of a bitch, I'm going to make you play Russian roulette." Kilian hissed at him and yanked at his hair. "SPEAK!"

Arnor had no way out. He realized that we weren't going to let him die so easily.

"He's still in Ice territory." he gasped out.

"Good doggie. Now it's time to count," said Kilian and began the whipping.

As requested, Arnor began to count.

"Sixty-three."

"Sixty-five"

"Stop, stop. You've miscounted. From the beginning." Kilian said and started again from one.

Tristan and Michael looked at me in shock.

'Boss, would you like to enlighten us?' they both asked at the same time.

'You had a perfidious way of abusing Catherine. This is the payback and we've only just begun. Take all the wolves you need and search the Ice territory for James, his beta,' I said to both of them.

They fell silent and got straight to work.

Arnor's cries were hard to ignore. I just hoped Catherine was asleep and didn't find out.