Chapter 38
(Johnnie)
It's been five hours since we came back from that fiasco at the country club..apparently Ben has been texting Robin..so why wasn't Caspian texting me?
Something felt wrong..and I didn't know how to act..I kept pacing my room over and over again...my feet so restless that I felt like I was going out of my damn mind. Has he changed his mind?..maybe I acted too rashly last night...was I being clingy and it put him off? Or did he just wake up with regrets..
What if..what if he agrees to marry Heaven..that he sees it's the best option and he felt like getting with me was a mistake.
It was almost 8 pm when the headlights finally pulled into the driveway. I stayed in my room most of the time because I didn't want to see my mom at the moment. That's when I felt my phone vibrate, notifying me I had a text.
From Caspian: Meet me down at the beach.
The words he said read cold and detached in my head as my heart dropped..no..he couldn't have agreed..he wouldn't have done that right?
I glanced outside my window just in time to see Caspian walking down to the beach with his hands in his pocket and his head hanging down..that told me everything.
I took a shuddering breath, trying to stop these tears from falling as I quickly slipped on my sandals and went to head outside.
Luckily I didn't run into anyone..because I don't know if I could speak without crying.
I nervously tucked my long blonde hair behind my ear as I glanced ahead of me, seeing Caspian walking along the shore. After this..I don't know if I can ever see him again, especially if he plans on going through with the arrangement. The mere thought makes me sick...
I walked down to the beach, the wind blowing across my face and drying my tears as he turned towards me.
His eyes were full of sadness, making me freeze in my tracks..afraid to take another step forward..afraid to hear those words and give up all of this..all of the sweet things he said and promises he made.
But I didn't have to take the next step because before I knew it, Caspian was running towards me. His body crashed against me, making me stumble back as he pressed his mouth to mine.
His kiss was rough and filled with nothing but desperation as I returned it just as equally.
His arms lifted me up as his palms cupped my a*s, squeezing me tight before shoving his tongue into my mouth, tasting and exploring me greedily as I let out a whimper.
"I can't do it..I can't let you go." He gasped before dragging his mouth down, his lips following the curves of my throat as he began carrying me across the beach.
"Johnnie..tell me you feel the same..tell me you feel this ache in your heart too.." He whispered the words he spoke making me choke out a sob as I nodded my head yes.
"I feel it Caspian..I have always felt it." I rushed out, making him gasp before he suddenly laid me down on the soft sand, his body hovering above me.
"I won't let him take you from me...I won't let him.." He muttered before reaching up and stripping his shirt off.
I watched in awe as his smooth chest was now bare before me and without a single hesitation I stripped off my shirt too before slipping out of my shorts.
Capsian took his off next, lying his shirt on the sand next to me before moving me on top of it and hastily crashed his lips to mine once again.
"I need you..I need to have you." He choked out, his eyes filled with tears as I reached up, placing my hand on the back of his neck and pressing my chest against his.
"I'm yours.." I breathed and that was all he needed. Caspian reached back, unclasping my bra before dragging his lips to my breast...his mouth latching onto my n****e, sucking hungrily as he used his other hand to slide down my panties. "Are you sure?" He asked after pulling off of my b****t, making me nod emphatically before he rose to his knees.
I watched his eyes wander up and down my body, while slipping off his briefs, revealing his long hard c**k as all of the air rushed out of me.
It was dark out but I could see all of him very well..I'm sure a damn plane flying by would see that thing.
"I will be gentle." He reassured me as I swallowed hard before nodding my head once again. Apparently that's all I could do..
I watched as he lined himself up at my entrance, his eyes searching mine before he bent down and wrapped his muscular arms around my body.
"I love you Johnnie." He whispered, making my heart flip as I couldn't believe the words he just said.
"I love you too." I breathed, feeling his hard c**k began to enter me, causing me to wince as I was already being stretched beyond anything I felt before. "f**k, you look so beautiful right now.." His voice was strained as he began to pant heavily.
I stared into his blue eyes, my mouth opening into a silent scream as he slowly worked himself inside of me.
After a while, I actually began to get used to it..my head dropped back as I felt his mouth fuse to my neck, kissing and licking me sweetly as I let out a moan.
Then his movements began to quicken, my body starting to respond as I met his thrusts, making me cry out.
"I love you..I love you so f*****g much." He gasped and I could tell he was close..I don't know how, but I just knew.
That's when he buried his face in the crook of my neck, my arms wrapping around his back as I started to feel my walls clenching around him.
That familiar feeling from before building up as he quickened his pace, hitting me in spots I didn't know existed as I moaned into his mouth.
Then my world changed, the stars above me filling my eyes as I shattered around him...right at that moment Caspian was all I knew..
His breath was my air, his touch reached my soul as I cried out his name, feeling wave after wave of pleasure slamming through me as Caspian swallowed each sound greedily.
Then he thrust one last time, his body stilling above me as his face morphed into something so beautiful..tears streamed down his cheeks as I looked up at him in awe.
I had never seen him so handsome as I watched him climax as he quickly pulled out of me before spraying ribbon after ribbon of c*m onto my abdomen.
Afterwards Caspian collapsed on top of me, his arms the only thing keeping him from crushing me as he nuzzled his face into my neck.
"Let's get married."
I froze..my eyes blinking rapidly..Wait..did I just hear that right?
"W...what did you say?" I panted, trying to catch my breath as I watched his head raise before he met my gaze.
"You heard me Turner..let's get married..I want to marry you."
I felt my mouth drop open as I tried so damn hard to process what he just said.
"Caspain..what's going on? What happened?" I asked, seeing something was clearly wrong.
"Nothing happened, nothing that you need to worry about..I'm not going to let anything get between us Johnnie and I'm serious..you are it for me, so why wait..you are all I want." He explained, making my brow furrow as I peered into his eyes and tried to understand what was going on.
Caspian lifted his arms up, placing each hand on either side of my face before bending down and kissing me.
"I know this is fast..I know it's f*****g insane..but Johnnie, I don't want to wait..I don't want to let things get between us." Caspian explained.
"Is..is this about Heaven? My mom told me.." I began and Caspian shook his head no adamantly.
"I don't give a f**k about Heaven. This isn't about anything else but me and you..and I don't want to wait..I don't want to waste another minute. What do you say..will you be crazy with me?" He asked as I gazed into Caspian's eyes, seeing that he was scared as I lifted onto my knees before placing my hand over his heart.
Feeling deep down that what I was going to say next really did make me crazy..but that's how I felt with Caspian..I felt like I could do anything as long as I was with him..so what the hell..why not? "Yes..yes I will."