Caged Between the beta & alpha

Clarity RAVEN
” You are going to feel guilty , but we both know staying in this situation is hurting you all .
” He said softly .
I could feel how bad he felt saying that , but it was the truth .
” Putting aside everything ... Let’s play a game .
I ask a question and you pick which one you would choose .
” He added , slapping his thigh as the idea popped in his head .
Putting aside everything ... (Read Everyday Updated Chapters m.techkaushal.com) The curse included .
Because that was what I used to make myself feel better every time I felt guilty for how I was treating Damon , but that was not
an excuse .
” Ok ... ” I said , playing with the tab on my can .
” Now picture them both standing right there ... Which one will you hug first ? ” I frowned as the answer came to me .
” Liam ... because- ” ” We’re not justifying why here ... Block that all out and just think about your instant answers , I don’t want
any breaks , you have got to answer fast , ok ? Whoever comes to mind first .
” ” Ok .
” I groaned .
” Both are hurt in a battle with rogues ? Which one will you tend to first ? ” ” Liam .
” I said , feeling another flash of guilt through me .
No matter the answer , I still felt guilty .

” If you did something that they told you not to who will you confess to first ? ” On ” Damon . ” Who do you want to fuck ? ” ” Li –
hey ! ” Taylor chuckled .
” Soo ... You done it yet ? Details ... now ! ” ” Stop it ! We haven’t !
” I said , blushing as I remembered what happened earlier .
Oh , my dear goddess , that was naughty ! Liam was naughty ... That side of him ....
My heart skipped a beat and I pushed it away .
” Ok , then which one do you want to cuddle up to in bed ? ”
” Liam ... ” ” Cuddle with over a movie ? ” ” Both ? ” I pouted .
” They both came to mind ! ” ” So something you would do with a friend .
” Taylor said .
” Ok ... Out of curiosity , which one have you kissed ? ” ” Both , but Damon only once .
” I replied pouting ” Damn girl ! Dare I ask how many times you’ve kissed Liam ? ” He teased .
I sighed .
” It’s because Damon said- ” ” Stop justifying it , we are talking about your feelings here .
” He said softly , giving my hand a squeeze before dipping his fries into the ketchup .
I nodded , thinking about Damon once more .
Deep down , I knew who I favoured , but I hated myself for it .
“
There’s no guilt or shame in loving someone ... It doesn’t make you bad to feel stronger for one over the other .

Can you imagine being with Damon and rejecting Liam ? “
Life without Liam ....
My heart clenched painfully and my eyes stung .
The fear of the curse and what if that becomes a reality ... His words from earlier echoed in my mind ; ‘ when you are mine ... ‘ I
knew he could sense my hesitation ... It hurt so damn much .
I was a n awful mate to both .
I placed my face in my hands as the tears came , no longer able to hold them back .
” Damn , I’m sorry Raven ! ” Taylor’s panicked voice came .
I shook my head , but I was unable to stop .
I knew what I had to do , but just thinking about it broke me .
I didn’t want to hurt him ... I couldn’t hurt him ....
I sobbed loudly , clamping my hands over my mouth as I bent down , pressing my forehead to my knees as I tried to stop my
tears .
(Read Everyday Updated Chapters m.techkaushal.com) Taylor’s arms wrapped around me and held me tight .
” Shit , I’m sorry Raven ... I’m damn sorry ... P ” Don’t be ... You just made me realise I am doing more damage than good .
‘ I whispered through the link .
He stroked my back and I felt ridiculous crying like this , but I realised all my life I just stayed quiet because it was easier .
We couldn’t do this anymore , I couldn’t do this anymore .

I wanted all my firsts to be special , not constantly worrying about what the other might be thinking or the fact that I kept feeling
guilty .
” I’m going to say this to myself as much a s to you , ” Taylor said , kissing the top of m y head .
” Life isn’t perfect or easy ... The stories of soul mates and their eternal love are only sugar – coated versions of reality .
Look at those power couples around us ... Alpha Elijah and Luna Scarlett’s , sure we know them as this amazing couple who
love each other deeply and have the chemistry to die for ... but they did not have it easy – even on their journeys , there were
difficulties .
We need to create our own love stories , overcome our differences , issues and hardships to make them perfect ... but also
remember that we need to get to that perfect part .
To remember that the pain we’re feeling right now is part of that
journey , a part we need to overcome ... ” I nodded as I tried to steady my breathing and calm down .
” I know ... You’re right ... I’m scared knowing I might hurt someone and knowing that I’m already hurting Damon , Liam ...
Myself ... (Read Everyday Updated Chapters m.techkaushal.com) ” I know , baby girl , but that’s life and you are one badass
queen who has got this .
” I wish I could tell him I was just an ordinary wallflower , not a badass queen ... But he’s being sweet , so I won’t argue .
” I’m tired ... tired of it all .
” I whispered .
” It’s OK to be .
” He replied .

I pulled away slightly and looked at him with a tilt of my head .
” So ... What about you ? ” I asked , wiping m y tears away .
He looked down .
” I need to talk to Channing .
He deserves t o know ... but I have been delaying it .
” He said , his eyes pained .
” I’m sorry .
” I whispered .
” Don’t be , I’ll figure it out .
” He comforted me .
I nodded and took a deep breath .
” Ok , we are going to do what we need to d ” 1 0.
I said with renewed determination , feeling a lot better after crying and talking to him .
He gave me a small smile and nodded .
” Yeah ... We will .
” We had cleared up the takeaway boxes and had settled down , nibbling at the cotton candy when Liam’s voice came through
the link , making my cheeks burn at the memory of earlier .
‘
Raven ? ‘ ‘ Yeah ? ‘ I asked , my heart thumping .
‘ Your father’s trial is this coming Monday .

Are you ok with testifying openly or privately ... ? ‘ My heart skipped a beat , so he was actually listening to Uncle El .
I felt so happy about that .
I smiled softly .
” I can do it openly .
” I said , my heart thumping , but I needed to be brave .
I knew the pack were probably already talking about me behind my back with the entire two – mate situation , but I would not let
it put me down .
If Liam was willing to d o this by trial , something he didn’t want t o do , then I would also testify .
‘
I’m willing to do so at the trial .
‘ I said softly .
‘ Perfect ... So , uh ... What are you up to ? ” He asked , I smiled at the awkwardness in his tone .
” Thinking about you and playing with myself ? ‘ I said as seriously as possible .
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His pause of silence made me unable to hold back my laughter .
‘ Haha did I make you blush ? ‘ ‘ I don’t blush .
‘ Came his reply , but I could tell he was pouting .
‘ But I know how to make you blush .
‘ ‘ Oh , don’t play that with me , blue eyes .
‘ I said , glad he wasn’t here in person .

I’m a t Taylor’s ! You are disturbing me ! ‘ Cool , enjoy , but one last thing ... I didn’t expect you to have a Brazilian wax .
It’s really sexy ... I like it .
Scratch that , I fucking love it and it’s a damn turn on .
‘ My eyes flew open , my cheeks burning at his words and I wasn’t able to reply .
His chuckle came through the link .
‘ Have fun .
‘ Came his triumphant farewell , leaving me red – faced and completely speechless ! Moonlight Muse Author Thank you for
reading !!