SWNOVELS Brutal Vows: Chapter 8
I wait until morning to tell Lili the bad news that her lecherous pig of a fiancé will be paying her a visit.
She takes it like any rational female should and starts crying.
“Zia, please!” she wails, clinging to my arm. “Can’t you do something? Can’t you get Papa to call it off?”
“If I could, I already would have. Now dry your eyes. We’ve got to talk, and I need you to pay attention.”
I shake her off and start to pace the length of her bedroom, over to the dresser and back to the door, wringing my hands in anxiety.
I didn’t sleep at all last night. I lay wide awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, remembering the way that beast Quinn sniffed my neck like I was a candy bar.
And that noise he made.
That low, rumbling, masculine sound of pleasure that came from deep in his throat.
I’m shivering right now just thinking about it.
In disgust, of course. The man is absolutely revolting.
“Okay, here’s the thing.” I pause to gather my chaotic thoughts. “Quinn is a man. Right? A very masculine sort of man. He’s very…manly.”
What the hell are you saying? Pull yourself together!
Sniffling, Lili sits on the edge of her bed and chews on her thumbnail as she watches me pace.
“He’s going to be difficult to handle. Impossible, really. He’s obviously extremely stubborn. And used to getting his own way.”
And arrogant. And gorgeous. And hung like a damn horse.
I turn and pace the other way, dragging my hands through my hair in aggravation.
“And unfortunately tesoro…you should prepare yourself for the reality that he won’t be faithful to you.”
“Who cares if he’s faithful? I’m going to stab him to death in his sleep!”
I pull up short and stare at her in horror. “Don’t ever let me hear you speak such nonsense again.”
“Why not? You killed Uncle Enzo!”
I close my eyes, draw a breath, count to ten, then open my eyes again. I say calmly, “Do you want to die in prison?”
“Did you?”
I was willing to, if it meant I’d never be whipped bloody again.
Instead of saying that, I say, “I didn’t kill my husband.”
“Quit lying, zia! Everybody knows! Why do you think they’re all so scared of you?”
“People are scared of any woman who speaks her mind and doesn’t put up with their bullshit. Now, listen. You said Quinn was kind to you when you spoke. He took an interest in your life. And I think we may be able to convince him to allow you to go to college. So though he has the charm of a rotting carcass, he might prove to be endurable.”
Who am I kidding? Her life’s going to be one long nightmare Groundhog Day.
Lili leaps to her feet and cries passionately, “I can’t marry him, zia!”
My heart goes out to her, but I can’t waver on this. I make my voice firm. “I completely understand your feelings, but the contract is inescapable. If you don’t marry him, it will ruin the family. Your father’s life will be over. Literally, I mean. The Mob will put a bullet in his head for the disrespect.”
I pause, hesitating to tell her this and upset her even more. But she needs to know exactly what’s at stake.
“They’ll do something terrible to you, too. Something worse than death, especially if Quinn discovers you’re not a virgin. We’ll talk about how you can fake that later, but the bottom line is that you’ll marry the Irishman.”
“No, I won’t! I’m in love with Juan Pablo!”
This is when I notice the small dark bruise on the side of her throat.
Except it’s not a bruise. I know a love bite when I see one.
Feeling sick, I stride over to the wardrobe and throw open the doors.
It’s empty.
Lili is sobbing behind me. “I’m in love with him. I don’t care about the stupid contract or what anybody thinks. I’d rather die than marry anyone else. I’d rather die!”
I turn and look at her tearstained face. At the agony in her eyes. At all her shaking, frenzied fervor, and feel a twinge of jealousy.
At least she had this. At least she loved once. The memory of what she shares with Juan Pablo will help sustain her through all the dark and lonely years to come.
The only thing I had to sustain me was the hope that one of Enzo’s violent rages would end in my death.
They never did, though. He beat me near to it many times, but death never came to rescue me.
I had to rescue myself instead.
I cross to Lili and take her in my arms. She clings to me and sobs against my chest, her shoulders shaking. Smoothing a hand over hair, I hold her and make soothing noises until she’s calmed down a little and is only hiccuping.
“Tesoro,” I murmur. “My beautiful girl. You’re the daughter I never had, and I love you.”
Lili whispers, “I love you too, zia.”
“I know you do. And I want you to know that however I can support you through this, I will. I’ll always be here for you. I’ll always take care of you. I’ll never abandon you, do you understand?”
She whimpers.
My voice hardens. “And I promise you that if your new husband ever lays a finger on you in anger, I will end his life.”
That’s as close of an admission of my capabilities as I’ve ever come, but these are dire circumstances.
She lifts her head and stares at me through watering eyes. My heart aching, I wipe the tears from her cheeks with my thumbs.
“Now dry your eyes. Lift your chin. Steel your spine. Caruso women are strong and proud. We keep our moments of weakness private. Your fiancé is coming to see you today, and you need to be prepared.”
Her chin quivers. She shakes her head, clearly traumatized by the thought of having to face him.
“Don’t ever let him see you cry, Liliana. No man deserves your tears, especially not that one. Just remember what I’ve told you.”
I sigh, gathering her into my arms again. She tucks herself into me and sniffles.
After a long time, she whispers, “Maybe we’ll get lucky and he’ll get shot before the wedding.”
I close my eyes, imagining Quinn lying still and silent on the ground in a widening pool of his own blood.
For the first time in forever, I feel happy.
Then I leave Lili alone with her thoughts and get ready to deal with the next important task on today’s agenda.
Firing the pool man.
He’s punctual, the smug Irishman. I have to give him that.
Precisely at five o’clock, Quinn rings the doorbell. Lili and I are already waiting, standing hand in hand in the foyer in tense silence. Beside us stands Gianni, vibrating happiness, practically wagging his fucking tail.
Bettina opens the door and lets the Irishman in.
His ego takes up so much space that instantly, the house feels smaller.
“Mr. Quinn!” Gianni steps forward with his hands extended. “Welcome. So good to see you again so soon.”
Quinn gives him a cursory nod. They shake hands. Quinn glances at Lili and sends her the same disinterested nod he gave my brother.
He doesn’t look at or acknowledge me.
It feels deliberate.
Whatever the reason for it, his snub loosens the vise around my lungs, allowing me to breathe easier.
Maybe I was being paranoid when I thought he was coming on to me in the kitchen. It’s so rare that a man outside my family even dares to look at me, let alone flirt with me, I can’t remember what it feels like.
Gianni says, “Let’s go to my study and have a drink, shall we?”
“No. I’m here to see Lili.”
I can tell Gianni’s offended by the rude dismissal, but he keeps the pleasant smile on his face. “Of course. Would you like to visit with her in the salon, or—”
“We’ll go for a ride,” Quinn interrupts coldly.
Lili glances at me in panic.
I frown. He wants to take her for a ride? In his car?
When I grasp his motivation, heat flashes over me. It crawls up my neck and settles in my cheeks, where it burns.
He doesn’t want to take her for a ride, he wants to take her for a ride.
This testa di cazzo thinks he’s going to sample the merchandise before he buys it!
Keeping my tone tranquil though I’d like to rip out his intestines through his nostrils, I say, “That will be lovely. I adore afternoon rides in the summer. So refreshing.”
When Quinn sends me a blistering scowl, I smile. “Of course I’m sure you remember that I’m Lili’s chaperone.”
If looks could kill, I’d already be dead. Quinn’s gaze is a thousand incoming arrows shot from enemy bows.
My smile grows wider.
The Irishman glowers at me like he’d give his left nut to make me invisible. “Aye, I remember. Let’s get on with it, then.”
He turns on his heel, yanks open the front door, and disappears through it. I listen to his footsteps echo angrily off the courtyard tiles and wonder if perhaps he has bipolar disorder.
It would explain a lot.
Gianni turns to me and mutters, “Brought up in a fucking barn.”
“A barn is too civilized. That Irishman was brought up in a slaughterhouse.”
Lili whispers nervously, “What do we do?”
“Follow him!” hisses Gianni.
I give Lili’s hand a reassuring squeeze, then lead her out the door. We walk out to the driveway, where Quinn is standing beside his big black Escalade.
The driver’s door is open. His sidekick, Kieran, is nowhere in sight.
Lili and I walk to the rear door of the SUV and stand there, waiting.
Quinn realizes we’re waiting for him to open the door for us and mutters, “Fuck.”
He stalks around the front of the vehicle, yanks open the back passenger door, and growls at me, “In.”
Then he opens the front passenger door and looks at Lili. “Sorry, lass. I’ve got a lot on my mind today. Up you go.”
He helps her get settled in the passenger seat, makes sure she buckles her seat belt, then closes the door. Without another glance in my direction, he hops back into the driver’s seat and guns the engine.
Clearly, I’m on my own managing to climb up into the truck.
Regretting that I didn’t think to bring my handbag—the one with the secret compartment for my .38—I gingerly step on the Escalade’s running board and reach up to grab the handle on the roof inside the door. I’m in heels and a dress, so hauling myself up onto the seat is a production.
Why the man couldn’t drive an adult vehicle like a sedan is a mystery.
I’ve barely got the door closed before he peels out. Gravel sprays from under the spinning wheels. Lili yelps in surprise and grabs onto her door handle. I topple over sideways onto the bench seat, cursing.
“Mr. Quinn! Will you please slow down?”
In the rearview mirror, he sends me a look of murderous rage that exactly matches my own. But he does take his foot off the accelerator, allowing the car to slow to a reasonable speed.
With four of Gianni’s armed guards following in a car behind us, we pass the guard gate in silence.
We drive through the wooded area surrounding the house in silence.
Miles of country lanes pass in the same stiff, uncomfortable silence.
It isn’t until we pass the lake and enter the highway that I break it.
“Mr. Quinn?”
Gazing straight out the windshield, he grunts at me.
“Where are we going?”
He shakes his head as if I’m annoying him. I certainly hope I am.
And what the hell is his problem today?
I glance behind us to make sure Gianni’s guards are still in sight. I have no idea what this crazy fucking Irishman is up to, but when I see the black Mercedes following us, I feel better knowing we’re not alone with him.
We speed down the highway as Lili clings to the handle on her door.
I’m so angry that he’s frightened her, I want to take off one of my heels and stab him in the ear with it.
After another few miles, he takes an exit off the highway and turns left. He steers the car toward the country carnival off in the distance.
Wait…when he said ride, did he actually mean a PONY ride?
Does he think she’s six years old?
We park in a dirt lot. Quinn exits the car and helps Lili from the passenger seat. Then he leads her away by the hand. He doesn’t look back.
When the guards pull up, I’ve already jumped out and slammed the door behind me.
Luigi, the driver, rolls down his window. He makes a questioning gesture with his hand.
“Who fucking knows?” I say, aggravated. “Maybe the idiot wants a cotton candy.”
I hurry to follow the receding figures of Lili and Quinn as they head toward the ticket booth. I catch up with them just as they’re going through the main gate.
“Ma’am! Ma’am, you need a ticket!”
Ignoring the pimply young man calling out to me from the booth, I follow behind Quinn and Lili as he leads her through the small crowd. She glances over her shoulder in a panic, looking for me. When she sees me marching behind her with my executioner’s face on, she looks relieved.
I almost break an ankle trying to keep up with them. He’s got long legs and is making good use of them, striding through the crowd with purpose as he drags Lili along. I’m starting to think he’s going to march us around in circles until one of us drops from exhaustion when he suddenly veers left, toward the carousel.
What on earth…?
There are about twenty people standing in line. Quinn pushes past all of them, shoves a ticket to the gawking girl at the gate, and walks straight over to the slowly spinning carousel.
He picks Lili up by the waist and hoists her onto the platform.
She spins away from him, looking utterly confused.
I gasp and lunge forward, pushing past people until I reach the gate. The ticket girl is about to ask me for my ticket, but takes one look at my face and shrinks back.
Quinn turns just as I reach him.
I shout, “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
He grabs me around the waist with one arm and yanks me roughly against his body.
His big, hard, unyieldingly masculine body.
For a long, breathless beat, he stares down at my face. His brows are knit. His eyes are dark. His full lips are pressed into a narrow, angry line. When his gaze drops to my mouth, a muscle in his jaw clenches.
Then he meets my eyes again and growls, “Whatever the fuck I want, viper.”
He leaps onto the moving platform, taking me with him.
A scream catches in my throat.
He grabs a bar on the edge of the platform, swings me around, and sets me on my feet, then releases me abruptly. Off balance in my heels on the uneven, moving metal platform, I stagger, flailing for the nearest stupid colorful carousel horse moving lazily up and down on its pole.
I throw my arms around its neck and hang on.
Quinn glares at me.
I glare right back.
Then he stalks off through the field of undulating carousel ponies while I shout curses in Italian that the brassy calliope music does nothing to drown out.
I kick off my heels and follow him.
It’s a Herculean task. He appears to have zero problem navigating a crowd of people riding moving fiberglass animals on a spinning disc, while I’m slipping and sliding all over the place, bumping into everyone and starting to feel sick.
When I finally catch up to him, he’s lifting Lili onto a purple-and-gold pony, holding her carefully, but managing her weight easily, as if she’s a doll.
She sits astride the pony, grasps the gold pole coming out if its neck, and looks at Quinn with wide eyes.
I’m about to drive a fist into his kidney when she smiles.
Thank God. She’s not afraid.
I stand one pony away, watching them in relief, until he turns his gaze to me and it sharpens.
When he steps toward me, I know exactly what he has in mind.
“Don’t you dare,” I warn as he approaches. “I mean it, Quinn! I am not getting up on this thing!”
But of course I am.
Because he wants me to.
He picks me up by the waist and lifts me onto the horse so I’m sitting on it sidesaddle, clinging to his broad shoulders, my bare legs and feet dangling helplessly as I stare down at him.
He gazes up at me, his hands still gripped tightly around my waist.
The horse drifts down on its pole. Quinn’s hands drift up from my waist to my rib cage.
Another inch and those huge hands will be cupped around my breasts.
I suck in a breath. My nipples tighten. My entire body erupts into flames. Our eyes lock, and suddenly, the carousel, the music, and everything around us disappears. It’s as if nobody else in the world exists but the two of us.
The two of us and my aching vagina, which just now arose from the dead to start howling with need.
For him.
This awful, arrogant Irishman.
Who’s betrothed to my beloved niece.
Who’s madly in love with the pool boy.
I understand with chilling clarity in that moment that none of this is going to end well.