Chapter 25 Prostration
Rejecting the famous Gavin in Denver City, I sank into an office chair next to someone. To be honest, I was sad to see Gavin go. I was grateful to him for his help and probably never had anyone else to suppor me like that again.
But I couldn't let myself go anymore. If Gavin became a habit of my life, it would be much harder to leave. I'm going to break up with Gavin completely, pay him back, and live my own independent life.
I propped myself up and wanted to leave this place. Suddenly, Barbara ran in from outside and shouted at me. "Sister Darcey! What's wrong with you? Why is your face so pale?"
I shook my head with a smile and said, "Nothing, I'm just too tired."
"But, you really look bad now." Barbara came up to support me. She took me to the hospital, despite she had a lot of work left.
When I was bothered by Layne's wife the first time after I was pregnant, Gavin took me to the hospital and took care of me for a long time afterwards. Few people knew I was pregnant, so Gavin took his part in the baby's growth.
"This time I came to the hospital to see the baby, but it was the first time that I didn't have Gavin accompany me. He may never know the situation of the baby again. That's fine, I would be the only one to know the secret of the baby in the end."
Barbara was sent away by me first. I should not let her know the news of my pregnancy, otherwise, she might be frightened and would not take me to do any part-time job in the future.
There is nothing wrong with me. The doctor said it was due to overwork and I was too fatigued. He told me to rest, and not to think too much. He also gave me a prescipriton for improving my health. I had no other means to express my gratitue but to say thanks.
I returned home to rest for two days, and felt almost recovered. As I was packing up my clothes, I suddenly noticed a bulge on my lower abdomen. I quickly stood in front of the mirror and looked at it again. The image of my first pregnancy came back to my mind. I gently placed my hand on my abdomen and felt both happy and sad.
I lost my last child because of my own carelessness. I'm definitely not going to let that happen this time. This baby, I must give birth to it healthily.
Gavin had taken care of my father's finances problem for the time being, so I didn't have to worry about it. I knew his bank account number, so I could return the moeny to him when I had the money, and the move was on my agenda again.
Besides, I have to change my job. Apart from my unpleasant relationship with my boss, I wanted leave just because of him, and his shelter.
Gavin never called me again after that day. I also knew in my heart that his words said on that day were sincere, but most were out of impulsivity. Later, when he found out, he would marvel at how stupid he was to raise a son for someone else.
At least in his opinion, this child was indeed someone else's.
Without Gavin, I had to be more careful with my life. On the day of the pregnancy test, I asked my boss for leave, and my chest was always tight because of the bad weather. But when I learned the baby was healthy, my dark cloud dissipated.0000000