Chapter 25: Li Cheng's guilt
"Psychological stress.."Su Yumi mumbled with sad expression."But she was really happy awhile ago before Ch- "Su Yumi froze and didn't say anything further. Li Cheng knew what his mother was going to tell. She wanted to say she was really happy awhile ago before Cheng came. Li Cheng knitted his brows tightly.
"It is my fault. She was happy before i came. She became sad and uncomfortable with me around. I don't know why she was so stressed but i know that it is all my fault. "Li Cheng cursed himself to be so good-for-nothing father as he lowered his head.
Tang Fian was quite upset that her husband was taking all the blames for that ugly daughter. Her hatred for Li Seulbi flared up even more. She patted his shoulder but didn't say anything.
Su Yumi took a deep breath. After contemplating over the matter,she decided to speak up
"Actually, indeed it was your fault from beginning to say."
When they heard Su Yumi giving blames to Li Cheng, they looked at her curiously to listen what she has to say including Li Cheng.
Su Yumi recollected the past memories "When Seulbi's real mother died, she was only three years old. I could still remember her crying and feverish trembling body in my arms wanting for her own mother's warm embrace.. That day you (Li Cheng) came home late all drunk. I was all alone handling both of you.."
"..After that day, you came home late everyday and rarely stayed at home. This way, the little Seulbi became a lonely child. And when you brought Tang Fian at home after few weeks. I was really suprised to see her with her own one-year-old two babies in her both arms.."
".. To be honest, i felt really sad and angry but i somehow felt relieved that someone will take care of our Seulbi. But who knew that no one will care about my Seulbi and pretend that she doesn't exist. You always cared more about Li Ri and Li Ruan and care less about Seulbi. I am not telling that i discriminate between them in fact i love all of them and always care for them.."
"..But in reality Li Seulbi didn't deserve this type of ignorance. She was called ugly by the society since childhood. So many people laughed at her and made fun of her. No one cared about her feelings. Only i knew how she felt.."
Everyday she would come to me with sad face and ask me that why god was unfair in making her this ugly. I didn't know how to comfort her. She was deprived from both father mother's love and was regarded ugly since she was child. Do you how a 5-year old child was feeling that time? "Su Yumi asked Li Cheng.
This time Li Cheng's face was pale as white sheet with solemn expression. He didn't know how to response.
Su Yumi continued " I remember one day when Li Seulbi was crying sitting in the garden. I asked her why she was crying. Do you know what she said? She said pointing at one direction **sob* Grandma, why can't i get piggyback from my father as my siblings can?'
..That made my heart wrenched in pain. I gave her piggyback and comforted her. For Seulbi, i became her mom and dad. She had few friends from school. Our old house's previous neighbour's grandson also became Li Seulbi friend. So that time she was really happy spending time with him. I was also really happy to look Seulbi's blooming face.."
"But, that incident destroyed everything. She lost her few memories including the boy from the neighbourhood. Then, We moved here. Nothing changed. You were busy with your own works. Xiao Fian was also busy raising her children. I, old woman, took care of lonely Seulbi.."
".But, I am so confused by your recent acts. You didn't care about whether Seulbi was going to school or not in past, but you unexpectedly asked her to say goodbye to you when she leaves for school now. Why so much love all of a sudden?..Don't dare tell me you are suddenly feeling guilty now?" Su Yumi asked raising her head towards Li Cheng.
There was pin drop silence in the room. Li Cheng trembled and felt his knee weak causing him to fall on the floor. But before he could fall, Tang Fian reacted fast and caught him on time.
Gong Xeng also helped him to sit on the chair. Li Cheng closed his eyes while lowering his head. He couldn't face anyone.
He said in low yet in understandable voice "I am really guilty."