SWNOVELS Chapter 62 –
Cara's POV
Ivan was still in an induced coma and had not woken up yet. We stayed with him all day long. Alexei had someone come and put a special screen on the window of Ivan's room. It would protect both him and Ivan from the harmful UV rays. I could tell just how upset Alexei was at what Jana had done. Ivan had been his friend for centuries, and he was concerned that he had too many injuries to heal properly from this. I was worried about Ivan, too, as I have heard many good things about Alexei's trusted team members, who were like an extended family to him. His anger at Jana and Anika was simmering just under the surface. He was going to kill them once he found them. He was upset that he had fallen for their lies, and sheltered them for so long. He regretted not dealing with them like he had the rest of their vicious group. I held his hand as we sat next to each other in a comfortable silence. The only sounds in the room were coming from the equipment.My stomach started growling around two pm. Alexei went with me to grab some food in the dining room. He was scared for me to be alone. He didn't know who Jana was meeting within the pack and who could really be trusted. He didn't want anything to happen to me."Attention! This chapter belongs to obb.. If you're seeing this elsewhere, you've found a copycat. For fresh, authentic content, come to Jobb. directly. We appreciate your support and know our true fans will enjoy the original content with us." He has become even more possessive of me since Jana tried to attack me the other day. He is absolutely sure that Jana will not stop until I am dead, which is a chilling thought. I didn't want to die, especially by her hand. It brought the thought of my mortality to the forefront of my mind. He was right. I am positive that if she could have gotten to me last night, she would have probably shot me like she had Ivan.
After lunch, my mother told me there would be no training today. She was giving me the day off. She said I deserved it because I was progressing at an amazing rate. I was glad to get to stay here in the hospital with Alexei. I could feel just how much Alexei needed me to be here. My presence here in the hospital with him helped him to maintain his peace, as seeing Ivan like this was really hard on him. Dr. Gurin had come by to tell us that Ivan was strong and fighting to get better. I know that the induced coma was what was stressing Alexei out. He couldn't speak to his friend, which would have helped him see that Ivan would be fine. Dr. Gurin stayed to speak to us for a while before checking on Ivan one last time before leaving the room.
I decided to bring up something that had been on my mind for the last few days. "Alexei, would it be OK to stay a witch for now? I know that you wanted me to become a vampire, but I wanted to have a few children before I made any decisions. That was another subject I wanted to talk to you about. Do you want to have children? We have never had much time alone to get to know each other. I noticed how much your nieces and nephews loved you, but I didn't know how you felt about having children of your own," I asked him carefully.
Both of these subjects were really big as far as our relationship went. I have always wanted children, at least three or four of them. I have wanted more private time alone with Alexei. Until he moved in, that was more of a wish than anything else. I had discussed this with my mother, who suggested I give it some time and real consideration. The process of transforming into a vampire was both incredibly painful and irreversible.
She supported me no matter what my decision was in this matter. She only wanted me to be happy. My mother didn't know if I could lose my powers during the process. She had told me that if I waited until we had our children, we could end up hybrids with both witch and vampire capabilities. Our children could also take after just one of us, being a vampire or witch. It all depended on how many children we wanted to have.
Neither she nor Dr Gurin knew what would happen if I became a vampire to be with Alexei. It was a toss-up. I might be able to retain my powers, or I could lose them. There wasn't a lot of information out there for me to make an informed decision. The only certainty would be that I would have a longer life expectancy. I knew witches could live much longer than expected, but vampires can live longer than we do. Alexei was already inching towards five hundred years old despite him looking like a thirty-year-old man. I knew that I could age with time, especially after getting a couple of centuries under my belt. It scared me to think Alexei might not want me as much if I looked older than him.
Alexei pulled me onto his lap and said, "I will always want you, Cara. No matter what happens in my life, it will only be you that I love until the end of time."
I flushed with embarrassment that he knew exactly what I was worrying about. I could overthink things, and I did that quite frequently. I worried about what he really wanted as he considered the two questions that I had asked him.
"I am fine with you wanting to maintain your heritage, Cara. You are correct. Witches also live a very long life. Don't worry; your mother is over a century old and looks like your older sister. We have a lot of time before you have to make a choice. I respect whatever you decide to do, Cara. It is your life, and I support you if you want to stay exactly how you are. Of course, I want children with you. I want to have a big family like Anton has. It has been a dream of mine for that to happen. You are an answered prayer to me. I have longed for a mate for so many years. You honestly have no idea how much I want you, Cara. Now that you are here, I have to say that I'm truly blessed. You are everything that I have ever hoped for, Cara," Alexei told me.
"Thank you, Alexei," I replied softly. I loved children and had always wanted some of my own. I was going to love them with my whole heart, just like I knew I would love all my nieces and nephews. I have always had a soft spot for children. Knowing that Alexei wanted to have children with me made my heart sing in happiness.
"I hope our daughter looks just like you, Cara. I love the color of your eyes; they are like a cloudless summer sky. I want you to have as many children as you want to have, Cara. Our children and having you as my wife for the rest of my life is all that I have ever wanted," Alexei told
me.
His direct gaze let me see that he was absolutely honest with me. I couldn't stop my smile. I wanted to bear his children. I wanted our sons to have a chiseled jaw and the same aura that showed their strength, just like their dad. Alexei was a leader, and a good one. He cared for his people, and they cared for him too. I could stare at his face all day. His features were made for him to be a model. His yellow eyes with the golden flecks in them were almost hypnotizing as you stared into them. They always pulled me into their depths. I knew he loved me and would always take care of me.
His handsome face was all I could see as he looked down at me. I saw a flash of a tiny version of him in my mind, and I felt happy tears prick my eyes. I wanted Alexei. Not just because he has been so patient with me but because I know now that he is my mate. We had an unexplained pull towards each other. When I first arrived, I could feel how anxious he felt, but I thought that it was my anxiety. We had been running for our lives at the time, and I was injured. I was hurt, frustrated, and terrified of Paxton catching us. I had thought his anxiety had been mine.
I learned after a few days that it was his emotions that I was feeling. I knew that we had to have something that had bound us together. My feelings for him have only increased since the moment we met. I intrinsically knew that I could trust him. He showed me exactly what to do to kill a vampire, which showed me that he had complete trust in me as well. Why else would he help me learn what to do? He was so concerned about my safety that he would do anything to help. I knew that my feelings for him were true. I knew it from the moment we kissed at my training the other day.
Living with him has only made my feelings stronger towards Alexei. My father and Paxton made sure that no boys ever put their hands on me in a sexual way. Not until Paxton himself put his hands on me the two nights before we left. I need to speak to Brenna about this, as asking my mother about being with Alexei seems like it would be way too awkward for me. Plus, after she saw us kissing, I know she really doesn't want to know if or when Alexei and I move forward.
I know it might be an uncomfortable conversation with Brenna, too, but I know that Alexei is experienced. He has been around for centuries. How could he not be? Knowing that is both good and bad. Good, in that I am sure he has a wealth of knowledge and prowess in the bedroom. Bad in that I was jealous of any who had come before me. I know it is weird, as I was not even born yet. But I hate the thought of him making love to anyone else.
I didn't want to embarrass myself in front of him. I need to know the basics, not all the ins and outs of it, pun intended. I need a little instruction on how to proceed. If things don't move forward in the next week. I will ask Brenna when Alexei is getting work down in the coven. I am not signing up to humiliate myself when a few questions could help me not look like such a novice. Alexei's arms banded around me tighter, and he kissed the top of my head. "Cara, I have never made love to anyone before. When that happens, it will only ever be me making love to you. They were unimportant to me, a means to an end, there was no love involved between them and me. In my life, I have only ever loved you. You are the person who is most important to me, and as soon as we get home, I will prove that to you," Alexei told me before tipping my face up to his and catching my lips in a heated kiss. All my overthinking is gone now. I am glad, as I want Alexei very badly. I don't want to wait another day. He is mine, and I can't wait for him to make me his.