Beneath the surface: Forbidden love

Marisela

After the hospital, Avalon walked me back to my room. We didn't really say much to each other, we were both lost in our own heads. But there is still so much to say, and there's still so much I don't know.

When I arrived at my room, Avalon agreed to meet me at my door at exactly midnight. I told her that I wanted to see him, my father, and she agreed to help me.

As I sit on my bed, I feel numb. In a matter of days I felt like I grew up way beyond my years. I didn't feel twenty one, I felt much much older. There's always something new happening in my life, another family secret being brought to life, or another species that I thought was only told in story books turns out to be true.

Something stuck with me the whole time after Avalon left. Something she said to me.

"Your mother was a witch. The leader of our coven. When she met your father, the king of the sea, they fell madly in love. They were inseparable and so in love. The power that they both held individually flows within you. You've always known that you were half Siren, you have your fathers gifts, but you are also half of who your mother was. You showed me that today when you summoned me. Her power flows through you Marisela."

And then she left. I was both surprised and afraid. I had no idea that I had so much power within me. But I unleashed something in myself today that felt dormant. I couldn't place what it was, but it was as if it had been asleep for so long and finally starting to wake up.

Who would've thought, that I Marisela princess of Greemalia- no that's not my home anymore. I'm just Marisela, half a siren and a half a witch.

I started to think about everything that's happened. Everything has been happening one after the other. Lie after lie. Secrets secrets secrets.I haven't had time to process it all, because every time I tried to understand it, something else came to light.

Time.

Time was running out. Nadia is gone to God knows where exactly. But she's hiding. Now that she knows I know the truth, she's not gonna just give up and run. She's planning something and I need to know what so I can stop her.

When did my life turn upside down? It's times like this where I wish I had a friend. Someone I could just rant everything to, who will listen and give me some advice. Kael became that person for me, but after everything he said, he broke that trust in me. Maybe I was being irrational, or maybe I was just hurt.

That's probably it. He hurt me.

I was so consumed in my own world that I didn't see the one friend I actually had, had her entire life torn away from her. Maria is- was my friend, I don't know anymore. She just disappeared, without a word. She never even came back when the news about Cory went out. Her own brother was killed and she never came back. I was- am worried about her, but I had no way of finding her.

My hand lightly touches over my flat belly. Then, there's you. The only good thing that came out of all of this. How? Why now? I wasn't ready to be a mother, I don't even know who I am as a person, how could I possibly be ready to look after someone else when I can't seem to look after myself.

Im not ready for any of this. I need to find myself before I can be anything to someone. It's selfish, but my whole life I did everything everyone told me to do. This prophecy has made it clear that my life was planned out way before I was born.

For the first time in my life, I'm putting me first.

As the weight of my decision bears down on me, I grapple with the internal turmoil of my own growth versus the emotional turbulence I will cause. It's a mixture of guilt, fear, and sorrow, as I realize that I'm essentially dismantling a connection that was once a source of joy and support.