Chapter 42
Ares POV
"What do you want?" I asked as I faced my back towards him, the need to turn around and confirm it was him, non existent for I knew with every fiber of my being that it was.
I turned around and faced him when he hadn't answered me. Those bright green orbs staring back at me as he stood there.
"I..I just wanted to see you." He answered causing me to scoff as I looked back at him.
"It's a bit late for that now don't you think?" I asked as I looked at him for a brief second before I walked past him, deeper into the forest, hearing him follow behind me closely.
He walked behind me, not saying a word as he tried to catch up to me before he took hold of my elbow, stopping me and forcing me to look at him.
"Ares wait! Listen to me-"
"No you listen to me!" I replied as I yanked my arm out of his grip cutting him off. He remained silent as he looked at me while I glared at him.
"What was it that I had done wrong? I don't want to hear your excuses, I just want to know why you did it?" I asked as I glared at him and watched him lower his eyes to the ground.
"I..I..just."
"You just what!" I asked as I yelled at him, watching it have no effect on him as he remained staring at the ground.
"I wanted a better life for you and-" he trailed off as he looked up at me and searched my eyes.
"And what?" I asked as I looked back at him.
"And our child." He replied causing me to widen my eyes as I walked towards him.
It felt as though every last drop of anger I had inside me all boiled to the point where I could not even keep it down anymore. I raised my hand and brought it right across his face, watching as it snapped to the side, the palm of my hand burning as I let it down.
"You don't get to call him that! You knew I was pregnant and you still did it!" I yelled as I felt my entire body shake with rage.
"Ares I don't expect you to understand right now, but I hope that you do one day. I did it to protect you and our child. At the time, it was no place to raise a child. Not when we were living in a fight for survival and I made the choice of sending you back to your people to give our child the life he deserved. He would not have gotten it here if you stayed." He said as he walked towards me, standing in front of me as he looked at me.
"Not a day goes by wherein I don't hate myself for it and I tell myself that I did it because I love you. I gave up what I so desperately wanted, so you could live happily with our child." He said as he placed his hand on the side of my face, causing me to shake it off and glare at him.
"Don't. You don't get to play the good guy. Not now. Not after I managed to pick myself up after you broke me! Do you have any idea what is was like! To live without you! To wake up everyday and wonder why you didn't want me anymore!" I yelled as I pushed my fists against his chest, feeling my tears well up in my eyes.
"Do you know what is was like carrying our child and wondering what I was going to tell him when he learned the truth! Why his father didn't want him! Do you!" I yelled as I banged my fists against his chest, all the while he stood there like a rock, not saying anything as he watched me break in front of him.
"Say something! Why!" I screamed as I pounded my fists against his chest, feeling the tears roll down my face as he took hold of my wrists.I tried to break from his strong grasp, tugging my hands away as I tried to punch his chest again.
"Let go! Let go off! Don't touch me! Don't you fucking touch me!" I yelled as I tried to pull my hands away, feeling him pull me against his chest and wrap his arms around me.
"Let go!" I said as I squirmed and tried to break free, which seemed so impossible with his tight grip on that I eventually gave up, feeling the life drain from my body as I slumped against him, sobbing into his chest. He held the back of my head as I cried against him, his arms firm around me as he held me close to him.
"I'm sorry Ares. I'm so sorry." He whispered against my ear as he held me.
I pulled away from him, my eyes staring into his as he looked back at me, his gaze drifting down to my lips slightly as he leaned towards me. I watched him as he slowly bent down, inching his face towards mine, his hand placed against the side of my face as he gently pressed his lips against mine.
I closed my eyes as I felt everything rush through as just as it did the very first time I had kissed him. That wave of heat, that tingling sensation, the goosebumps, the butterflies that all overwhelmed me. The feeling of my skin on fire as he trailed his finger tips down my chest before he pulled me flush against him.
I let out out a soft moan as I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me, and suddenly in that moment, I was eighteen again, in the arms of the man I fell in love with.
I felt him tighten his grip on me as he lifted me up, my legs wrapping themselves around his waist as he walked back and sat down against the tree, setting in his lap as his mouth moved against mine.
He broke away from me, latching his mouth onto my throat as he trailed his kisses down my throat towards my collar bone, gasps escaping my throat as I reached down between us and untied the tie on his pants. I slipped my hand inside his pants and pulled his length out, gripping it in my hand, earning myself a moan from him.
I ran my hand up and down for a few more seconds as my mouth found his once again, before I stood up and stripped away all my clothing before I gently settled myself down on top of him, hissing through clenched teeth as my body stretched to accommodate his large size.
I felt him adjust me in his lap, his hands gripping my hips as he trailed his kisses down my throat before gently pushed up inside of me, touching that spot inside of me, causing me to throw my head back as a deep moan passed my lips.
I placed my hands on the sides of his face as I rocked my hips against him, my eyes staring into his as they once again filled with tears.
"I love you. I love you so much. I never stopped" I whispered as I choked on a sob.
I felt him raise his hand and lay it against the side of my face, his thumb wiping away my tears as he pressed a kiss against my nose and one on my forehead.
"And I never stopped loving you. I'll always love you" He whispered back as he pushed himself deeper into me, gasps and moans escaping my throat as I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly while he thrusted into me.
I felt him pull out of me and lift me up, gently laying me down on the ground before he entered me once again, latching his mouth onto mine. I wrapped my legs around his waist, twining my ankles as I moved to his thrusts. His grunts and moans, sending hot waves of pleasure through my body as he planted his forehead against mine as he thrusted into me.
I moaned as he pressed a kiss on my neck making his way down lower as he kissed against my chest and down my stomach. I gasped open mouthed as I felt him take me into his warm mouth while he thrusted into me, the feeling of intense pleasure over riding any sense filled thought I had.
I arched my back and screamed out as I gave into the pleasure my body so desperately sought, spilling all over my chest, clenching myself around him as my body spasmed and shook with my release.
I heard him grunt and grip my hips as he growled before he pulled of me , bursting on my stomach as he brought his face to mine, his mouth latching onto mine yet again as he rocked his hips against me, riding out his release before he broke away from me, breathing heavily as he laid down next to me.
We laid there, staring up at the stars above us, our naked bodies tangled into each other as our ragged breaths filled the air. I ran my hand through my long hair that had become tangled when he ripped my hair tie out.
"What is he like?" He asked in a whisper as he laid next to me. I looked at him, watching as grief and sorrow dawned his face before I rolled over and laid my head against his chest.
"He's just like you. He's brave and strong. Fearless. His mind wanders to almost everything. He's got a kind caring heart and-" I said as I placed my hand on the side of his face, making him look at me.
"He looks just like you." I added as I watched his eyes water for a brief second.
"What's his name?" He asked in whisper, almost as if he didn't trust himself to speak.
"Eros. His name is Eros" I replied with a smile as I ran my thumb across his bottom lip.
"It means 'Love'. He came from our love" I whispered back as I leaned down and pressed my lips against his closing my eyes, only to jerk away from him when I heard the sound of someone clearing their throat.
I turned my head and looked at Kronar who stood there, with a glare plastered on his face as he looked at us.
"It'll be dawn in a few hours. I suggest you return to your camp and prepare your soldiers. Surely your husband must be seeking you out at this time of the night." He said with a glare on his face, my eyes widening at what he had said when it all dawned upon me.
What had I done?
"He's right. " I heard Fortis say, making me snap my head in his direction.
"King Aven must surely be looking for you." He added and I did not need to be a genius to detect the hurt in his voice.
Even as he kissed me one last time before he got up and dressed in his battle gear, did that look of sorrow not leave his face.
I dressed myself and walked back to our camp, standing outside the tent where Aven lay dead asleep, unaware of the actions his husband had just committed. I sighed as I looked up at the sky, feeling all sorts of different emotions fall all over me none of which made any sense, nor did I have the time to ponder over them, for..
War was coming within the next few hours..