Chapter 46: Tabula Rasa
"Blood may be thicker than water but love is thicker than anything." ~ Goldie Nash
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Raina Williams.
Tabula Rasa : New Beginnings.
Everything was different, I felt happy. Angelo took me out on a date and I would have never guessed he would take me to
Starbucks. He seemed determined to win my love and I was determined to see him disappoint me so I would just be like...I knew
it! He didn't give me that opportunity, he listened attentively when I talked. I told him all that had happened the past two years
that we had given each other space. He gave me these glances that made me feel like I was the only girl in the room. All I
wanted to do was jump on his bones everytime we touched, the sexual frustration was getting to me. He composed himself and
Angelo had never done that, anytime we needed to fuck,we would fuck. I had never seen this gentleman side of him. I tried
tempting him when we were alone in the car, i could feel his erection as I straddled him on his seat but he still insisted that he
would rather walk me to the door. He walked me to the door. I thought he would get in but he didn't; he gave me a kiss on the
cheek like this was kindergarten or something. I told Gray everything and he couldn't believe it either, he thought maybe it was
just an act and maybe on the second date he would let loose of his gentleman Facade.
He had changed and I was a witness to that. He spent more time with the twins and was constantly around. He even attended
Ashton's soccer games, i watched him as he cheered for Ashton at the bleachers. It seemed like that was the only thing that
mattered to him at that moment. Ashley sat on his lap and I sat beside him watching his every emotion and action. He was so
concentrated on his sons game, he didn't notice the glances of admiration; I was giving him. I realised then and there that yes I
was happy and the twins were happy. This is exactly what was missing in our lives : Angelo.
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Right after the game, Angelo ruffled Ashton's hair and told him how proud he was of him. He was so engrossed in their
conversations telling his son other soccer techniques he could use; promising him that he would teach him sometime. My heart
seemed to limp with joy every time, i witnessed this. Ashton then pulled Angelo to meet his best friend : Ricky who was with his
parents the Pearsons. They invited us over to dinner just to celebrate how well the boys played. Angelo was hyped for it and
honestly it made me happy that he was making time for his kids.
Dinner with the Pearson's was just delightful. The kids chattered amongst themselves and we talked as parents. They asked
curious questions such as why they hadn't seen Ashton's father at any of the previous games, i quickly responded by saying that
it didn't matter because he was here now. I didn't want to dwell in the past, i should look forward to the future. Above all Ricky's
parents were quite nice people.
From there Angelo and I sort of had a time table of our own. He took me out on dates every Fridays; where we would just talk
about how my week went and how his week went and yes he still refused to touch me. We spent every Saturday together as a
family with the twins, the first week he planned out camping which ofcourse went horribly wrong but I appreciated the effort and
the twins didn't care as long as they were with their father. The second week, we went to Niagara Falls... it was amazing. Angelo
couldn't stop taking pictures of me and I couldn't stop blushing and the twins couldn't stop laughing and the people around us
couldn't stop staring as they were in awe. When we were alone at the hotel that night, he politely asked if he could kiss me and I
nodded unfortunately he didn't take it any further than that, which made me a tad bit disappointed but I liked how we were taking
things slowly.
The media started following us around and it made me uneasy. I didn't want my kids being constantly followed around and their
lives being publicized. Angelo promised he would sort it out and from there onwards we saw less and less paparazzi.
After four months of no sex, endless make out sessions, Friday dates, Saturday fun days...he proposed. I was caught off guard,
ofcourse he had asked me to be his girl friend just three months back but I just didn't expect it. It was my birthday, he always
goes all out when it's my birthday. That's one thing I have always known. Gray had organized a formal party at a five star hotel.
All my previous clients, friends, family, colleagues even Angelo's parents were present. I should have guessed that everyone
knew except me. My birthday cake was brought in and to my surprise, it was designed as a ring. I gasped when I saw Angelo
kneeling before me on one knee with an actual ring. Never in a million years did I, imagine that I could be this happy. I knew from
that moment that yes, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this man. He had proved to me that he had changed and I wasn't
going to throw his mistakes in his face everytime he did something wrong. Grayson and Cathy had been part of the plan all along
even the twins had chosen the engagement ring and I loved it. I didn't care how many diamonds were on the ring but I only cared
about who it came from and what it meant for the both of us.
tabula rasa, new beginnings.