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Nikolay:
I stared at Katerina for a few seconds before connecting my lips with hers again.
The fact that she has allowed me this would make things a whole lot easier for the two of us. At least, the two of us would know to consider one another a couple without feeling like we need to explain anything to anyone about it. And that was something that was very important.
I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her to bed before getting on top of her. Slowly stripping her out of her clothes.
Her cheeks reddened, and I smirked, kissing her cheeks, nose, and then finally her lips. I knew that it would take more than that to really get her ready for me, but judging by the fact that she was already turned on, I figured that it shouldn’t be taking me too long.
I got up from on top of her, slowly stripping myself out of my clothes before lying back, grinding against her before she caught sight of my cock. I knew that she would be feeling it against and inside her, but it would be a little easier for her to handle knowing that she hasn’t seen how big it was. My eyes were fixed on hers as I took her hand in mine, slowly squeezing it in assurance as I looked her in the eye.
The fact that she was threatened the way that she was annoyed me more than anything, and the fact that she hadn’t told me about it first hand didn’t make this any better either. But I knew to stay quiet about it for now. I was to deal with this later when I had the time for it, but for now, I would rather I choose to simply keep my topic vague.
I leaned in again, kissing her, this time, deepening the kiss as if my life depended on it. Katerina’s heating cock made my heart race against my ribcage with each breath that she took, and I couldn’t help the low growl
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that escaped my chest as I felt her whimpering when as she grew hotter, wanting to do this.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, has anyone ever told you that?” I asked, my voice softening. I had to admit, she really was a beautiful woman, and looking down at her right now, I couldn’t help but regret the way that I treated her, at least when it came to our needs as a couple. The two of us were very far from being lovers, but I at least owed it to her to treat her more gently. The woman was broken inside, and I could see it in her eyes. It just saddened me that she was doing this to simply show that she could satisfy me as a wife.
“Katerina, are you sure that you want this?” I asked again, pulling away to look her in the eye. Her cheeks reddened, and I smiled in assurance, letting her know that I would stop if she asked me to. The way she looked at me showed me her hesitation, letting me know that she was not ready.
“Nikolay, I told you that I want this.” She said, trying to hide her fear from her voice. Her being afraid of doing this was mostly normal, every woman. went through the same fear or nervousness when it came to her first time. But her fear was different, her fear was because she was not fully ready for this. She deserved to be in love when she had her first time, and she deserved to do it with someone who loved her back just as much if not
even more.
“I know that you said that you wanted this, Katerina, but I want you to really mean it. You deserve this, and you deserve to find someone who loves you…”
“Nikolay, I am a married woman, and when I married you, I knew my responsibilities well enough to know that this was one of them. Us having our issues and conflicts are what stopped me, but I never denied wanting this with you. I trust that you would not hurt me, and I want you to trust that I want this with you. It is what it is, that’s it.” She said, stooping me. Her voice which was once gentle was now completely void of emotion, as
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if enslaved to do something that she did not find herself convinced with. and that was something that killed the moment for me.
“No.” I said, moving away from on top of her, ignoring the pain between my legs as my cock grew heavy with the need to release, but the last thing that I wanted to do was find my release this way.
“What?” Katerina asked, frowning in confusion. She sat up, covering herself with the blanket that she was laying on top of and I shook my head at her, not wanting this to be how we ended up doing this.
Whether or not she chose to understand my motives right now did not matter to me. I had more things on my mind than just sex, and the last thing that I wanted was for her to think that I simply wanted her for that. If anything, I was a result of such a sexual night. I was one that my grandmother had put mother under pressure to do, and after that happened, she conceived me, the person who was abused by his father until he was old enough to fend for himself.
Mother herself was abused by the man for simply giving birth to me. It would not even mention the abuse that she has been through trying to win the man over. He had so many insecurities growing within the family that eventually, all I wanted to do was leave, and in the end, by the number of problems that mom caused me, I wanted nothing more than to rebel. It was one of the reasons why I fought to be with Anastasia.
For once in my life, I had done something simply because I wanted to do
- it.
I was not under anyone’s pressure when I was with her, and she was not being controlled when she was with me. The two of us were just free, and that was something that I loved to death. It was something that I knew was never going to happen with Katerina if she kept listening to mom.
The two of us were under enough pressure as it was, and the last thing we needed right now was to be put under this pressure. Whether it was her
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“Get dressed, Katerina. Mom and dad would be waiting for us at the dining table.” I said, not bothering to explain this to her. I would if I knew that she would listen, but at this point, being as angry as she was. I knew that she wouldn’t.
I got up from bed and put on my boxers before heading to the bathroom. I needed a cold shower to calm myself down, but catching Katerina’s reflection in the mirror, I frowned when I saw her wiping her tears from her eyes.
The fact that she asked for this and was rejected was not something that she would be getting over easily. But I also didn’t want her regretting a moment of anger or heat like this one.
I turned to face her, gathering the all the patience to take her reaction. But she showed none as I sat on the edge of the bed beside her, and instead, she simply looked down at her lap, avoiding my eyes completely.
“Katerina…”
“Never in my life have I been as humiliated as I am now.” She said, stopping me. Her eyes were dark with both anger and pain as she looked at me, trying to cover her tears which were forming in them. “I do not give a damn about what you are going to tell me, and I do not care about what you have in your head right now. Considering that you want to go and have dinner with your parents. Go on head and get ready, I will be dressed shortly.”
“Katerina, just listen…”
“Screw our
our marriage being real, Nikolay Ivanov.” She said, stopping me. “Screw you, screw your bloody girlfriend, and screw this fucked up marriage.”
“Fucks sake…”
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“I don’t want to hear it, Nikolay.” She said, raising her hands, stopping me. “Go back to your girlfriend. It seems like she is the ONLY person who would be able to deal with this. Maybe other women can too, but I can’t. I am sorry, but I have more pride and dignity than that.”
She got up from the bed, heading toward the bathroom as she held the sheets to her body, holding them as if her life depended on it, concealing herself from my vision. “If you do not mind, I would like to use your shower before I head off to my room. I cannot walk round the house in nothing but sheets, and my clothes are ruined…”