Alpha of Doom

"This turtles dead," Stella mumbles dropping her legs and feet, she rubs her temples and Liam hands her a glass of water as well as a nurofen tablet.

She gulps it down and I chuckle, perks of not drinking.

I stand up and look up at the sky filled with brightly lit stars, I walk out onto the grass and lay down looking up.

It's funny how we look up at the stars and talk about how beautiful they really are, even though they are already dead I guess this just means that the beauty in everything is eternal.

I feel a presence above me, they lay down next to me and intertwine our fingers.

Luca

I turn my head to look at him but see he is too looking up at the sky, the others join us laying down on the grass looking up.

This is cliché.

Turning my head back to the sky I search for any patterns, this was another thing I did when I was lonely at that old pack.

I would sneak outside and look up at the sky, even if there was no stars. I would randomly talk to the sky, thin air no matter how weird it sounds; it helped me.

I was in my most darkest place, and even just for a small moment I would forget my reality. The reality that will forever haunt me but I won't let it get to me, just because I was raped several times doesn't mean that changed me. I may have thought that he stole my innocence from me but now I'm thinking, I saved myself for someone special which is Luca.

And I like to think that Luca was my first so I'm going to think that, many girls don't get passed what I have been through and they are living with that for their whole lives only remembering those moments; but those moments shouldn't define who we are.

Not everyone gets a happy ending, those are in the books and movies and I know it sounds cliché because I got my happy ending but most people don't.

Books and stories put up expectations for how guys should act, us girls think they will be bad and we can change them but the truth is; we can't.

The monster or bad person isn't them, it's their fears controlling them. Fear out rules happiness, but we let it get to us.

The fairy tale movies..... They are again putting up expectations for girls to find a Prince Charming and live a happily ever after, the truth is that none of us really do.

We may get the guy or the girl but in the end there is the memories, you may forgive but not forget.

We never ever forget who a person was, but we look past that and see who they are now.

So why do they make the movies always a happily ever after when it's not true well except the fault in our stars, love is good... But it's also our worst nightmare.

The reality is sitting on the bathroom floor crying, asking yourself why? Why was I not good enough?

But there are the moments with special people that you need to remember, moments like these. Luca squeezes my hand and in that exact moment a shooting star passes, make a wish.

I wish that everyone finds happiness in their darkest moments.

"Woah," Lexi says.

"What are you thinking?" Luca whispers in my ear, I shiver feeling his breath "Nothing," I reply.

my neck.

He doesn't respond and looks back at the brightly lit sky, "Luca," I whisper, he looks at me. "Yeah?"

"Thank you.... For making me feel like I was enough, that I am enough; you are my light in the dark," I say, his arm goes around me and he kisses my mark.

Tingles erupt and I sigh in content, "flower I need to tell you something," I look at him waiting for what he has to say.

"Xavier.... Isn't your real brother," I freeze.

Xavier!

"I love you Lily, you will always be my little princess."

"I will protect you."

"LILY RUN!"

"W-what?" I whisper.

"I didn't want to tell you because everything was going good for you and I didn't want to destroy

your happiness, I was looking through his files and his last name said Xavier Miller, he was

adopted before you were born," reality is my biggest enemy.

"So you're telling me that everything I grew up knowing was a lie?"

He nods and I look at Xavier who's looking at me wide eyes, I stand and he does too.

"This doesn't change anything Lily."

"I know that but I would of liked to be informed by you, you knew!" I exclaim, "did you?" I point to Lexi.

"Whaaaa?" She says still not sober.

"Who else knew!?" I shout, Luca stands.

"Lily calm down, only Lexi, Xavier and I knew," I glare at him backing away.

"It's the pregnancy," Lexi 'whispers' very loudly.

"No, it's not! You all hid it from me, you know a true fact is that whatever is hidden in the dark

always comes to light? Didn't you think how I would react?" I ask shaking my head. "Look I'm sorry okay Lily! I just wanted you to be happy and I knew you would be mad if I didn't tell you, actually you know what? I'm not sorry that I did it so I wouldn't hurt you, I'm not sorry that I did it because I care about you, I'm not sorry I did it because I wanted you to be happy, and I'm not sorry that I did it because I love you Lily," he says.

My eyes drop to the floor, "I-I just would of liked to know," I whisper, he wraps his arms around

me gently.

"I know that, baby."

Xavier walks to me and Luca steps back, "why do I have such sh*t fate?" Everyone's eyes widen, surprised that I would swear.

Xavier chuckles, "no you don't," he whispers, "everything happens for a reason, we didn't tell you because we didn't want to hurt you from a lie that you grew up knowing was the 'truth.' You met Luca, sure he was a bîtch at the start but now look at him; god damn beauty!" Xavier pats him on the back, I smile with watery eyes.

"GROUP HUG!" Storm shouts, everyone stands and circles around me; we wrap our arms around each other.

"I love you guys," I say honestly.

They reply immediately, "let's do a confession thing," Storm suggests and I nod in agreement.

We sit in a circle, "Tyler I'm sorry that I used your toothbrush to clean up deer poo from my shoe," Tyler's eyes widen.

"YOU DID WHAT!?" He shouts.

"I knew he would react like this," Storm shakes her head and we all start snickering.

"You're telling me that I was 'cleaning' my teeth was a toothbrush that was adding more germs to my mouth?" He asks.

"Basically... I threw it out after!" She exclaims.

He huffs rolling his eyes but with a small smile, even he finds it hilarious!

Xavier clears his throat and we all turn our attention to him, "Tyler I'm sorry that I broke your

favourite baseball bat," Tyler's eyes widen yet again.

"WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME?!" He shouts at the sky.

I laugh loudly and Luca chuckles beside me, I grab his hand and look at him smiling.

"It was a common accident!"

"You said that someone trampled it!" Tyler exclaims, Xavier shrugs.

"My turn!" Lexi exclaims. "Luca I'm sorry that I gave you poo to eat saying that it was chocolate,

and I'm sorry that you didn't realise because that means you enjoyed it," Lucas eyes widen and

we all start cracking up laughing.

"What the actual f*ck!" He shouts.

"At least you enjoyed it?" Lexi says unsure, he blushes and I giggle.

"I did not enjoy it," he grumbles.

"Lily I'm sorry that I stole you favourite shirt because I like it," Storm says and I look at her wide

eyed.

"I have been looking for that everywhere! You are giving it back to me," I glare and she pouts.

"Luca I'm sorry that I accidentally tore some business paper,s" I blurt out, I quickly cover my mouth and he looks at me wide eyed.

"Are you being serious?" He questions and I stay still with pursed lips, "sh*t."

"Im sorry! It was an accident and I wasn't planning on sticky taping it together because you would know, I also wasn't planning on telling you," he huffs.

"Too late now..." He mutters, "Lily I'm sorry for lying to you about saving myself for my mate," I look at him wide eyed, he grimaces.

"WHAT!" I roar.

"I'm sorry! I'm a man with needs," I glare at him.

"Who?!" He again grimaces.

"You don't know her," jealousy consumes me, I saved myself for him partially...

Im not mad I'm just upset that I wasn't his first, I turn away from him waiting for the next person. Everyone awkwardly looks away and Stella clears her throat, "Liam I'm sorry that I broke your laptop with those important files that I blamed on the dog," his eyes widen.

"And I made him sleep outside when it was your fault! You should of been the one sleeping outside," he mutters and she scowls.

"Well I'm kinda sorry, well not really- for throwing away your favourite revealing dress," he growls, she's gasps.

"I was looking for that!" She flicks him on the head and he rubs it, "you ding dong, plus you shouldn't of made him sleep outside, he doesn't know what he's doing."

"Flower," Luca groans grabbing my by the waist and sitting me on his lap, I cross my arms over

my chest. "Don't be mad, please."

"I'm not mad, I'm.... Jealous, upset, I could kill," I grumble, he kisses up my neck and my

cheeks.

"It will always be you, no one else," he whispers.

"Do you promise?"

"I promise," he smiles.