Alpha of Doom

I wake up with Lucas arms around me tightly and I smile snuggling into him, his arms tighten around me and I sigh in content.

"Lily" Luca whispers, I hum in acknowledgment. "Do you want to see Michael today?" He asks softly and I freeze.

"Um..." I take a deep breath in, I can't be afraid forever "okay" I whisper and he nods standing up.

He walks into the ensuite with no shirt on and I turn to face him, he turns on the tap and splashes water on his face. His back ripples from the movements and I close my eyes, he's so beautiful. He looks up in the mirror and catches me looking, he smirks and does his hair. He walks back out and hauls me up "get ready."

"It's just alpha Jones" I whisper and he growls.

"Don't call him that, he doesn't deserve respect" he glares at the wall "and yes you will get dressed because you are going to show him that you are doing fine" I sigh and he throws clothes at me. I strip feeling his burning gaze on me, I made him mad. I slide on the leggings and put on the adidas shirt, I put on sneakers and I look up at Luca.

"Are you going to put a shirt on?" I ask and he shakes his head.

"Nope."

He grabs my hand and leads me the way, we end up at the cellars. It's not that bad smelling but it does smell of blood, he opens the metal gate with a finger print.

We walk in and he releases my hand, a guard bows respectfully and we stop at cell number 302.

I peak through and see Al- Michael sitting in the corner with bruises over his body "I've had my fun" Luca grins.

He opens the steel door and I go to touch the metal walls but Luca grabs my hands "don't touch it, that's silver" I nod and look down at the man who tortured me. Luca places something on the ground and I look to see its things that could hurt him like he hurt me.

He looks up and chuckles when he sees me "how's your shoulders doing?" He wheezes out.

Luca growls and I look at him in warning, he growls again and backs off leaning against the wall.

I inspect him and see his wrists are burned, there is claw marks on his legs and he has a swollen purple eye. Luca really did have 'fun.'

"You're going to torture me too? You know it actually doesn't make you a better person" he says.

"Of course you would know" I roll my eyes "why didn't you stop?" I whisper and he looks up. "Hurting you makes me forget, hurting everyone makes me forget" he mumbles.

"Helps you forget what?" He laughs bitterly.

"I don't need to answer to you" I bite my lip and pick up a knife, I bend down and cut his leg.

He hisses out in pain but that isn't enough for me, I need to hear him scream.

I slam it in his leg and he screams out in pain "what does it help you forget?" I ask again.

"It makes me forget them!" He cries out in pain.

"My parents? Your 'mate' so you did kill them!" I exclaim "why did you blame me!" I shout tears prickling my eyes but I blink them back. "BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO LIVE WITH THE PAIN OF KNOWING SHES DEAD!" He roars and kicks me with his feet, I Yelp and fall.

Luca growls and punches him "don't you dare hurt her again" he hisses.

He helps me up "you okay flower?" He whispers inspecting my body, I nod and look at him.

"Why d-did you kill them? You weren't the only one in pain you know? I was."

"It was an accident but I never killed my mate! I would never hurt her" He says shutting his eyes tightly.

"What did you do?" I growl.

Flashback. (Alpha Michael Jones pov)

The sun was bright, tanning all of our bodies. April was wrapped in my arms her baby bump big and wide, she snuggles under my large arm. Roy and Melanie were talking to them selves making slight jokes, Roy stills and sniffs the air.

"Rogues" he growls out.

I stand up on full alert and pick April up "Melanie please take April somewhere safe" she nods and grabs her hand running away with her.

All of a sudden an arrow flies out of nowhere and I watch it as it lands in front of us.

Wolves and people run out of the bushes roaring for life, I growl and snap someone's neck. I slash another persons throat and rip out someone's heart, Roy kicks a guy to the ground strangling him- he gives up on air soon. I hear feminine screams and I turn my head in a flash "April" I whisper.

I shift and follow her scent, I see her on the ground- her throat slices and blood coming out of her bottom half.

I shift back "APRIL!" I shout and drop next to her.

I lift her up "April" I whisper tears forming in my eyes, she looks at me and reaches up cupping my cheeks.

"I-I love you Michael" she whispers.

I shake my head "you're going to be okay, I will take the pain away!" I shout desperately, she smiles.

"It doesn't hurt" her voice cracks "take care of Sam, remember that I will always love both of you" she whispers her eyes closing.

"NO!" I rose dropping to the floor "WAKE UP!" But she doesn't.

I growl and stand with black eyes, there's so much pain.

I lost my mate and my baby, I snap someone's neck when they charge at me.

"Michael?" Melanie whispers, she looks down "APRIL!" She cries.

She rushes to her but before she can reach her I rip out her heart wanting everyone to feel the pain I feel.

"What did you do!?" Roy roars out charging at me, he punches me and claws at me tears in his eyes like mine.

"I will let you be with your mate, but I won't be with mine" I whisper snapping his neck.

I drop to the floor next to my mate and my best friends, Xavier, Lily and Sam. What am I going to do? Flashback over (Lily's pov.)

"THAT DIDNT GIVE YOU A RIGHT TO KILL MY PARENTS BECAUSE YOUR MATE DIED!" I cry out.

I feel it, the moment when all of your pain from years ago that you blocked away not wanting to come to the surface comes back.

There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don't feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try the pain comes again.

The pain never goes, the mind protecting its sanity covers it in a scar tissue but it still remains.

"I lied" I whisper and look at Luca "I lied to everyone and myself when I was saying everything's fine with me, the truth is I'm not fine and I can't handle anything anymore Luca."

"Why did you lie to me Lily?"

"I lied because I don't want you to know how much it hurts me."