SWNOVELS Chapter 43
Chapter 43
“Don’t go… I need you to be with me… please…” I looked at Emilina.
She was looking at me with pleading eyes. She needs me to be with her? I know she’s been going through a lot. She witnessed her daughter dying and she was kidnapped. I clenched my jaws watching her pale face. I can be with her any time but what about my daughter who just lost her life before she could even start it? She was just a three month old baby and she knew nothing. How wonderful her life would’ve been if she was alive? I felt my eyes were covered with tears once again. I felt the burning pain when I thought about her little face. I couldn’t just control the emotions in me. Why is it so painful?
I never thought that losing a child would be this painful. Becoming a father and enduring all the emotions is hard. Looking at Emilina’s devastated face, I didn’t feel like leaving her and at the same time I wanted to go and find about the bastards who did this. I can be with Emilina any time I want but I won’t be able to be with my daughter ever again, however, she isn’t alive anymore. I took a deep breath and walked towards Emilina as I wrapped my hand around her waist and took her back home.
Although my b*dy walked with her, I felt as if my soul had already gone too far to find my daughter’s murders and kill them at once. I will just take her home and be with her for a while until she feels okay. Then I have to go back again and find my baby. I won’t let those bastards escape so easily and I will kill the children and women and literally every motherfucker who is a part of this murder. Isabella…. I’m going to f**king skin her alive for what she did to my daughter. She must be thinking that she got her revenge but didn’t she realize that my revenge was always. more terrible than hers? I threw the murderous and painful thoughts in my head. and took Emilina back.
As soon as I came home, I saw Luan who’s coming towards me. Seeing him, my heart got even heavier and emotional. I lost his sister… and I don’t know what will happen to me if I lose this boy too. I need to protect him at any cost. I failed to protect Eléna and that’s why everything happened. I wasn’t a good father. I was a f**king/idiot. Luan hugged Emilina as soon as he saw her. His face was filled with emotions and he looked up at her with tears in his eyes. He must be upset after I asked him not to ignore this mommy and listen to what she says.
“Mommy… where were you? I… missed you” his childish voice made my heart let out an exhausted sigh. I couldn’t even listen to Elena’s voice. How adorable her voice could’ve been and I didn’t even get a chance to hear my daughter calling me daddy. She was just so small and why did something like that happen to my baby.
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Chapter 43
Why did she have to face an untimely death? Did she come to this world only for three months? I never thought of it when I held her for the first time. I had to control all my emotions because I didn’t want Luan to see me like this.
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“Where’s sister?” Suddenly Luan asked Emilina. His question could stab my heart for a thousand times. I moved my eyes to Emilina as I witnessed her staring at Luan without uttering anything. I know that she couldn’t speak, I know that she’s still shocked with the experience she had. How painful it was for her to see something like that? I clenched my jaws and walked to Luan as I picked him Giving Emilina a hard time with the same questions will give nothing but depression to her. She’s an emotional woman and she’s weak when it comes t enduring this kind of pain but still she does it and I know. However, this is a totally different situation. People are saying that mother’s love is far more stronger than father’s. If I’m this hurt I don’t even know how to understand her emotions.
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After all, she suffered a lot to give birth to Elena. She lost blood, she suffered, she just went near death for our daughter and now… I closed my eyes and forced myself to calm down and stop thinking about all the things.
“Let mommy rest now, she’s so tired. And how about we play outside for a while?” Luan looked at me but his eyes again found their way to Emilina who was still lowering her head. However, with a little upsetting mood, Luan nodded at me.
“Emilina, take a shower and sleep. We will talk about this later…” I said. She raised her head to look at me. She didn’t say anything but stare at me. Her eyes roamed all over my face and then she slowly nodded her head.
“Can…. you take me to the room?” She suddenly asked me. I sighed and nodded at her as I took her to the room before taking Luan out to play. I wanted to relax my mind a bit so I can move forward with everything. Being with Luan is such a comfortable thing and it can relax my mind but still my mind was running back to the painful part no matter how I tried.
After playing with Luan until he became so tired, I took him back into the house. Entering his room, I gave him a good bath and changed him into a new set of clothes. Next, what I did was to take him to have his evening snack. While Luan was eating, I went upstairs to check on Emilina. As I entered the room, she was on the bed looking at the n*ecklace I bought for her a few days ago. I couldn’t help but look at her face, she was weird but that doesn’t matter. When she found me in the room, she sat up on the bed and put the n*ecklace aside as she stared at me. I don’t. know what to say. I don’t know how to discuss that painful thing. I feel as if someone was ripping my soul apart leisurely and inhumanly.
“Can you recognize the places they kept you?” I asked her.
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Rather than asking how she was feeling and how she’s doing. I asked about that because I need to find them as soon as possible and destroy every single life. Emilina looked away from me as I asked her that question. Once again she refused. to answer me which made my heart tighten. Why isn’t she saying anything? Shouldn’t she be dying to see me killing the bastards who let her go through such pain? Doesn’t she want to get revenge on Isabella for doing that thing?
She went through a lot to give birth to Elena, she endured the pain like no one would ever do and she almost died. She didn’t even mind dying for her daughter. I still remember the words she said when I was taking her to the hospital, she wanted me to save the baby, not her. And now the baby she wanted to save and she sacrificed her health was gone, how can she still not talk to me about the bastards who did this. She knows that I’m going to kill them all and I won’t spare anyone!
“Talk to me, Emilina! Our daughter is gone! I lost something that I loved crazily, I need to give her justice. She wasn’t someone who was supposed to die like that. She was so small and had to live more but now she’s not with us anymore! I need to make them pay for what they did to her” her eyes suddenly fell on me and she grabbed me from my arm.
“Why aren’t you asking what happened to me? You didn’t even ask how I was feeling and how I am! She’s dead and won’t come back but we still can have babies!” Her words stunned me. I stared at her as if she just pulled the heart of my chest. Of course, I couldn’t ask her about herself and I couldn’t ask her how she’s feeling but what she said tore me apart. How can she simply say the word ‘dead‘? How f**king painful!
“We can’t have more children, you know it Emilina! You can’t have more children! She was the last one and now we lost her. How can you just utter it so casually? Especially the word ‘dead‘? It’s not about having more children, it’s about the baby we lost! No matter how many children we will have, we can’t have Elena again!”
I don’t know from where my rage came as I raised my voice at her. It just shocked me to hear something like that from her mouth. And what is this expression? How can she act so calm? The woman who begged, cried, struggled and refused to eat food when Luan was kidnapped, now acting as if something normal happened. How the fuck? How the fuck did she make up her mind so quickly? I know that I should ask her what happened and how she was feeling. That was my weakness because I couldn’t ask her any of these because I lost my right mind when I heard. that bad news.
“Okay… I’m sorry… what did they do to you?” She sighed and averted her gaze from me but didn’t answer my question. Is she mad at me? But this is not a situation. where she would be mad at me! We need to work together and find those people.
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She should tell me what exactly happened and where she was taken by those f**king rogues. And yes… about Isabella too.
She’s working with rogues. No wonder why I couldn’t find her but what surprised me was how Isabella made them accept her!
“I was raped!”
Emilina’s words left me speechless and my heart broken. She was raped? She was raped? I found myself going crazy… I clutched my hair and tried to take breaths wanting to throw this suffocation away from me but I failed to do so.
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