SWNOVELS Chapter 25
Chapter 25
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Emilina –
My whole b*dy froze when I heard him. Did he just say that she enjoyed all the humiliations I went through? My heart ached. Then my mind recalled the day I met Lucias after years and he must be right. Even that day she mocked me. I stared at Lucias not knowing what to say. I can see the burning and fresh hatred in his eyes as he mentioned about her. I clutched the skirt of my dress. My mind was just simply filled with countless complications and weird thoughts.
He married her… Why did he marry her if he hates her so much? I don’t understand. When I heard what he just did, it made my heart ache for her because she was also a woman. What kind of feelings will she have when she finds out? And if something like that happened to me, I wouldn’t be able to bear it. As a woman, can understand another woman’s pain but what Lucias just said made me doubt of everything.
I
“Wh- What happened back then? Tell me…. I want to know” I couldn’t help myself but wanted to know the truth. What happened and why did Lucias reject me? Why was she so happy when he rejected me? What was her reason? Why did she even want to stanch him from me?
Countless questions appeared in my head and I felt the urge to get the answers for everything. I wanted to know every single thing. I walked near him and grabbed his arm. I don’t want him to walk away from this question anymore. He never tells me what happened and I don’t know why he’s hiding all these things without telling me when he clearly knows that I was the one to suffer from everything that happened in the past.
I went through so much pain while being pregnant. I was abandoned and pregnant without anyone. Still, I gave birth to the child and raised him. I have no words to explain the physical and mental pain I endured. For years, even after the birth of Luan, I still suffered thinking about Lucias every night. How many times did I cry?
No… it’s countless… not even I know how many times I cried thinking about him. No one will ever know how hard it was for me to endure all those things all alone while raising a child. When my stubborn mind began to make me think about the past, I felt my heart was tearing apart and I’m still crying. He’s standing in front of me already saying that he loves me and he never stopped loving me but still my heart is in pain. I don’t know if I would lose him again. Everything is unpredictable or maybe I’m running after a mirage.
“I will tell you but not now” I shook my head. Why is it not now? I just want to
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know now. I need to know every single thing that happened.
“Why not now? Ain’t I your woman? I have always been! You abandoned me but I still lived for you raising your son. I did everything because I couldn’t stop myself from loving you and I want you to tell me. I need to know everything Lucias… this is not a hide and seek! Tell me! I deserve to know everything. Why did you reject me? Why did you say that you hate me and never loved me? Why did you do it on the best day of my life?” I don’t know where all this anger filled energy came from as I grabbed him from his shirt looking straight into his eyes. I want him to tell me what’s going on and what happened to us. To the love we shared. Who ruined and who made him ruin it and throw me away like trash.
“Emilina…. Listen… I don’t want you to take all these things to your mind and then overthink. I want you to live peacefully without thinking about anything else. I will deal with all these things. Just like I caused everything, I will fix everything back to normal. I will marry you again and name Luan as the next Alpha. All I want you to do is be patient and wait. Don’t think about anything else.”
As always….. As always… he just said the same thing he said. I let go of his shirt and moved away. He’s not going to tell me anything, does he? The same thing…. He just says something useless and escapes from the question. Why is he doing this? What’s wrong with saying all these things to me? It’s not that I’m going to leave him after learning the truth.
“If I am ready to take the burden and over think, why can’t you just tell me? You have no right to tell me these things and try to escape from this question. I want to know! This is not the first time we are arguing over this, Lucias. Just tell me and finish this argument here. What are you hiding this much? Did someone tell you not to tell me anything?” I asked him.
I know I should be silent and walk away without bothering him by asking this again and again but no. I need to know. I’m already living with him ignoring everything he did to me in the past. So he should have that respect towards me and tell me what’s wrong. Lucias stared at me for a moment and looked away as he clenched his jaws. I don’t care whether he’s angry or not! I want the truth!
“I don’t want to tell you! I’m not telling you. You can’t force me, Emilina. Why can’t you be happy with the things I’ve already given you? I stay with you all the time! I only go out if it’s urgent or have some work to be done. I have given myself to you completely. What more do you want? Why are you chasing after the past? I told you that I love you and I’ll be with you from now on. What are you expecting other than that? You getting to know the truth won’t change anything. Can you do anything about the past? Can you change it? No! Both you and I can’t do a fuck
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about it so just stop asking me this all the time, Emilina. Give me a f**king rest! I have enough problems. I want you to make me feel okay, not to give me more problems! Why won’t you understand? I wouldn’t do anything without a reason and I have reasons not to tell you!”
things like
Lucias finished as he walked past me. His words are like sharp knives against my chest. It hurts when he raises his voice at me and it hurts when he says t these. I can’t change the past or do anything about it but at least I can know the reasons. At least I can fix myself, my heart. I stood there listening to Lucias walking
away.
He was right… he gives me all the love and care that I always wanted from him. He stays here with me. He spends his time with me and he just literally gave himself to me without a hesitation. And now he had done something like that to his wife in order to be with me. He was right about all those things but… isn’t it unfair? Unfair not to let me know why I had to go through such a pain?
I wiped my tears and left the room wanting to look for Lucias but even when I came out of the house, he had already gone. I don’t even know where he left. Am I wrong? Am I just wrong for asking him the truth? I stayed outside for a while hoping he would come but Lucias didn’t come. I made him angry and went away. All I wanted was the reasons and he doesn’t want to tell me.
He just walked away from me after saying all those things. I sighed and went into the house ignoring him. I won’t care if he comes home today or not. He can do anything he wants. After all, he’s always like that. He only supports his decisions. and never listens to me. Why am I even surprised?
It was already night and Lucias is not here yet. I wanted to cry so loudly but I decided not to. I grabbed a shower and got ready to go to bed because I was not going to wait for him. He walked away with anger and he will come when his anger is gone and I’m not going to support him for that.
Once I was done, I got on the bed and covered my b*dy with the quilt as I closed my eyes to sleep as I pulled Luan closer to me. I’m sleeping with Luan today, not going to be with Lucias. I don’t know if he will come home or not but I don’t care either. He can do anything he wants and I’m not going to meddle with his stupid life anymore.
I slowly fell asleep. While I was sleeping, I felt as if I’m floating. I fluttered my eyelashes for a while and then opened my eyes to see Lucias. Soon I realized he was carrying me to our room. What time is it now? When did he come? I don’t Want to be good with him after he walks away like that and I’m not going to sleep on the same bed as him anymore!
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“Put me down!” I hissed, struggling. Lucias ignored me and took me to our room as he put me on our bed. As soon as he put me there, I got up wanting to leave the room and go back to Luan’s room. I couldn’t lock the door before I went to sleep. and I regret it now. He showed me his attitude earlier and now it’s my time. I can give him the best punishment by not letting him touch me. So I’m going to do it
now.
“Where are you going now?” He asked with a sigh.
“To Luan’s room. I’m not going to sleep with you.” I said as I walked towards the bed but Lucias stopped me as he walked faster towards the door and locked it, shoving the keys to his pocket. Why is he so annoying? He can do whatever he wants but I can’t? I stared at him for a while and then looked for the time. It’s already eleven. Where was he until now? I moved my eyes back to him.
“Let me go. I don’t want to sleep here. You can have your f**king rest alone!” I reminded him of the words he said to me earlier. Hearing me, Lucias chuckled and came to me as he wrapped his arm around my waist pushing me onto the bed and climbing on top of me. He can dream of having S** with me tonight. I won’t
let him!
“So you are mad at me for that?” Is it even a question? I am mad at him because of his rudeness, as well as his attitude that he gave me earlier. How confined and flawless he was with his actions and words!
“Just go away Lucias!” I pushed him away but he’s like a rock! Can’t even move him! “I’m not going away” He whispered, k*ssing my n*eck.
“Why? Didn’t you walk away like a legend earlier? So c do it again!”